Penname: Dernhelm Real name: Tonya
Member Since: November 07, 2019

Bio:

Three little facts about me:

1) I'm a work-from-home mom from Kyiv, Ukraine.  

2) I'm super late to the party, but  I do my best to turn my excitement with the show into the content (hopefully, qualitative). 

3) I care about Pam Beesly more than about any other fictional character in all the existent fandoms.  


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Revelations by shan21 Rated: T [Reviews - 70] 24
Summary: This started out as a one-shot called "Just." I decided to make it a series of surprises instead. Chapter 3: A dozen revelations that Jim doesn’t have, and one that Pam does.
Categories: Jim and Pam, Present, Episode Related
Characters: Angela, Jim/Pam, Karen, Toby
Genres: Angst, Inner Monologue, Workdays
Warnings: Adult language
Series: None
Chapters: 3 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 9174 Read Count: 13841 ePub Downloads: 1
[Report This] Published: February 05, 2007 Updated: February 22, 2007
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: November 08, 2019 Title: Chapter 3: Almost

It's a great story. It's a shame that it's unfinished, but every piece of it so perfect, and everyone so in character, that's... I give up, it's just fantastic. I feel like Kelly trying to talk about its merits.

Roses by NeverEnoughJam Rated: K+ [Reviews - 34] 24
Summary: Past Featured StoryThere's a reason Meredith gets drunk on Valentine's Day, and it's not the obvious one. Spoilers through "Phyllis' Wedding".
Categories: Jim and Pam, Other, Present
Characters: Jim/Pam, Meredith
Genres: Holiday, Inner Monologue
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 1696 Read Count: 3210 ePub Downloads: 0
[Report This] Published: February 12, 2007 Updated: February 12, 2007
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: October 19, 2020 Title: Chapter 1: Roses

I'm crying, that is so beautiful. Poor Meredith, she didn't deserve this...
Thank you!

Summary: Past Featured StoryJim, Pam, Pam's 'all time favorite' movie, and the little push they need.  Spoilers up to Phyllis's Wedding.  A little angst, a little fluff...my first ever Office fic, just a little almost-Valentines Day oneshot I wrote yesterday.  Enjoy, feedback would be awesome.
Categories: Present, Jim and Pam
Characters: Jim/Pam
Genres: Oneshot
Warnings: No Warnings Apply
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 3610 Read Count: 4634 ePub Downloads: 2
[Report This] Published: February 15, 2007 Updated: February 15, 2007
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: November 27, 2019 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

I'm crying. Wonderful story.

Summary:

 Michael’s leaning forward on his elbows, staring at her across his desk.  “That was definitely heroic and, if I may say so, romantical of you.  Well done.” While he shoots her what is meant to be a congratulatory grin, Pam stares down at the teal glass shards in her laps, still clutching the ice pack, trying desperately to pretend that the tears have stopped.

Post-Cocktails.


Categories: Jim and Pam
Characters: Jim/Pam
Genres: Angst
Warnings: Adult language
Series: None
Chapters: 4 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 14657 Read Count: 13572 ePub Downloads: 3
[Report This] Published: April 02, 2007 Updated: April 29, 2007
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: November 27, 2019 Title: Chapter 4: Days Go By

I hope one day you'll update this story. It's heartbreaking, amazing, wonderful and so deep. I'm terrible with the words, but you are perfect. Thank you for emotions and tears.

Summary: Past Featured Story

A collection of brief everyday moments: sleeping, showering, working, eating...(sounds exciting, huh?)

Each part is a mini-one shot (i.e., not a WIP with one ongoing narrative); no spoilers.


Categories: Jim and Pam, Present, Future
Characters: None
Genres: Drabble, Inner Monologue, Romance, Weekend, Wet Pam/Jim, Workdays
Warnings: Adult language, Mild sexual content
Series: None
Chapters: 7 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 3731 Read Count: 49440 ePub Downloads: 4
[Report This] Published: September 05, 2007 Updated: November 12, 2007
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: January 07, 2021 Title: Chapter 2: Indian Summer

It's unbelievably sweet. Thank you so much for creating such a heartwarming picture!

Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: January 07, 2021 Title: Chapter 4: Want to write you a love letter

I don't know what to say, it's so, so beautiful. The whole story is fantastic, but this chapter is special to me.
Thank you!

Hope by nomadshan Rated: M [Reviews - 43] 44
Summary: Past Featured StoryGreat Depression AU.
Categories: Jim and Pam, Alternate Universe
Characters: Jim/Pam, Other, Pam/Roy
Genres: Angst, Holiday, Humor, Romance, Steamy
Warnings: Moderate sexual content
Series: None
Chapters: 17 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 22191 Read Count: 32380 ePub Downloads: 20
[Report This] Published: September 24, 2007 Updated: September 24, 2007
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: November 25, 2019 Title: Chapter 16: May 1990

This story is beautiful beyond words. I'm crying right now, after finishing reading. Thank you for all these emotions.

Summary: Past Featured Story

What if Pam refused to let Angela drop her off at home after the Dundies?

“I want to go to Jim’s,” Pam said, interrupting Angela’s thoughts.

Angela felt as though her head might pop off and land in one of her cup holders. Would the depravity of this night never end?


Categories: Jim and Pam, Episode Related
Characters: Angela, Jim/Pam
Genres: Drunk Pam/Jim, Romance
Warnings: Moderate sexual content
Series: None
Chapters: 6 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 19942 Read Count: 55341 ePub Downloads: 16
[Report This] Published: November 04, 2007 Updated: December 17, 2007
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: November 09, 2019 Title: Chapter 6: Pam Pong

Oh my, this story is amazing and adorable, and all of these at the same time. And Angela - I heard her voice and saw her disapproval while reading. Thank you, thank you, thank you!

Bonus Gifts by shan21 Rated: K [Reviews - 32] 33
Summary: Past Featured StoryHow would things have turned out if Pam read the card that came with her teapot?
Categories: Jim and Pam, Episode Related
Characters: Dwight, Jim/Pam, Roy
Genres: Fluff, Holiday, Oneshot, Romance
Warnings: No Warnings Apply
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 3628 Read Count: 6200 ePub Downloads: 2
[Report This] Published: January 05, 2008 Updated: January 05, 2008
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: November 08, 2019 Title: Chapter 1: Bonus Gifts

Such a sweet and fantastic story! Thank you for the better ending than in the show.

Summary:

Passion, possession, and paint in the wee morning hours.


Categories: Jim and Pam, Future
Characters: Jim/Pam
Genres: Dream/Fantasy
Warnings: Mild sexual content
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 1657 Read Count: 4185 ePub Downloads: 5
[Report This] Published: April 20, 2008 Updated: April 20, 2008
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: February 20, 2021 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

I feel that I know not enough words to express how beautiful this story is. All that I can do is thank you silently for this wonder.
Thank you!

The First by BigTuna Rated: M [Reviews - 123] 54
Summary: A series of firsts in Jim and Pam's relationship, through Pam's POV. This is the Jim and Pam that we all know and love! Appropriate chapters will be flagged for content and episode spoilers.
Categories: Jim and Pam, Present, Past, Future, Episode Related
Characters: Jim/Pam
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Mild sexual content
Series: None
Chapters: 19 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 46440 Read Count: 64459 ePub Downloads: 10
[Report This] Published: February 10, 2009 Updated: May 19, 2009
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: February 16, 2020 Title: Chapter 7: Reunion

I'm still reading this story (it's a great idea, and I enjoy every chapter!), but I feel I need to stop in this chapter particularly.
I was in... well... similar situation many years ago, and when I was reading the chapter, it hit me so hard with all the memories I have and all the feelings I sensed that time. Seriously, I was reading it with a lump in my throat. The way your writing makes me feel it's just... it's a talent. You have the talent to capture emotions and retranslate them into words and... gah, I'm not so skilled with words as you are :)
Five jellybeans are not enough to praise this fic. Thank you!

Summary: What if Jim had driven Pam home from the Dundies?
Categories: Jim and Pam, Present, Episode Related, Alternate Universe
Characters: Angela, Jim, Jim/Pam, Pam
Genres: Angst, Claustrophobic Spaces, Drunk Pam/Jim, Oneshot, Romance
Warnings: Adult language
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 2222 Read Count: 4728 ePub Downloads: 4
[Report This] Published: July 19, 2010 Updated: July 21, 2010
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: February 10, 2020 Title: Chapter 1: So let go, jump in...

Oh my, this is so sad and so, so beautiful! Thank you for this wonder.

Author's Response: d84;a039;d84;a039;d84;a039;

Author's Response: <3<3<3

In Hand by shutterbug Rated: K [Reviews - 8] 18
Summary:

Jim returns the favor and reads Pam's palm. 

Post Episode for "The Fight" (S2E6).


Categories: Jim and Pam, Present
Characters: Jim, Jim/Pam, Pam
Genres: Angst, Oneshot, Workdays
Warnings: No Warnings Apply
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 1019 Read Count: 1649 ePub Downloads: 0
[Report This] Published: May 03, 2017 Updated: May 03, 2017
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: December 13, 2019 Title: Chapter 1: In Hand

Oh, wow, it's... it's... it's just wow. I love the way how important stuff is hidden behind their usual banter. And Pam's reaction... the open ending... I enjoy every part of it!

Summary:

June10coverOr "Versions of June 10, 2016"

A collection of one-shots exploring some "what if" scenarios on what would have been Pam and Roy's 10th wedding anniversary.


Categories: Jim and Pam, Future
Characters: Jim, Jim/Pam, Pam, Pam/Roy
Genres: Angst, Kids/Family, Romance
Warnings: Moderate sexual content, Other Adult Theme
Series: None
Chapters: 4 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 11607 Read Count: 4932 ePub Downloads: 1
[Report This] Published: June 05, 2017 Updated: August 16, 2017
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: June 11, 2021 Title: Chapter 4: Is it too late to remind you how we were?

You're totally right — I loved it! It stung a little — ten years apart was a lot — but this pain is sweet. Thank you for writing (and recommending!)
I hope one day I'll be brave enough to read the three other parts too :')

Error Code by Comfect Rated: T [Reviews - 42] 67
Summary:

AU: Dunder Mifflin and the characters are real, but subject to a media and internet blackout about their own show. Pam gets suspicious when a simple search for "jam" returns an error code saying it is related to the show. 

 Set somewhere vaguely in an AU S2. 


Categories: Jim and Pam, Alternate Universe
Characters: Dwight, Jim, Jim/Pam, Mark, Pam, Roy
Genres: Drama, Fluff
Warnings: Adult language
Series: None
Chapters: 17 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 18108 Read Count: 32993 ePub Downloads: 16
[Report This] Published: September 14, 2017 Updated: September 27, 2017
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: June 17, 2020 Title: Chapter 17: Chapter 17

I read the whole story with a huge smile on my face that didn't go away even at the most awkward and angsty moments. I like this idea, and the realization is just perfect! And there were so many moments I adore — my favorite, probably, was when Pam thought that fire wasn't the best thing to build a relationship on.
Thank you for this sweet story!
P.S. It doesn't relate to the story, but I share Dwight's feelings toward 'The Hobbit' movies...

Author's Response: Thank you for going back and reading this old thing (this is literally the first fanfic I ever wrote for the Office)! I'm glad it held up. I also share Dwight's opinions...which is why I chose to write them in ;). 

A Bad Date by Comfect Rated: K [Reviews - 10] 20
Summary:

Jim and Pam's first week together--starting with a bad date, and ending with a ring.

challenge challenge entry q4 2017


Categories: Jim and Pam
Characters: Jim, Jim/Pam, Pam
Genres: None
Warnings: None
Challenges: Bad Date (jam style)
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 678 Read Count: 1918 ePub Downloads: 0
[Report This] Published: November 18, 2017 Updated: November 18, 2017
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: April 12, 2020 Title: Chapter 1: Reverse Jinx

I do believe that their first date was a little awkward (and a tad angsty). But hey! I love the way they sorted things out in this story! Just lovely :)

Author's Response: Thanks! This was a fun challenge to do. I recommend it to others!

Summary: Past Featured Story

The Office meets Parfumerie/She Loves Me/Shop Around the Corner/You've Got Mail. Pam and Jim meet earlier in life in AOL trivia chatrooms without knowing who each other are. 

In addition to the above-mentioned sources, also owes a lot to a number of fics on this site, most notably Expressions in Emoticons and the Love-Song of Squirrel McPants. 

Now Complete: AU, starting before S1 (and thus also a Prior Meeting), running into S2.


Categories: Jim and Pam, Present, Past, Episode Related, Alternate Universe
Characters: Dwight, Jim, Kelly, Oscar, Pam, Roy, Toby
Genres: Angst, Childhood, Drunk Pam/Jim, Fluff, Holiday, Inner Monologue, Romance
Warnings: None
Challenges: Prior Meeting, Instant Messaging
Series: None
Chapters: 32 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 32205 Read Count: 44065 ePub Downloads: 28
[Report This] Published: December 01, 2017 Updated: December 26, 2017
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: March 19, 2020 Title: Chapter 32: Epilogue

I just found it out, and I love it! I'm a fan of the idea Jim and Pam met before DM, and your story is so good. Sometimes it was difficult to understand why they didn't figure out who was who earlier (though how much time it took for them to sort things out in the show, so... that's fine). But. But! Pam's ultimate prank - all was worth it! I tried to recreate the whole scene in my head - I think it must be filmed as well :)
Thank you so much for this story!

Author's Response: So I guess I'm a year late in responding to this ;) but thank you so much! 

Wake Me Up by agian18 Rated: MA [Reviews - 100] 113
Summary: Past Featured Story

**NOW COMPLETE!!**

Jim receives a peculiar call from Pam in the middle of the night that slowly turns into a habit for the pair.

Multi-Chapter, set after Booze Cruise.

Based loosely on the lyrics to "Wake Me Up" by Billy Currington (wait, I'm writing a fic based on a song?!? Who would've thought? ;) 


Categories: Jim and Pam
Characters: None
Genres: Angst, Fluff, Humor, Romance, Weekend
Warnings: Adult language, Explicit sexual content
Series: None
Chapters: 36 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 129656 Read Count: 107408 ePub Downloads: 87
[Report This] Published: December 03, 2017 Updated: May 21, 2018
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: December 13, 2019 Title: Chapter 36: Epilogue: Awake

Great, amazing, fantastic story! Even in the angstiest times, it was so sweet.
I've been reading it with a smile on my face, and I am definetely going to re-read it!

Restart by agian18 Rated: T [Reviews - 106] 109
Summary:

Just as quickly as life can give you everything you've ever wanted, it can take it away on a dime. When tragedy strikes, will Jim and Pam's love be able to stand the tests?

Set during the summer between S2/S3. 

For those of you who watched Lost or Once Upon a Time, the theme of flashbacks will be heavily played with in this one :) 


Categories: Jim and Pam
Characters: Jim/Pam, Pam/Roy, Roy
Genres: Drama, Fluff
Warnings: Violence/Injury
Series: None
Chapters: 21 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 79432 Read Count: 117091 ePub Downloads: 26
[Report This] Published: February 15, 2018 Updated: November 10, 2019
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: December 30, 2019 Title: Chapter 21: Chapter 21

Wonderful and painful story. Though I was expecting a happy end, the roller coaster was tremendous. I don't know how I feel if read it on-going, he-he :)
I like the way Jim acted every time so much... the world doesn't deserve him. And I felt for Pam so much, the whole situation she had trapped in absolutely horrifying. Glad, she didn't lose her senses and restored some part of her memories. And Roy... I felt strange compassion for him, especially in the last scene with him.
Than you so much for this story!

Summary:

Roy isn't perfect, but Pam loves him, and love is about looking past the problems isn't it? Jim is too preoccupied with his feelings for his best friend to see what is really going on. Dwight sees something private and begins to suspect that one of his co-workers is in a bad situation. Don't worry. He has a plan.


Categories: Jim and Pam, Episode Related, Alternate Universe
Characters: Ensemble
Genres: Drama
Warnings: Dubious Consent
Series: None
Chapters: 6 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 14300 Read Count: 9050 ePub Downloads: 0
[Report This] Published: February 16, 2018 Updated: April 15, 2018
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: December 14, 2019 Title: Chapter 6: Chapter Six: The Perfect Day

I like this story very much. I'm not a fan of a darker reality (e.g., abusive!Roy), but you made it so good! And it's great that in this story some serious stuff discussed (honestly, I have no idea about dealing with domestic violence before). Hope you continue your fic!

Paying Court by Comfect Rated: T [Reviews - 67] 33
Summary:

A Regency romance, JAM-style. Now complete.

 Disclaimer: I don't own the Office at all. 


Categories: Jim and Pam, Alternate Universe
Characters: Angela, Darryl, Dwight, Jan, Jim, Katy, Kelly, Kevin, Mark, Meredith, Michael, Pam, Phyllis, Roy, Ryan
Genres: Romance
Warnings: None
Challenges: Another Decade
Series: None
Chapters: 34 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 43387 Read Count: 27938 ePub Downloads: 6
[Report This] Published: March 10, 2018 Updated: May 02, 2018
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: November 21, 2019 Title: Chapter 34: Epilogue: In Which Two Happy Endings Are Achieved

Oh, this is a wonderful story! I adore the Regency era, and you made a great mix of the show events with the historical setting. You inspire me to create something regency-ish myself. Thank you!

Author's Response: Thank you! I'm so glad you followed through on that inspiration, and I'm glad you liked this; I was in the midst of reading every Regency romance I could get my hands on and this was the output...

Robe by BigTuna Rated: M [Reviews - 7] 28
Summary: One shot. Pam never ends up cutting the Victoria's Secret robe into hand towels. Jim reaps the benefits.
Categories: Jim and Pam
Characters: None
Genres: None
Warnings: Moderate sexual content
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 2062 Read Count: 1947 ePub Downloads: 3
[Report This] Published: March 21, 2018 Updated: March 21, 2018
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: March 10, 2020 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

Just stop here to say that I love this story! It's cute and lovely, and so, so tender... just like fluffy fabric :)
I've read it about five times and definitely will re-read it as much again!

Author's Response: Thank you! I love this one too. I appreciate you reading and reviewing! I hope you like it just as much on your next 5 readings. :)

Summary: Short AU oneshot between S2/S3. Pam calls Jim while he's vacationing in Australia.
Categories: Jim and Pam, Past
Characters: Jim/Pam
Genres: Angst, Oneshot
Warnings: No Warnings Apply
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 1464 Read Count: 1732 ePub Downloads: 4
[Report This] Published: March 26, 2018 Updated: March 26, 2018
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: July 14, 2020 Title: Chapter 1: 1:27 AM, Scranton

I love this story so much! Heartache, honesty, and happiness mixed so beautifully, and it feels so real... I wish it were the way the show had chosen!
Thank you!

When He Fell by Comfect Rated: K [Reviews - 7] 27
Summary:

A brief exploration of when Jim Halpert really fell for Pam Beesly. 


Categories: Jim and Pam, Past
Characters: Jim, Jim/Pam
Genres: Inner Monologue, Oneshot
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 1533 Read Count: 2106 ePub Downloads: 1
[Report This] Published: May 12, 2018 Updated: May 12, 2018
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: April 12, 2020 Title: Chapter 1: First

Oh, I added this story to the favorites like million years ago, but I never commented on it. It's time to fix it.
So. I love every tiny bit of this story. Michael's folly; Pam, allowing herself little moments of silliness and carelessness before everybody comes to the office; the way Pam keeps trying to do nice things even if everybody ignores her. And, of course, Jim. He's so sweet...
Thank you so much for this little piece of tenderness and joy!

Author's Response: Thank you! This was a lot of fun to write--and unlike my gigantic ones, it gave me an immediate sense of satisfaction from completion, which was nice. I'm glad you liked it!

Summary: Past Featured Story

NOW COMPLETE! Jim gets in an accident on June 10, and Pam gets to help. Only AU in that it deviates from main timeline between S2 and S3 (no different worldbuilding premise).

Disclaimer: I do not own the Office or its IP.

Challenges Challenge Entry Q2 2018


Categories: Jim and Pam, Alternate Universe
Characters: Helene Beesly, Jan, Jim, Jim/Pam, Larissa Halpert, Other, Pam
Genres: Angst, Fluff, Inner Monologue, Romance, Hurt/Comfort
Warnings: Violence/Injury
Challenges: Hospital JAM, Sister Sister
Series: None
Chapters: 52 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 63095 Read Count: 109400 ePub Downloads: 31
[Report This] Published: May 20, 2018 Updated: July 21, 2018
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: February 17, 2020 Title: Chapter 52: Epilogue: Long After June

I love this story! It started pretty darkly, but I smiled and laughed so many times during the reading. I sometimes wondered what Fem!Jim would look like - and you showed us Larissa! She's a fantastic character and their mutual banter both with Jim and Pam - lovely!
I also like the decisions Pam and Jim made, even if they seemed quite tough. Leaving DM, leaving Scranton - these locations became so significant part of them that sometimes it seemed (for me, at least) weird to imagine them somewhere else (I know about the happenings in season 9, but I didn't watch it and happily ignore it). But it was for the best, and I genuinely enjoy your story. Thank you!

Author's Response: Thank you! This is probably the story I wrote that I'm proudest of, so I really appreciate your feedback on it. I also ignore S9, so thanks for being willing to let me also take them out of Scranton in the fic. :)