Parking Lot Redux by sharky
Past Featured StorySummary: Jim and Pam try to fix what's broken in the parking lot the day he comes back from Stamford.
Categories: Jim and Pam, Episode Related Characters: Jim/Pam
Genres: Fluff, Oneshot
Warnings: None
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 2 Completed: Yes Word count: 2718 Read: 5634 Published: November 17, 2006 Updated: November 30, 2006

1. The First Day Back by sharky

2. Tomorrow by sharky

The First Day Back by sharky
Author's Notes:

Disclaimer: These are not my characters. If they were, I wouldn't have to be writing fanfic to make me feel better about what happened at the end of The Merger.

This is just cheese ball angsty fluff to reconcile what happened in the parking lot vs. what I wanted to have happen in the parking lot because those are two different things.

"We're friends. We'll always be friends."

Pam put an emphasis on the "always" but all Jim heard was "friends"...again.

"Friends," he repeated to her.

"Yea," she said. "And Karen is really nice. I like her."

"What?"

"Karen? She's nice."

He didn't remember mentioning Karen to Pam. In fact, he was sure he hadn't mentioned Karen to Pam because he was being very cautious about not doing that. But he couldn't figure out why he didn't want to mention Karen's name in front of her.

"Yea," he said, staring at his feet. "Yea. So...um...I better get going."

"Oh yea...I didn't mean to hold you up. I'm sure you have some more unpacking to do tonight," Pam said.

There was something in her voice -- some little thing -- that made it sound like more than just a statement. He realized immediately what it was -- just enough bitterness to make it noticeable. It was a classic guilt trip. She knew he wasn't going home and that whole settling in thing was an excuse. The last time he got a guilt trip laid on him like that, it was his Mom bitching because he hadn't done the dishes. He just needed to get out of here and get out of this fast. He was going to have dinner with Karen and he was going to like it and not think about anyone else.
He looked down again at his feet. "Ok, well, I'll see you tomorrow."

"Yea, tomorrow."

He turned to go back to his car and heard Pam's car door slam behind him. He did the same thing with his, pulling it closed with more force than usual. He took a deep breath to calm down as he watched Pam's car in his rear view mirror pull out of her spot. He put his car in reverse and pulled out of his.

As she drove in front of him past Michael's Sebring, Jim looked out at that spot in the parking lot where he stood that night. Where he put it all out there. He wondered if Pam even remembered that.

She remembered. He figured as much when Pam's car stopped in front of him, right in front of that spot. He watched her car's brake lights go bright red and then off as she shut her car down and opened her door. He rolled down his window as she walked over to the Toyota.

"Can you get out of the car for a second?" she asked him.

"What?"

"Please?"

Why did she keep stringing him along like this? He left months ago and nothing had changed. But Karen was still at the grocery store so she probably was going to be late to Cooper's. He needed to just get this done with -- whatever he and Pam had to work through, they just needed to work through it and get it over with so he could move on.

She looked at him with an accusatory stare. "Why didn't you want to have coffee with me?"

If that was the worst Pam was going to throw at him, this wouldn't be so bad. "I told you. I still have some boxes that I need to unpack."

"It's really because you already have plans tonight with Karen. Right?"

The stomach gave a sudden lurch. He had walked right into that without even realizing it. "I um..." He was trying to think of an excuse, any excuse to give Pam, and couldn't come up with one. "I have plans with Karen tonight," he said, hoping it was in a way that would soften any pain that would cause Pam. He shouldn't care about hurting her anymore after what she did to him, but he felt he should at least try and be cordial about it all.

She nodded her head and wouldn't look at him. He barely heard her whisper "I screwed all of this up." She turned and started to walk away from him back to her car.

That was it. He couldn't do this anymore. "Pam?" She stopped, but didn't turn around. "What are you talking about?"

She turned only half way back to him, her eyes still not meeting his. Her voice broke through the silence, a bit choked. "Jim, my life is a bit of a mess right now, but I thought I would at least be able to have us again. I would at least have you to talk to again. You were always the stable one that would be there for me no matter what." He heard her take a deep breath in, realizing this whole thing was harder on her than he thought it would be. "I just...It was only natural for you to move on with your life. I know that. I know I should have told you about the wedding. I should have called you. I'm sorry about all of it. Just promise me you're happy. That's all I need."

He couldn't promise her that because he wasn't. He just wanted to run up and hold her and tell her it was all going to be ok. The only problem was the nagging feeling in his heart that he had already done that, had already held her, and she let him walk away.

They stood there in a silence that seemed like an eternity, not moving at all. It was like that night on that booze cruise, standing on the deck in complete silence with so much passing between them. Finally, Pam broke the tension as she turned and started walking back to her car. He couldn't take his eyes off her.

"Pam?" He saw her hand pause on the handle of the car door. "What about tomorrow night?"

"What about it?" she said, turning her head to look at him.

"Kelly was telling me there's a new coffee shop down by Poor Richard's."

She smiled that smile that always melted his heart. He didn't realize how much he missed it until this morning when he saw it again after being gone for so long. "Tomorrow sounds good."

He nodded. "Ok, tomorrow."

They looked at each other and everything seemed to start clicking back in place. "Good night, Jim."

"Night, Pam."

They got in their cars and Pam turned left out of the parking lot to her new apartment. Jim turned right and headed to Cooper's for dinner.

He liked Karen, he really did. She was smart and funny and so easy to get along with. There was no baggage between them. But sitting at that table with her that night, he realized she just wasn't the person for him. He could never make her happy and she would never make him happy because he was in love with someone else.

Things would start getting better tomorrow.

Tomorrow by sharky
Author's Notes:

Ok, I thought this was going to be a oneshot, but then I realized I had to add on.

I'm not claiming any of these characters as my own because they don't belong to me. They don't sleep in my house or pay half the rent or anything.

He got to her apartment around 7 o'clock the next night. Her place was on the way and he figured why not just pick her up.

What he hadn't bet on was how much different she would look compared to the Pam he saw at the office that day. He had gone home to switch his jacket and tie for a cream sweater, but Pam was a completely different story. She met him down in the lobby of her apartment building wearing straight-legged jeans with high heeled black boots and a pink coat she had buttoned up to protect her from the November cold. She also let her hair down and it cascaded over the shoulders of her coat. She was gorgeous as always in Jim's mind.

"You ready?" she asked.

"Yep," Jim told her, trying to sound casual despite the fact that his heart was racing.

They walked out to his car in the parking lot and he unlocked the passenger door for her. "You will be happy to know I cleaned the Corolla for you."

"I'm impressed," she said, climbing in.

Jim got in on his side and noticed she was looking around the car. "You didn't believe me, did you?"

She laughed. "I did. It's just that now that I have my own car, it's become a bit of a mess with my stuff in it. I don't remember what a clean car looks like."

Jim was about to ask what it was like before with Roy's truck -- was he a neat freak about it or was it just his crap in the... No, he told himself. We won't talk about that tonight. It's just Pam and me tonight.

They got to Scranton Perks and Jim easily found a parking spot on the street.

"I thought you didn't like parallel parking," Pam said.

"My apartment in Stamford was on a busy street so I had to get used to it," he said.

"Gotcha," she said, trying to sound nonchalant. She didn't want to hear about Stamford, didn't want to even hear the name of the damn town. She just wanted to forget that whole thing about Jim leaving.

They walked inside and Jim looked around. The walls were a cranberry red with plush couches and chairs, small tables, and art work on the walls. He followed Pam up to the counter and ordered a plain coffee. She got a latte. "A latte, huh?" he said. "Fancy NewBeesly indeed."

She smiled and they both started to pull their wallets out before she stopped him. "I invited you so I'm buying."

"Pam, I can pay for my own coffee."

"I'm sure you got a big pay raise for agreeing to be Michael's Number Two, but we're not in the office right now so I'm buying," Pam said, handing the guy behind the counter her money before Jim could say anything else. He felt bad he wasn't paying -- especially considering she was right and he did indeed get that nice raise -- but he also liked this assertive version of Pam.

They grabbed their drinks and sat down in two black chairs in the corner. Pam unbuttoned her coat, revealing a dark red shirt underneath that matched the walls of the coffee shop. Jim noticed the plunging neck line -- something he never saw Old Pam wear -- and the shimmer from some sort of sparkly lotion or perfume she must have put on. He couldn't help but take it all in.

"I like that shirt," he said as casually as possible.

"Really?" Pam asked. "Kelly talked me in to buying it online and I like it, but I don't know. I thought about returning it and just never got around to it."

"I'm glad you kept it. It looks good on you."

"Thanks," she said, looking down at her latte to take a nervous sip.

The rest of the night was just small talk, really just a way to catch up with each other after not speaking for all those months. There wasalot to catch up on. Pam told Jim about all the things that happened in Scranton while he was gone. Jim gave Pam the cliff notes version of the Stamford office and what everyone there was like.

"Did I hear Andy call you 'Big Tuna' today?" Pam asked him.

"Uh...yea, yea you did."

"What was that about?"

"Well, I decided I'm in Stamford, I made this change, so why not keep going? So I brought a tuna sandwich to work and Andy has called me Big Tuna ever since."

Pam had to laugh at that one. "I'm sorry, but I will never be able to bring myself to call you Big Tuna."

"Please don't be sorry for that," he said as he picked his coffee off the table.

There was an awkward silence that fell between them. All Jim wanted to do was ask Pam about the wedding and why she hadn't called. All Pam wanted to do was ask about Karen and explain why she hadn't called. But it had become this unwritten rule between them that they wouldn't take about that. It was just a night for them to try and at least get back to where they had been before things had changed so dramatically.

"Oh um, Dwight liked your gaydar," Pam said, breaking the silence.

"Really?"

"Ok, not really. It worked fine until his belt buckle set it off."

"No way!"

"It was hilarious! He got this 'deer in the headlights' kind of look on his face. It was so great." Her energetic voice dropped to nearly a whisper and she looked down at her hands. "I wish you would have been here to see that."

"Me too," Jim said sincerely

Pam looked down at her cup and Jim's. "You done with your coffee?"

"Yea. Ready to go?"

Pam nodded and grabbed their coats as Jim picked up their cups from the table and took them over to the trash can by the front door. He looked up and noticed a painting hanging on the wall that he hadn't seen when he came in. It was the sky line of downtown Scranton and for some reason, it struck him in an odd way. It wasn't a normal view of downtown, but it looked familiar to him as if he had once stood in the same spot that the painter had set up their canvas.

Then he realized he hadn't stood in that spot. He sat in it. With Pam. He looked at the label next to the painting.

Artist: Pam Beesly
Scranton Art School
Oil on canvas

"This is the Scranton sky line from the roof of my office building where I once shared some amazing grilled cheese sandwiches with a friend. After he moved away, I would go up there to paint as a way to remember that night and this view always reminds me of him."

Jim swallowed hard, trying to suppress the lump that had formed in his throat.

He turned around to see Pam standing behind him, holding their coats, a look of apprehension on her face. He smiled. "You didn't tell me you had a painting in here."

"Do you like it?" she asked.

Did he like it? There were so many words he wish he could think at that point to explain how beautiful it was, how beautiful she was, how he was so touched that she could said anything she wanted to about this painting and had said something about a night they had shared together. He wished he could say all that, but his mind was so blank, he couldn't find any words to articulate any of it.

"I really like it," he said, his voice breaking.

Pam smiled that warm smile he always loved, the one that was so big, it would even light up her eyes. "I'm glad," she said, handing him his coat.

They walked out to his car and he once again opened her door for her before getting in and starting the car.

"So I guess those art classes are paying off?" he asked her teasingly.

"So far, so good," she said.

"How were you able to get your painting in the coffee shop?"

As Jim put the car in drive, Pam started talking about how the shop had approached her art school and wanted to feature local artists. She talked about her professor actually pulling her aside after class to specifically request that painting to display. She said the professor told her he thought it was her best work. Jim smiled.

She finished her story just as he pulled into the parking lot of her apartment building. "Ok, Beesly, the ride ends here. I'm kicking you out!"

She smiled and he smiled back as a silence fell between them. Then she put her hand over his on the gear shift, leaned over, and gave him a kiss on his cheek. It was kind of awkward and not very smooth, but Jim didn't notice that at all.

She pulled away and gave him her sweet smile again. "I'll see you tomorrow?" she asked.

"Indeed you will," he said back.

"Alright, so I'll see you then," she said, fumbling with the handle of the door before finally getting it open.

"Night, Pam!" Jim called her.

"Night!" she called back as she closed the door.

Jim made sure she had made it into her building ok before he put the car in drive. He smiled, realizing his cheek still burned where she had kissed him.
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