The real meaning of Pam finding her voice with help from someone special.
Covers selective mutism and anxiety.
Was originally posted as A Picture Is Worth More Than A Thousand Words then I deleted it by accident!
Ah so cute! I detested reading out loud in school too, words are annoying to have to read out, so I feel ya young Jim - but go him for stepping in and braving his fear! Wonder if this will help fuel Pam's battle with her keeper of words?
Author's Response: Aw thank you so much! You’ll see next chapter its effect on her!
Yay! Little Pam progress! I like 'the reception of her busy mind' nice link. I love the pace of Pam's progress as its not a sudden 'oh she's all better' but a realistic journey of her learning to cope.
Author's Response: Thank you so much! Hoping to make it realistic!
Yay! So glad she is doing the art show. Their pinky promise was so cute as well.
Author's Response: Thank you!
1 Yay! This was adorable. We love supportive bestie Jim being there with Pam at her art show and understanding her own form of communication. And love how you worked in Michael buying the painting into this! Look forward to the next one.
Author's Response: Thank you so so much!
1 A thousand crying face emojis
That is all
I hope they keep in touch...
Author's Response: Ahhh I’m sorry!
Poor Pam! That is so sad for her. Hope Jim is back in the picture soon!
Author's Response: Don’t worry too much!
Glad that its not only Pam who is feeling able to communicate more openly but also Jim feeling able to do so here. Hopefully once he has processed how he felt he will be able to relate that to Pam's experience.
Author's Response: 100% there will be an excellent conversation to be had! I am enjoying writing the process!
Pam is initially anxious, nervous and timid but will grow in confidence. Jim is confident and self-assured but will show lovely vulnerability.
If ethical non-monogamy isn't your thing, move along. This is our JAM love with a 'love affairs and relationships look different from the outside' twist. Lots of smut for the sake of pure smuttiness.
All events from the series still happened, but they are going to take some different turns.
This will be a series, not sure how long, but all starting from a place inspired by the AU "The Unicorn" created by Big Tuna in the future, and started in episode-centric events.
Very creative, I am sure Pam will be feeling inspired the next few times she is in there drawing and fun for her to invite Jim into her arty world.
Author's Response: RIGHT?! We love to have opportunities to include our partners in our creative passions!
They are sure making the most of this! Wonder what Pam has planned down in that artsy little garage...
Author's Response: I am GENUINELY curious myself! The characters made me write that and now my brain gets to spiral and play out what may happen!
1 Fact: watched an episode today where Jim referred to himself as 'Daddy' and immediately I was like o-KAY Sir! (I read this in the morning so it was like, well timed). Guess we know what went down in the Halpert household after that episode. Love that they still have a bit of a spicy element to their relationship still and that they're learning new turn ons that become their 'thing' for a while. Also love Kevin opening another bar. Definitely had a fear they would break the counter in that bathroom.
Author's Response: Oh how well timed!! And too funny 🤣
Takes place inside/after The Negotiation..pretty much AU after that, but pulls in themes from Beach Games.
Lots of inspiration from Everything by Lifehouse
TW: violence, swearing, domestic violence…a VERY different version of what happened after Roy tried to hit Jim. If you have been through interpersonal violence, or experience anxiety & panic, please go gently here.
100% there will be good stuff as we go...hence the spicy warnings...but in the beginning, it is going to be BUMPY.
In the beginning, each chapter will switch POV, and it will most certainly be Jim/Pam POV, with minimal potential for others. Then the chapters will be longer and shared POV.
*Please, be gentle and kind with yourselves, if you choose to read*
Below are a few resources, but if you are a victim of DV and need resources...please hit me up on the Discord group...I am more than happy to help you with additional resources.
National Domestic Violence Hotline ncadv.org/get-help
Therapist search sites
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I own nothing outside of a bad case of creative insomnia, a caffeine addiction, a need to dissociate and relax with The Office and a passion for social work.
For me the highlight of this chapter is Pam having that girl time. Being around like people for the scarier parts makes it easier to talk openly - Larisa and Penny will have a way better understanding of Pam’s concerns than Jim does - so it was great to see her be able to do that. Even just trusting her instinct to not have Jim there for that moment was a good little step for Pam. Glad Lisette seems to be a safe person for Pam and can keep that professional guidance and support, seems exactly what she needs right now. Will be interesting to see how this in turn impacts Penny and Larisa also. Glad to see Gerald make an appearance too! Oh also loved the mom-tuition to give some privacy!
Author's Response: I am purposefully creating more interaction with others, brining in LOADS of other characters intentionally to make a very stark contrast against the 24 hours preceding where Pam was largely ONLY interacting with Jim (same as how Roy would have isolated her.. she was following a pattern she understands). Now, she both got meds to help reduce the immediate panic and vigilance AND is now able to see other people supporting her and she feels better. Mom tuition and the way the parents all interact with one another is again purposeful fo show how cohesive and kind people can be around her.I think you will really love what comes next.
Glad that Pam is out of her spell and expressing what it feels like (which can be extremely difficult so good on her) and that she’s finding analogies that help her understand the importance of the current support tools available. Nice that she has met Larisa and Betsy and found comfort in having them around too, to me it seems that although Jim thinks this could be a fawn move she does actually find benefit in his family knowing he is supported too, and that she can benefit from them too. Also love the little detail of Pam just ordering a plain pizza because it’s been a complicated day - sometimes that is the best move for a busy mind ha! Hopefully the Roy thoughts she can work through and process especially surrounded by support.
Author's Response:
Nail on the head, glad my ideas are coming through so well. I often find people worry about fawning with their loved ones who they know have been through trauma… but there is a FINE LINE between actual fawn responses and simply compromising with a partner. In my mind, Pam came out of the catatonic experience and was safe with meds that kept anxiety low, so she could make those decisions easier.
I truly can’t wait to finish the next chapter and get it out. I think everyone will be SO happy with it!!
Thats so cute that Dwight and Angela went to the store to get her clothes! Love that they are helping her even without direct contact.
Author's Response: YES!!! I have a soft spot for Dwight and really wanted him to be a part of why Pam comes around.
1 Loved it all! Honestly felt like I was just following them through London. I love Pam not realising Jim's status while she's on the phone and he's taking a selfie. When I'm next at the Phoenix Garden I'll deffo think of Pam and Du- Jim! Love love loved "I couldn't wait" honestly absolute Laaandaan romance.
Look forward to the next part old chap. Have a well earned jellybean (it's NY Cheesecake flavor)
Author's Response:
Ah thank you so much! I will do my best to keep the Landaan vibes going
Tallyho!
1 Pamela Morgan Beesly if you do not take a stroll round Chx Rd/Sbury Ave with Guitar!Jim and follow him into my fav pub to do unspeakable things in the bathroom?? Then you are not living your best life...
Absolutely love Michael casually doing magic tricks in a guitar shop. It just... works. It's probably why everyone in the area is mildly-moderately disgruntled. Love this lil meet for Jim and Pam! Absolutely adore that she contemplated going back inside for a while before running back into him anyway moments later.
I am very excited to read more!
Author's Response:
Ah thank you so much!!
Can’t guarantee about the fooling around in the pub, but which one is it?! I’ll make sure it gets a feature!! If you’re on Discord, come say hi and let me know anything you want featured in this fic!
1 Loved this!! My top 3 parts of the recipe:
1. The small knob of ex-fiance
2. Baby carrots
3. Gently skim off any birth control
A fun way to recap the Jam journey, such a fun recipe with highs and lows and I guess plenty of room for people to interpret parts of the recipe and add some extra ingredients... maybe some wet ingredients or guitars? Anyway, very much enjoyed this!!
Author's Response:
You know what, 1) and 3) were my favourites too!!
Guitars and a wet ingredient sound like perfect additions to this recipe
Thanks for the review!
1 Ohh not the tighty whiteys!! All that starting and fantasising and imagining what its gonna be and shes presented with saggy greying tighty whiteys... LOL. And who WOULDNT love the chance to just unreservedly stare at/fantasise about Jim in better underwear!
Author's Response: That’s all we want, just to stare…
1 Guess you've exposed the real reason Pam went with that specific receptacle for the jelly beans... an excuse for all these bean thoughts. This truly made me LOL
Author's Response: Hehe! Glad you liked it!
1 All very clever, who knew a paintbrush could be so dirty...
Author's Response: Well paintbrushes always get dirty, if you use them correctly. But you know what? Getting them wet really helps things
Set late(ish) -S3, possibly after Cocktails/The Negotiation (post Pam splitting up with Roy mk.II)
A bit steamy and a bit sweary at points.
Ooh an intersting start! I look forward to seeing where this goes with all the tension going on.
Author's Response: Thank you! The tension is about to break...
Love that they were both brought to the same McDonald's - nothing that a cheeky Macca's can't fix (including hopefully this relationship??) - look forward to the intervention!
Author's Response: Sorry for the delay in responding to this, absolutely, some glorious Isabel and Mark scheming is here!
1 An interesting progression! Love that Isabel considered locking them in the supply closet in McDonalds... and that those 2 got their opportunity as well. Glad Jim and Pam have managed to straighten things out - might be a bit of a messy aftermath for Jim & Karen but YAY for Jim and Pam! I like that it wasn't a whole big argument just a simple 'this is what I need from you' from Jim, think it highlighted that it was the main thing causing all this tension between them.
1 Jolly good old chap!
During the rewatch this is absolutely what I'll be expecting to happen in the scenes you've mentioned here. Glad to see Jim and Pam are successful in their jobs and in their bedroom adventures! Love the mention of the Einstein in here as well.
I like his fancy tie
Author's Response:
Thank you kind sir.
I think if you want to see those scenes, you're gonna have to find Jacking Off Ryan.
I like his fancy tie too. And fancy other things.
Toodle pip!
1 I like this fancy fic
Author's Response: You know I heard that in the voice
1 I absolutely love love love the little history book of pranks! Its super cute and love that they could revisit a sad moment at a better time. And the prank to make Dwight think he's time travelling is just genious.
Author's Response: Ah well, thank you thank you thank you. That's all I can say. Oh, and thank you.