Date: March 27, 2023 04:16 pm Title: Chapter 27
I'm very glad to see that Pam is realizing there are still kind-hearted (in their own ways) people out there who have her best interests at heart. It's probably something she hasn't believed about herself in a long time. A bit of Mama Bear Beesly there with some tough love. Letting Pam know Roy's not worth HER time is a powerful statement. It feels like she's giving Pam agency back. if Roy's not worth Pam's time, Pam has the choice to just leave him and that's that. Of course it's probably much more complex, but the idea is there.
Finally Jim and Pam will see each other. Hopefully they've learned a bit now about assuming they know what the other is thinking. Can't wait to read the next instalments.
Author's Response:
I liked that Mama Beesly walked a fine line, trying to hold to letting Pam make her own choices...but she recognized that knowledge and understanding INFORM choices and she needed to remind Pam of that.
I cannot WAIT to write what comes next!!! It is hopefully going to be as wonderful as I am sketching it down!
1 [Report This]Date: March 27, 2023 04:09 pm Title: Chapter 26
I do like how Ella is being a lot more firm with Jim than with Pam here. Feels like he needs it. Get rid of any Dunning-Kruger thinking he might have in regards to how things should be and give him the real information about how things are. Seems like his eyes have just been opened to the real breadth and depth of this issue. I like that even with these first bits of new knowledge he's soaking them in like sponge. Yes, he has a lot to learn and unpack on his own, but it also feels like he's getting ready for the long haul that this will entail.
Author's Response:
I like that Ella gets to be a little more firm...Jim is not her patient. She gets to have a little more 'umf' with him and try to snap him in to reality for the sake of her patient.
We always knew Jim was quick witted, I was hoping it would play here that he would pick up on the information and understand it...once he took the time to focus.
Date: March 27, 2023 01:29 pm Title: Chapter 25
More steps forward for sure. Rather than assuming she knows what he's thinking, she's listening to her mom. Good. Probably going to need a lot of that going forward as well. I also really like that she's asking for him. Good on her.
Author's Response: I am so excited to have finally brought it back to when she asks to see him. Can't wait to write more to add on to the next few chapters this week!
Date: March 27, 2023 01:25 pm Title: Chapter 24
Yes it's a terrible day, no doubt. However he's already starting to unload it all. Good. He's going to need to as well. The weight of anyone trying to carry all that will be crushing. I'm glad they have Ella there to help them through these first few steps.
Author's Response: Hopefully this will play out appropriately as it moves forward. Trying to very much use 'my Jim' as a vision for the feelings so many have when trying to understand what their loved one experiences in these situations.
Date: March 27, 2023 01:23 pm Title: Chapter 23
Feels like this is the first step in a long road of finally talking about everything. Letting it all out to trusted people. Good for her. Interesting that though she doesn't want to see Jim right now, she also doesn't want him to go away. Feels like she has realized that when he said he's not going away he meant it and that he's also respecting the boundaries she's put in place for now. A man respecting her boundaries probably feels like something new for her at this point in her life. So it feels like a step forward in progress. Good for her.
Author's Response: Pam is absolutely at a place she is no longer in panic mode, so she can think a bit more, but you are right...having anyone truly respect her wishes is extremely foreign.
Date: March 27, 2023 11:13 am Title: Chapter 22
I'll say this, Dwight's friendship with Pam comes through here. He's looking out for her with getting all her personal belongings and such. I still say Jim needs to remind him in no uncertain terms that for all Dwight's grandstanding, if Dwight knew or had an inclination of what Roy was doing, he failed Pam too. He may have scored a Brownie point by bring Pam her things and a change of clothes, but if he had acted sooner, like the hero he thinks his is, Pam wouldn't have needed them in the first place.
So Roy, with a DUI conviction had a concealed weapon on himself? That's not going to go over well for sure. Nice to see there's a way forward for accountability for that guy here. One that involves him never leaving a prison for a VERY long time.
Author's Response:
Dwight is not done. I am absolutely planning for him to be part of the rest of the story 100% and there will be space for him to seek to make amends too. I am planning to build on his previous statement in the ambulance around "what people do at home, stays at home" and even Dwight will admit his failings.
I fully intend to build more of a friendship between Jim and Dwight than was evident in the series.
And...Roy is ABSOLUTELY going away. He had a DUI (canon) and then I put a weapon on him, in the Dunder Mifflin offices. I wanted a way to take the 'power' and responsibility for him going to jail out of Pam's hands. The pressure of it being in public, on property where he put other employees at risk and it was caught on camera...he is going away.
Date: March 27, 2023 11:07 am Title: Chapter 21
Nice to get some of the transition time. How Pam was reaching out for help and trying to put security measures in place. Roy acting like this, being unable to let her go or let her get away is seen in a whole new light. No wonder he was so nervous whenever the cameras were around. He's scared. Scared of everything she knows he's done to her and her ability to let everyone know that. Good bit of backstory for sure.
Author's Response: Exactly..given the nature of how horrible he has been to her, I have to find a way to fit that brief 'back together' in and this seemed kind of natural..hitting on both how often people do get back with abusive partners, how hard it would be to be surrounded by all these trappings of a wedding she had been planning. It was a bad time.
Date: March 27, 2023 11:02 am Title: Chapter 20
Tons of roiling thoughts going through his head right now. Pam rejecting him again, Pam hurting all this time, Pam taking on pain to protect him. How long he'd known her and not known what was really going on. It's a lot to take in. Should be interesting to see where calling Dwight will go.
Author's Response: Hope you are not disappointed with where I go with Dwight... I have such a soft spot in my heart for him.
Date: March 25, 2023 04:09 pm Title: Chapter 27
Aw she’s getting there! I love how she didn’t give into the compulsion of thinking over and over again how she impacted them to reassure any uncertainty. You can tell she is beginning to accept her limits and her lack of ability to be certain about anything. It’s hard to resist, but it allows her to see that she really is safe. She’s also talking a lot more which is so helpful in healing! I’m loving getting to see her improve. She finally starting to respect herself and gain reassurance. Don’t let anxiety control you, Pam! You don’t deserve it because the letting the anxiety control you is letting Roy control you and we all agree he is NOT allowed to do that anymore!
Author's Response: ABSOLUTELY! This whole writing is a HUGE love letter to all my past and future clients that I have seen through these types of situations. It takes time, patience and unconditional love from so many people to help us heal in relationships. Not saying this is over for her, there will be SO Much more to come....my brain will probably make the dang thing 100 chapters! HAHA
Date: March 25, 2023 04:00 pm Title: Chapter 26
Oh wow. Your writing makes the anxiety worth it! This is so vulnerable, especially how he finally realizes that she isn’t the only one struggling. Really feeling for Pam here, she feel so helpless. I hope that anxiety bully that rants about the real bully- Roy- shuts up! She’s so scared and I just want Jim to help her! Certainly having to remind myself to breathe once in a while, your writing is so real!
Author's Response:
Oh, then you will enjoy the next chapter...since you want things to shut up!! HAHAHA!!!
Definitely, take breaks and breathe.... and, if you feel TOO overwhelmed, I am on the Discord server...happy to help chat and decompress :)
Date: March 25, 2023 03:52 pm Title: Chapter 23
Poor thing! I can really feel how intense her emotions are here.
Author's Response: Gotta get the shame and guilt thoughts out...purge them 💔
Date: March 25, 2023 03:48 pm Title: Chapter 22
wow, this is a lot to take in!
Author's Response: Yep...breathe.... I *promise* there will be no ineffective justice in my story.
Date: March 25, 2023 03:45 pm Title: Chapter 21
Aw this story is absolutely breaking me!
Author's Response: It was really hard to write this one...the reason why, after all the physical pain, Pam would have gone back with Roy after the wedding. The only way was through the hurt...and it broke me too d84;a039;
Date: March 25, 2023 03:39 pm Title: Chapter 20
AWWW DWIGHT! I’m so glad Dwight is coming in, he always supplies a source of comfort and familiarity. I can’t even begin to tell you how much my heart jumped to see how many chapters were uploaded! Can’t wait to read more. This story is so intense, but so beautifully written and captivating!
Author's Response: I have such a soft spot for Dwight...knew I wanted him to be part of the recovery side of getting toward how to be 'okay'...this just came out naturally for me. Dwight helps, but without asking for thanks or kudos. It is just FACT.
Date: March 25, 2023 02:30 pm Title: Chapter 27
Wow, so intense. Feel so much for what they are all going through. Feels like we’re about to round a corner and finally get Jim and Pam on the same page
Author's Response: Absolutely. Had to get beyond the panic and initial responses, plus had to bring in some of the ‘time’ that happened in the show to get rid of that canon but also stay true to the spirit of the characters.
Date: March 25, 2023 02:26 pm Title: Chapter 27
Thats so cute that Dwight and Angela went to the store to get her clothes! Love that they are helping her even without direct contact.
Author's Response: YES!!! I have a soft spot for Dwight and really wanted him to be a part of why Pam comes around.
Date: March 19, 2023 10:15 pm Title: Chapter 19
I really hate it that there is this kind of darkness in the world. That it's often directed at people who don't deserve it. People like Pam. I sincerely hope she knows that there truly are people who will be there for her and that she can lean on them.
Author's Response: We are ABSOLUTELY getting there. My nod to Rose, her true and internal thoughts of Jim (not just the panic mind that happens)...they are all there and she will absolutely start to lean on them.
Date: March 19, 2023 10:07 pm Title: Chapter 18
I wish I had the words to express how I feel about this image. Even this being a fictional story, the pain and heartache comes through. Can Roy get tossed away to rot now please?
Author's Response: Oh, I have plans for him. I FULLY plan to take out a wee bit of revenge for every woman I know; family, friend and client, who has been with a Roy of their own. d84;a039;
Date: March 19, 2023 10:04 pm Title: Chapter 17
More encouraging words from Ella. Hope she keeps it up and that Pam finds her courage once more. Clearly she did once. I really hope she can again.
Author's Response: Ella is really coming together (as so many of us do) as the time progresses and we get to build a relationship with our client. Doesn't even have to be long, just enough time to get our bearings.
Date: March 19, 2023 10:03 pm Title: Chapter 16
Feels like there in the summer after S2 Pam was starting to make some small steps for herself. Which of course makes all this pain even harder. It feels like a situation like this should be cut and dry. Bad guy goes to prison, good lady gets to go free. But it's so much more complex than that and will take so long to unwind.
Author's Response: 100% not the way we see it in the movies....bad guys don't always go away fast and good ladies don't always get away the first try 💔
Date: March 19, 2023 09:59 pm Title: Chapter 15
Okay, so my desire for this Roy to be locked away for life just all sorts of intensified. To think Pam was living in that personal hell for as long as she was. That everything seen on the cameras was her only escape. That she bore so much so others wouldn't be hurt either. Damn.
Author's Response: yes d84;a039; trying to highlight that she was figuring out how to play the game, but still being the supremely cautious person we saw in cannon where the decision making process was slow.
Date: March 19, 2023 09:31 pm Title: Chapter 14
Tons of raw emotions in this chapter for sure. Jim finally getting a glimpse of what life was really like for her. Along with the guilt that he left her in that situation because of (to his mind at least) his own selfish hurts and desires. Can Roy just be thrown away in jail and left to rot now? Please? Like any scumbag like him. I now things like this are rarely fair, but doesn't mean I don't wish fairness for Pam and everyone who loves her.
Author's Response: I am sure I am going to end up being a bit more fair than some may receive in the world. Wait till you find out what I am writing for Roy.... hopefully it will do these responses justice :)
Date: March 19, 2023 01:17 pm Title: Chapter 19
Wow. Some really hard hitting stuff here, but you’ve written it really well. Hoping things take a better turn soon.
Author's Response: Not an easy read, hoping my warnings did it justice. With the horror out of the way, we get to move forward with the emotions and healing d84;a039;
Date: March 18, 2023 07:34 pm Title: Chapter 17
Oh Pam!! Like the short chapter, gives a nice relief in the intensity of the anxiety haha!
Author's Response: Same.. left it needed the relief of a short thought train.
Date: March 18, 2023 07:28 pm Title: Chapter 17
Oh Pam!! Like the short chapter, gives a nice relief in the intensity of the anxiety haha!
Author's Response: d84;a039;d84;a039;