What if I had known then that he liked me too? What if I had paid more attention, instead of just dismissing the thought all the time?

What if that fight with Roy had stuck?

What if I had told Jim that I wasn't always so sure about marrying Roy? How much of that did he know without me telling him? Why didn't he say something sooner?

Why has it always taken me so long to deal with this? Why am I so slow? And didn't he know that it would take me a long time to process all this?