Penname: Dernhelm Real name: Tonya
Member Since: November 07, 2019

Bio:

Three little facts about me:

1) I'm a work-from-home mom from Kyiv, Ukraine.  

2) I'm super late to the party, but  I do my best to turn my excitement with the show into the content (hopefully, qualitative). 

3) I care about Pam Beesly more than about any other fictional character in all the existent fandoms.  


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Cosa Nostra by Coley Rated: M [Reviews - 67] 84
Summary: “This life of ours, this is a wonderful life. If you can get through life like this, hey, that’s great. But it’s very, very unpredictable. There are so many ways you can screw it up.”

Jim and Pam are going to screw everything up. Starting with rule number one: Never fall in love.
Categories: Jim and Pam, Alternate Universe
Characters: Ensemble, Jim/Pam
Genres: Angst, Drama, Romance, Steamy, Suspense, Workdays
Warnings: Adult language, Other Adult Theme, Secondary Character Death, Violence/Injury
Series: None
Chapters: 6 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 33269 Read Count: 5960 ePub Downloads: 9
[Report This] Published: June 03, 2019 Updated: August 31, 2020
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: September 01, 2020 Title: Chapter 6: Chapter 6

Yay! The more Mafia Jim, the better!
And oh, I love these moms so much. Especially with knives, he-he. Both conversations Pam had were so realistic, and I like that little test Betsy made. My only regret is that Pam didn't tell Jim about her discussion with Helene, but... trust no one, right? And though I want her to be honest and open with Jim, I can't really blame her.
Apart from Pam's silence about a certain thing, I really like how she and Jim worked together. That's probably weird, but I made a lot of 'awww' noises during my reading. Especially in the end, the last line was excellent!
Thank you so much for the wonderful update! Cross my finger that the next one will be soon :)

Summary:

“W-why did you call…me?”...Toby paused, “well…it’s-it’s Pam. And uh-um…well you’re…you’re her emergency contact, Jim.” Season 3 AU of cocktails and it’s aftermath



Categories: Jim and Pam, Alternate Universe
Characters: Jim, Jim/Karen, Jim/Pam, Karen, Pam, Roy
Genres: Angst, Drama, Romance, Hurt/Comfort
Warnings: Violence/Injury
Series: None
Chapters: 4 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 6709 Read Count: 7055 ePub Downloads: 2
[Report This] Published: June 26, 2019 Updated: October 26, 2019
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: December 25, 2019 Title: Chapter 4: Chapter 4

I like this story, and I hope you'll return to it one day! I would love to see the confrontation between them... though poor Pam, she doesn't deserve all of this...
And I really enjoyed that Jim took Toby's place at that time. I can't imagine how painful it would be for Toby to deal with aggressive Pam... and Jim kinda needs it. Hehe :)

How Not To by agian18 Rated: M [Reviews - 112] 99
Summary:

Meeting in an unusual place in life, a broken Jim and Pam try their best to put the pieces of their lives back together while not falling apart and back down the hole that they're trying to help one another out of.

Based on the song "How Not To" by Dan + Shay, because do I *ever* write something that *isn't* based on a song? 


Categories: Alternate Universe, Jim and Pam
Characters: Jim/Pam
Genres: Angst, Drunk Pam/Jim
Warnings: Adult language, Drug Use/Abuse, Other Adult Theme, Possible Triggers, Violence/Injury
Series: None
Chapters: 15 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 69192 Read Count: 12649 ePub Downloads: 15
[Report This] Published: June 27, 2019 Updated: November 20, 2020
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: March 15, 2020 Title: Chapter 10: Chapter 10

I sat still and didn't move away from my laptop until I finished the whole story. It's fantastic! I usually avoid sensitive themes, but your story has such a beautiful mix of angst and hope... I'm so glad you made an update!
Thank you for the great journey :)

Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: May 25, 2020 Title: Chapter 14: Chapter 14

Oh my, I love this chapter so much! My inner teenager screams in delight, because this sleepover was just... perfect. Perhaps, my favorite moments are the scene with braids and mirror and spooning. Those are just too sweet to keep calm, so I don't. Thank you!
Oh, and I googled all of the nail polish colors. Jim definitely has a good taste :)

Summary: Jim starts work at Dunder Mifflin one day later than he'd been supposed to due to personal problems, which leads to a cascade of changed events.
Categories: Jim and Pam, Alternate Universe
Characters: None
Genres: None
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 30 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 35504 Read Count: 54693 ePub Downloads: 21
[Report This] Published: September 24, 2019 Updated: December 30, 2019
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: November 09, 2019 Title: Chapter 16: Chapter 16: Penny's

Oh, that's intriguing. The start of JAM dynamic is sooo good. Hope you update soon!

Author's Response: Sorry for taking so long, but hopefully we'll be back on the update track now. Thanks for the review! Glad you found it intriguing.

Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed
Date: November 19, 2019 Title: Chapter 17: Chapter 17: The Office

Oh, such a great update! I really fell Jim's anxiety about Pam's absence and worry along with him. Thank you!

Author's Response: Thank you! I'm very glad the emotions are coming through clearly!

Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: December 20, 2019 Title: Chapter 25: Chapter 25: The Batmobile

Oh, that's a wonderful chapter! I love so much to see them just being themselves, silly and simple, without obstacles. Want to see how it'll end!
And the line 'but they were laughing, and she was happy, and all was right in the world,' - is the best.

Author's Response: Thank you! I think we all know how it's going to end, but the point is the details, isn't it? :)

Summary:

The road stretches before him and threatens to swallow him whole.

A response to the 55 Words To Leave Scranton challenge.  


Categories: Jim and Pam
Characters: Jim
Genres: None
Warnings: None
Challenges: 55 Words To Leave Scranton
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 54 Read Count: 710 ePub Downloads: 0
[Report This] Published: October 04, 2019 Updated: October 04, 2019
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed
Date: December 05, 2019 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

I love this. It's so simple, and yet so heart-achingly beautiful.

Author's Response: Thanks Dernhelm! And thanks for taking the time to review, hugely appreciated 😊

Summary:

I miss you, come back to me. I wish you'd come back to me. But nobody heard. And the world turned and the world turned and the world turned. 

A journey with Pam Beesly from the summer that Jim leaves to the fall where he becomes hers forever. Based on the lyrics to The Gabe Dixon Band's "And the World Turns."

Niagara Ten Challenge Entry


Categories: Jim and Pam
Characters: None
Genres: In Stamford, Inner Monologue, Married, Oneshot, Wet Pam/Jim
Warnings: None
Challenges: Niagara Ten
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 3534 Read Count: 1713 ePub Downloads: 1
[Report This] Published: October 08, 2019 Updated: October 08, 2019
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: March 19, 2020 Title: Chapter 1: And the world turned

Okay, I'm crying right now. But... but... but it's so heartwrenching beautiful!
Thank you!

Summary: My AU version of how Pam and Jim met. Pam is a young widow and lacks the courage to move on--until a cute young salesman joins Dunder Mifflin. Romance, humor, and light angst.
Categories: Jim and Pam, Alternate Universe
Characters: Jim/Pam
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Moderate sexual content
Series: None
Chapters: 11 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 36826 Read Count: 12251 ePub Downloads: 8
[Report This] Published: October 13, 2019 Updated: December 14, 2019
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: December 03, 2019 Title: Chapter 9: Chapter 9

I truly enjoy this story. Perhaps things between Jim and Pam are going too fast, but come on, and things were going too slow in the show, so that's a nice improvement.
Also, I love the interaction between Pam and Angela. That's great that they have some kind of friendship, and even with Jim's presence, they keep it.
Hope you update soon!

Author's Response: Yes, my personal frustration with how things worked so slowly on the show is why I write fanfiction, lol. So glad you are enjoying that and what I'm doing with this AU. More very soon!

Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: December 14, 2019 Title: Chapter 11: Epilogue

Lovely, lovely story!
Kind of my favorite 'everybody happy' AU. Well, maybe, except Roy, but Roy, in some, also was happy and beloved.

Author's Response: Thank you! And I almost always have happy endings to my fics. I appreciate your kind review.

Serendipity by Sam Rated: MA [Reviews - 47] 63
Summary: It's Dunder Mifflin Scranton branch's annual team-building exercise tonight, and they're going on a Booze Cruise. Same time frame, but different boat, different lake, different state, wildly different ending. Right now, though, Pam is unhappy about something and Jim doesn't know how to help.
Categories: Jim and Pam, Present
Characters: Ensemble, Jim, Jim/Pam, Katy, Pam, Pam/Roy
Genres: Angst, Romance
Warnings: Adult language, Moderate sexual content, Other Adult Theme, Violence/Injury
Series: None
Chapters: 9 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 44985 Read Count: 15259 ePub Downloads: 7
[Report This] Published: October 28, 2019 Updated: December 31, 2019
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: November 07, 2019 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

I register to say 'Ohmygodohmygodohmygod!' Your story is fantastic, and I like every tiny piece of it (I'm still don't know what I feel about the whole cheating Roy thing, but that's in character, I guess). Please, continue!

Author's Response: Thank you very much indeed! Glad you've enjoyed it so far. I haven't done this before, so the encouragement really helps.  :0)

Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed
Date: December 08, 2019 Title: Chapter 7: Chapter 7

This chapter hurts. It's very well-written, the characters' struggles are palpable, their mutual uncertainties are natural and understandable. And yet...
I love supportive Meredith, by the way. It's the first story I've ever read where she has her voice of wisdom. That's nice.

Author's Response: Thank you! Glad you liked Meredith.

Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: December 21, 2019 Title: Chapter 8: Chapter 8

I hate when they are so miserable, but I absolutely love the chapter! Can't wait to see what's going to happen next!

Author's Response:

Unless I'm struck by falling masonry, you are promised a happy ending - hopefully before the year is out.

Thanks for keeping with the story!

Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: January 01, 2020 Title: Chapter 9: Chapter 9

Happy and content Pam and Jim? Best New Year's present ever!
I'm enjoying this story so much. Thank you :)

Author's Response: I'm glad you liked it! Thank you for all your reviews - I really do appreciate it.

Summary: Jim chronicles the adventures of two weeks spent looking after baby Cece.
Categories: Jim and Pam, Present
Characters: Cece Halpert, Jim/Pam
Genres: Fluff, Humor, Kids/Family
Warnings: None
Series: Jamie and Morgan
Chapters: 14 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 18969 Read Count: 17968 ePub Downloads: 0
[Report This] Published: November 05, 2019 Updated: May 29, 2020
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: April 11, 2020 Title: Chapter 2: Day 2

I can't believe I read this story only now. It's unbelievably warm and cozy and makes me smile and make a lot 'awww' noices. Just wonderful!
And it's nice to see that Jim gave Pam some salesmen's advice. Perhaps, he has more cards in his hand to play (I hope to see them!). And, of course, the successful hunting. I have a sudden urge to watch 'The Mummy'!

Author's Response: Glad to have you here. Thanks for the review. I'm glad you liked it so much. It's been fun to work on and add in all those moments to make one go Awww. 

Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: April 14, 2020 Title: Chapter 4: Day 4

Oh, it's so cute that even apart Pam and Jim are able to prank Dwight. And the style of Jim's entries is amazing!

Author's Response: Thanks. It was fun to think up that prank, took some research too. Glad you like the journals. They were also fun to write.

Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: April 24, 2020 Title: Chapter 5: Day 5

Ohh...
It's so obnoxiously when some random person tries to touch your child ('it's just a hug/kiss/touch, what harm could it cause to a baby?') or gives you unwanted and unwelcome advice. I felt that discomfort when I read the scene in the supermarket. And I like so much the way Jim acted it that situation!

Author's Response: Thanks. Jim's reaction to creepy lady was what my sister used to do when people would reach for her while she was pregnant. It usually worked too. Glad you liked the chapter.

Eyes Closed by agian18 Rated: T [Reviews - 4] 10
Summary:

Jim and Pam go home after Phyllis' wedding, but not with each other.

Lyrics from Eyes Closed by Halsey. 


Categories: Jim and Pam, Episode Related
Characters: None
Genres: Angst, Drama, Oneshot
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 680 Read Count: 1080 ePub Downloads: 0
[Report This] Published: November 13, 2019 Updated: November 13, 2019
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: November 13, 2019 Title: Chapter 1: It's nothin' new, nothin' new

It's so beautiful and so heartbreaking...

Summary:

After the events of Casino Night, Pam is adrift and Jim is anchored. 

A spin on early Season 3 that relies far too heavily on nautical imagery and references to Titanic... 


Categories: Jim and Pam
Characters: Jim/Pam
Genres: In Stamford
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 9 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 24362 Read Count: 14912 ePub Downloads: 7
[Report This] Published: November 22, 2019 Updated: February 16, 2020
Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: February 05, 2020 Title: Chapter 7: Chapter 7

Yay! Update! And the amazing one!
I love that despite all the insecurities, they can talk about themselves. And even though I would be delighted with the happy kiss, I like and appreciate Pam's concern about this whole dating thing. My fingers are still crossed :)
P.S. I've read a pretty angsty fic earlier, and your story increased my mood very much!

Author's Response: I’m so glad you’re happy to see an update! You’ll have to tell me which angsty fic - sometimes I’m just in the mood for some good angst! 

Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: December 06, 2019 Title: Chapter 4: Chapter 4

I love this story and looking forward for more. Pam is precious and I really glad that she became friends with Karen. I've always felt sad about their possible friendship, and hope they'll have more great interactions. Jim is... well, he is evolving Jim, though there are glimpses of good old Scranton Jim. Hope, he'll be back soon!

Author's Response: I think Pam and Karen would’ve made fantastic friends without Jim messing things up for them so dramatically. If you haven’t already, have a read of anything Duchess Cupcake has written - she writes the most wonderful Pam and Karen friendships into her stories. 

I forgot to say in the review I left on your wonderful story, but my twitter handle is in my bio here if you want to hit me up if you’re still keen to have someone beta anything 😊
Thanks for your review! Hopefully the next chapter won’t be too far away... 

Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed
Date: February 16, 2020 Title: Chapter 9: Chapter 9

Awwwww! Just awwwww!
*I'm sorry, I temporarily lose my ability to form a coherent sentence. It's the sort of fluff that makes me grin like an idiot, and I like it.*
Pam's apartment! Michael being Michael! Dwight missing Jim! Friendly Karen in Scranton! That's lovely icing on the top of the lovely story! Thank you so much for this fantastic journey!
*Sorry for the number of the exclamation marks, but I'm really excited.*

Author's Response: I was worried it was a bit too heavy on the fluff, so I’m glad to hear it was bearable. I very much appreciate all the exclamation marks! 

Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: February 07, 2020 Title: Chapter 8: Chapter 8

Oh, I love it so much! The best thing that could ever happen - the returning home together (even if it'll take two times). I'm glad that there are no misunderstandings, no silence between them - only endless possibilities. And this Karen, I hope, will stay in Scranton longer :)
One little thing that makes me especially happy - Pam's decision to look for an art school, not a reception job. Yay for Pam!

Author's Response: This Karen has been fun to write. This story will end basically once Jim is back in Scranton, but in my head this Karen sticks around for a whole lot longer. 

Thanks for your lovely review as always! 

Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: January 26, 2020 Title: Chapter 6: Chapter 6

I read this chapter with a big smile on my face. It's fantastic! I like the sea metaphors for their relationships, and how they finally reached the land. And I like how third persons made the points (especially Karen; God, I love this Karen!). And... well, I probably like everything about this chapter! My fingers are crossed for the update :)

Author's Response: Haha, I’m glad you like this Karen! That can be a hard thing to pull off. Don’t cross your fingers too hard for the update, it might take a while... 

Reviewer: Dernhelm Signed 1
Date: December 13, 2019 Title: Chapter 5: Chapter 5

I love the way the story is going! Can't wait to see their talk (they are going to talk, aren't they?).
And the line “As friends,” she clarifies. “Not like a date.” - I'm just screaming there. That's very cute.

Author's Response: Oh, they’re definitely going to talk! I’m glad you liked it...