Boys and Girls
She tells me there’s this internship in graphic design.
She tells me she can work it out so that I can do it.
She listens to my excuses.
She tells me there are always a million reasons not to do something.
I start to realize that all of my excuses center around one fact.
I am engaged to Roy.
I mention the internship.
I don’t even get a chance to explain it before he says, “I think you should do it.”
I feel something stirring in me.
Something that feels like…possibility.
“It’s really cool.” I say to him.
He grins and says “That’s great.”
I remember I have someone else I need to tell.
I am engaged to Roy.
He says I already have a job.
He says there’s no guarantee that this internship will lead to anything.
He says what’s the point?
He says it will take up too much of my time.
I start to think that maybe he’s right.
After all, I have a wedding to plan.
I am engaged to Roy.
He says, “So you’re not doing it.”
He says it more like a statement than a question.
I ask him how he knows.
There’s so much…something in his eyes and his voice when he asks “Why not?”
Why does he care so much when my fiancé just…?
I’m angry and I take it out on him because he’s there.
I’m fine with my choices and it’s none of his business.
I am engaged to Roy.
They ask me about my dreams.
I tell them about the terrace.
I was twelve years old.
It was just a silly…possibility.
I’ll never have a terrace.
I am engaged to Roy.
Author's Chapter Notes:
Chapter 2 of the thing that consumed me.
Disclaimer: Same as with Chapter 1.
Disclaimer: Same as with Chapter 1.
