You know you don't want to, but you can't stop the thoughts whipping through your mind.

Just do it. Just kiss him. You want this. Believe me.

But you don't want it, can't want it. This isn't how this is supposed to happen. Not now. Not here.

Supposed to happen? Since when is this supposed to happen?

And if it's inevitable, what's the point of stopping it now? Why pretend not to feel it when you do, and you have for so long?

You might as well do it now.

Kiss him. Get it over with. Don't think. Just do.