Date: March 25, 2023 03:45 pm Title: Chapter 21 - Explaining why
Aw this story is absolutely breaking me!
Author's Response: It was really hard to write this one...the reason why, after all the physical pain, Pam would have gone back with Roy after the wedding. The only way was through the hurt...and it broke me too d84;a039;
Date: March 25, 2023 03:39 pm Title: Chapter 20 - Making the call
AWWW DWIGHT! I’m so glad Dwight is coming in, he always supplies a source of comfort and familiarity. I can’t even begin to tell you how much my heart jumped to see how many chapters were uploaded! Can’t wait to read more. This story is so intense, but so beautifully written and captivating!
Author's Response: I have such a soft spot for Dwight...knew I wanted him to be part of the recovery side of getting toward how to be 'okay'...this just came out naturally for me. Dwight helps, but without asking for thanks or kudos. It is just FACT.
Date: March 25, 2023 02:30 pm Title: Chapter 27 - The kindness of strangers
Wow, so intense. Feel so much for what they are all going through. Feels like we’re about to round a corner and finally get Jim and Pam on the same page
Author's Response: Absolutely. Had to get beyond the panic and initial responses, plus had to bring in some of the ‘time’ that happened in the show to get rid of that canon but also stay true to the spirit of the characters.
Date: March 25, 2023 02:26 pm Title: Chapter 27 - The kindness of strangers
Thats so cute that Dwight and Angela went to the store to get her clothes! Love that they are helping her even without direct contact.
Author's Response: YES!!! I have a soft spot for Dwight and really wanted him to be a part of why Pam comes around.
Date: March 19, 2023 10:15 pm Title: Chapter 19 - Pam's reality
I really hate it that there is this kind of darkness in the world. That it's often directed at people who don't deserve it. People like Pam. I sincerely hope she knows that there truly are people who will be there for her and that she can lean on them.
Author's Response: We are ABSOLUTELY getting there. My nod to Rose, her true and internal thoughts of Jim (not just the panic mind that happens)...they are all there and she will absolutely start to lean on them.
Date: March 19, 2023 10:07 pm Title: Chapter 18 - Jim down the rabbit hole
I wish I had the words to express how I feel about this image. Even this being a fictional story, the pain and heartache comes through. Can Roy get tossed away to rot now please?
Author's Response: Oh, I have plans for him. I FULLY plan to take out a wee bit of revenge for every woman I know; family, friend and client, who has been with a Roy of their own. d84;a039;
Date: March 19, 2023 10:04 pm Title: Chapter 17 - Pam thinks
More encouraging words from Ella. Hope she keeps it up and that Pam finds her courage once more. Clearly she did once. I really hope she can again.
Author's Response: Ella is really coming together (as so many of us do) as the time progresses and we get to build a relationship with our client. Doesn't even have to be long, just enough time to get our bearings.
Date: March 19, 2023 10:03 pm Title: Chapter 16 - Education continues
Feels like there in the summer after S2 Pam was starting to make some small steps for herself. Which of course makes all this pain even harder. It feels like a situation like this should be cut and dry. Bad guy goes to prison, good lady gets to go free. But it's so much more complex than that and will take so long to unwind.
Author's Response: 100% not the way we see it in the movies....bad guys don't always go away fast and good ladies don't always get away the first try 💔
Date: March 19, 2023 09:59 pm Title: Chapter 15 - Pam's life
Okay, so my desire for this Roy to be locked away for life just all sorts of intensified. To think Pam was living in that personal hell for as long as she was. That everything seen on the cameras was her only escape. That she bore so much so others wouldn't be hurt either. Damn.
Author's Response: yes d84;a039; trying to highlight that she was figuring out how to play the game, but still being the supremely cautious person we saw in cannon where the decision making process was slow.
Date: March 19, 2023 09:31 pm Title: Chapter 14 - Jim's education
Tons of raw emotions in this chapter for sure. Jim finally getting a glimpse of what life was really like for her. Along with the guilt that he left her in that situation because of (to his mind at least) his own selfish hurts and desires. Can Roy just be thrown away in jail and left to rot now? Please? Like any scumbag like him. I now things like this are rarely fair, but doesn't mean I don't wish fairness for Pam and everyone who loves her.
Author's Response: I am sure I am going to end up being a bit more fair than some may receive in the world. Wait till you find out what I am writing for Roy.... hopefully it will do these responses justice :)
Date: March 19, 2023 01:17 pm Title: Chapter 19 - Pam's reality
Wow. Some really hard hitting stuff here, but you’ve written it really well. Hoping things take a better turn soon.
Author's Response: Not an easy read, hoping my warnings did it justice. With the horror out of the way, we get to move forward with the emotions and healing d84;a039;
Date: March 18, 2023 07:34 pm Title: Chapter 17 - Pam thinks
Oh Pam!! Like the short chapter, gives a nice relief in the intensity of the anxiety haha!
Author's Response: Same.. left it needed the relief of a short thought train.
Date: March 18, 2023 07:28 pm Title: Chapter 17 - Pam thinks
Oh Pam!! Like the short chapter, gives a nice relief in the intensity of the anxiety haha!
Author's Response: d84;a039;d84;a039;
Date: March 18, 2023 07:22 pm Title: Chapter 16 - Education continues
Aw poor Pam! She really had a sense of overinflated responsibility for those around her. You can see the illusion of magical thinking clouding her and her response being an increase in compulsive behaviors tricking her into a false sense of safety.
Author's Response: EXACTLY! Oh, I am glad I conveyed that well.
Date: March 18, 2023 07:13 pm Title: Chapter 14 - Jim's education
This is intense. Jim is really hard on himself, he is human too. I love Helene’s sense of calm in the situation, even if she seems to make it seem like it’s Jim to blame sometimes. It’s very accurate in the complications this situation presents. I also love the description of how she processes. Everyone processes things in varying ways, and hers was very similar to mine! Your writing is amazing, was refreshing my page for it to be updated all week!
Author's Response: Awwww…. Raspberry Jam… you are awesome! I hope you feel a little of your sweet quiet Pam from your story in Helene’s description of Pam… I realized in my excitement to update the story tonight that I had not put that in my header! Your little world has equally captured my heart and I felt that my young Pam may have also had anxiety with difficulty speaking.
Date: March 15, 2023 06:51 pm Title: Chapter 13 - Pam & Ella
So I really like Ella here. Not threatening at all. Assuring Pam that she is the one calling the shots. Giving Pam the time to respond as she's comfortable. Also being as honest as she can. It's a great counterpoint to the raw emptions that have been going on thus far.
Kind of figured Pam wouldn't take to well to Jim being there and especially him saying those words again. Which is why I'm so glad Ella just lets Pam respond as she does. Feels like a first step even if it's a hard one.
Author's Response: I prefer Ella in this space… since it is something I have found I like more than the ‘in office’ stuff… trying to help get Pam to safety of discharge (no involuntary hospitalizations will be in my stories).
Date: March 15, 2023 06:45 pm Title: Chapter 12 - Jim's confusion
Again the big emotions are making everyone loose with their words. I get it though. It's hard to think with reason when all one has in the moment are feelings. Bravo for writing that all so raw and real. But now, how will Pam take this new on top of everything else that's happened? Hoo boy.
Author's Response: Glad I am keeping the story real, readable and engaging d84;a039;
Date: March 15, 2023 06:43 pm Title: Chapter 11 - She's awake
Wow, Roy really did a number on her. To have her go from Mom is safe to no where is is safe. That's just cruel and twisted. Feels like there's still going to be a hard road ahead for her, that's for sure.
Author's Response: It is definitely going to be a long road…. I am going full on “Roy is an abusive bastard”
1 [Report This]Date: March 15, 2023 06:41 pm Title: Chapter 10 - Jim thinks
Yeah, to now look back at S1 and S2 with that filter. For Jim to finally realize what was happening to the woman he loves. How everything he did and said could now be taken? Yeah, it makes sense why he'd break down again. I do apricate that Helene is the one that keeps him there. After her initial outburst at him she could just as easily tell him to leave and never come back. Yet she knows they both need each other. Powerful scene for sure.
Author's Response:
Awww… thank you ♥a039;
I am pulling on my own social work and therapeutic knowledge as well as re-examining cannon things.
Date: March 15, 2023 06:35 pm Title: Chapter 9 - Groggy
To wake up, not knowing what's going on. Only knowing that if you put one hair out of place it won't end well. Very much feels like she was living in her own private hell for a long time to get her to this point.
Author's Response: She very much was… writing from Helene’s POV over this timeframe.
1 [Report This]Date: March 15, 2023 06:34 pm Title: Chapter 8 - Jim begins to learn
Actually I don't mind Ella all that much. She seems to be a calm voice of reason in a situation that desperately needs some outside help.
Jim trying to jump in with a solution feels like a very Jim thing to do. It's the gut reaction since his feeling are still so high. Really hits hard when he and Helene realize how bigger this problem is. Hopefully Roy goes away behind bars for a very very long time.
My hat's off to you as a hospital social worker. I've handed many patient off to social workers hoping that there's something that can be done. It's often a thankless soul sucking job. So thank you for what you do.
Author's Response:
I thank you as an EMT d84;a039; as the wife of a former EMT 😊
we need more wonderful and compassionate EMTs. I am walking a fine line between canon personalities and keeping my AU story going.
Date: March 15, 2023 06:26 pm Title: Chapter 7 - Jim's arrival
I have transported three people in one ambulance before and it gets tight back there since there would be four people. The three patients and the EMT or paramedic who was attending them all. Since it's so crowded and because it's still a medical situation, the attending medic would (should) keep control of everything. Thus if they started yelling at each other like that it's the medic's job to step in and tell them to knock it off right then and there. Also just letting them get out would be considered patient abandonment so we'll just say that Jim signed the refusal/AMA forms off camera.
Ok, done being pedantic about EMS for now. What I did appreciate was that Dwight was still in hero mode there and was lording it over Jim too. 100% Dwight would use that as an opportunity to make Jim feel stupid. Though Jim is also right. If Dwight knew Roy was hurting Pam and did nothing that's a huge violation of trust and now Jim can fire back at Dwight that Dwight's not the hero he thought he was since he left a damsel in distress.
Then enters Helene. If that's everything that went down, yeah I get why Jim would stand there and take it. It's a lot to realize all at once, especially considering everything else that's happened.
Author's Response: ABSOLUTE AGREEMENT! My EMT wife was giving me some grief for being ‘loose’ with the EMT scenes 🤪
I am glad I am keeping and conveying the true characteristics!
Date: March 15, 2023 06:16 pm Title: Chapter 6 - Her fear
Still more darkness from the past starting to bubble up. Really starting to feel for Pam with all this boiling around in her mind. The manipulation Roy put on her to cover up the things being alluded to. The fact she went along with it for so long. The fact she just wants to run and hide. Like I said before, heavy stuff.
Author's Response: We will get a lot from Helene later on…her memories of what she witnessed in Pam.
Date: March 15, 2023 06:12 pm Title: Chapter 5 - Jim sees
I know this story is about Jim and Pam and all, but I can't help but love the fact that EMT's are here too and you're doing a bang-up job of getting them right. THANK YOU!!! Firm and direct.
Ok that's out of my system for now. There's still a lot that feels broken with both of them. That the one thing they both need is each other but circumstance is getting in the way once more.
Author's Response:
My love for EMTs and the helping professions is vital. They do not get enough love at all.
there is a lot of broken here…agreed
Date: March 15, 2023 06:10 pm Title: Chapter 4 - The stretcher
Oof, Pam's flashbacks are tough here. All that going through her mind. That those who want to help are only the precursors of pain. Heavy stuff.
Kudos on getting the medical stuff right though. Yes a C-collar is indicated when there's an unknown mechanism of injury and potential for spinal trauma. Nice job in that regard. Also the EMT attempting to calm things down by being honest about everything. Nice work there too.
Author's Response:
Yay!!!! Glad I got the message stuff right without being super heavy handed…trying to make it visible and readable to non-med readers.
my Pam is going to have a lot of flashbacks.