Date: March 07, 2011 08:26 pm Title: Chapter 1 All of Me
Poking around in some old stuff, looking for inspiration, I guess. I forgot how good this was. You managed to convey Jim's raw devastation so well. The ending is so utterly hollow. Really great stuff, jazz!
Author's Response: I just saw this, VB - thanks a bunch. After all this fan fic writing, I've realized I do a better job if some idea just grabs me and I have to write it down rather than planning and plotting some idea I think I ought to like.
10 [Report This]Date: January 23, 2011 08:04 pm Title: Chapter 1 All of Me
I know I am late to this story, but just wanted to let you know how well this was done and how much I enjoyed it. You just absolutely nailed how a guy feels when he is shot down the way Jim was (yes, I have been in this exact situation). As you say, for those who thought Jim was being jerk in S3, this is a good idea of how much pain he was in
Author's Response: Thanks so much for your comments, Labhub. I'm really delighted that you felt I was able to give a guy's perspective on this. One of my husband's pet peeves in reading fiction written by women is that they always write men's thoughts more like women would think, so its nice to hear I wasn't a "fail" in that aspect. I'm very sorry you've been in this situation, but hope it eventually turned out okay! People who are hurting aren't always nice, and that's why I gave Jim a pass on his S3 behavior. Thanks again for the review!
10 [Report This]Date: April 12, 2010 07:30 pm Title: Chapter 1 All of Me
Don't know how I missed this one last month - but somehow I did. It was so beautiful and so sad. I was telling my teenage daughter how sad it is when you tell someone you love them and they don't return that love. But I found my own "Jim" a few years later - so it's all good now - just like for Jim and Pam. Just wanted to say thanks for writing such a real moment for him.
Author's Response: Thanks so much for your comments, kam, I really appreciate your taking the time to review. And yay for finding your own Jim. I don't think I could have written this if I hadn't known it was all going to turn out well. I'm very glad you liked it.
Date: April 03, 2010 01:02 am Title: Chapter 1 All of Me
That last line gave me goosebumps.
This was so well-written. You captured Jim's alternating hope and anguish really well. Much enjoyed.
Author's Response: Thanks so much for your comments Monotreme, I'm glad that you liked it. And I'm really flattered that the last line gave you goosebumps. Thanks again.
10 [Report This]Date: March 21, 2010 10:35 pm Title: Chapter 1 All of Me
This is really hitting the grief bone, jazz. Nan kept telling me how I need to make time to read this and I'm glad I did. It's so raw and real, the pain that Jim was in that night.
Even more so than that, for the first time, I felt for S3 Jim (the way he is in your story) and his waiting for Pam to call.
::sniffs and wipes single tear:: I need to watch "The Delivery" now.
Oh, and excellent job! Thanks for sharing. Now write something happy ;o)
Author's Response: I always felt for S3 Jim and thought I understood why he acted the way he did when he came back, because I figured it must have been horrible for him to know that Pam called off her wedding but didn't make a move for him. It won't be hard to write something happier next time, and yeah, The Delivery makes it all better. Thanks so much for your read and review, bkwrm, much appreciated.
Date: March 15, 2010 12:38 am Title: Chapter 1 All of Me
oww this is soooo sad!!. i know they're happy now, but still. wow pam really mean not calling him. is it weird that i just want to hug and confort jim?
Author's Response: Nope, not weird at all. While I don't think it was actively mean on Pam's part (which they never actually tell us in the series), I do think it's one of the things that made Jim so distant when he finally came back to Stamford. He got a lot of flak from some folks about being a jerk, and this is my version of why his behavior was understandable. Thanks for reading!
Date: March 10, 2010 08:05 am Title: Chapter 1 All of Me
This is absolutely excellent! Beautifully written. (Poor, sad S2 Jim, let me hold you and comfort you...)
Author's Response: Thanks, pigeon! Who doesn't want to give S2 Jim a hug?
10 [Report This]Date: March 10, 2010 07:58 am Title: Chapter 1 All of Me
So dang good, my friend.
This: You’re like that dress she sees in the store and holds up in the mirror in front of her just to see how it would look if she tried it on. The one she smiles at and puts back on the rack because it’s kind of cute but she has no intention of buying.... is brilliant.
Author's Response: Thanks for your help, kiddo.
Date: March 09, 2010 08:14 pm Title: Chapter 1 All of Me
Wow, that was a change, Jazzy, but I'm glad you're going for it. Don't get me wrong, I'm excited for them to be happy, married, parents, whatever... but I MISS the angst and I was worried all the angst writing would dry up now that the baby is here.
This was great. Give me hap-happy on the show and some angst in fic :)
Author's Response: For me, it's like the happy now is the thing that makes it okay to revisit this horrible time. I can appreciate their joy even more remembering how they got there. I was nervous about this one - second person is new for me - and I'm not really comfortable writing the *ahem* intimate details. So thanks for the read and review Andastainonmyshirt.
Date: March 09, 2010 08:11 pm Title: Chapter 1 All of Me
There is no hotter, sadder, or more beautiful angst than Jim's angst in S2 and S3. Ugh. Thanks for this piece...any hope of a companion piece with the rest of Pam's night?
Author's Response: Yeah, Jim Halpert's situation pretty much killed me dead during that time. But it makes it so much more awesome that he and Pam and now parents. Did you ever think you'd see the day? Thanks so much Mel Like Mellow. I don't have a companion piece planned at all. I was supposed to be finishing a WIP when the Ghost of PoorSadJimpert Past made a visit.
Date: March 09, 2010 07:45 pm Title: Chapter 1 All of Me
Ugh...my heart...it is BROKEN. How is it possible to still feel this kind of GRIEF even AFTER what we saw last week?! I don't know man, but this was incredibly well written. His despair is just so acute here. Well, well done my friend. Some of your best writing ever.
Author's Response: I said this below on another response, but I think this has been brewing for several years in my head. I've always had a very emotional response to Jim's rejection and subsequent lack of closure. I think it's only by knowing that last week's baby episode happened and went well that I could get back here. I'm glad the first person worked for you - not something I've done much of, but it's a way I felt I could get closer to where he was, if that makes sense Thanks, lovefool.
Date: March 09, 2010 05:38 pm Title: Chapter 1 All of Me
Dang. This was a punch in the gut. But a beautiful punch, if there's such thing :)
This was just so incredibly written that I'm kind of at a loss for words. Poor Jim, thank God we know how it all ended up! Anyway, I salute you. This was epic.
Author's Response: Wow nandance, I'm flattered. I was only able to go here because I know it all turned out okay for him. Thank you.
Date: March 09, 2010 04:39 pm Title: Chapter 1 All of Me
You know what's crazy? I finish reading this and I feel like crying. I know how this ends. I know all the great, positive, hopeful things to come, and yet, this is so desperate and hopeless and heartbreaking...
Basically, it's all your fault for getting into post-Casino Night Jim's head like that. :) Because this feels very true. This dark place he must have gone to after. And how the hope leapt up again and then slowly trickled out as Pam didn't call...
Yep, crying now. You are evil. That is all.
Thank you!
Author's Response: As long as I can be a hobbit, I don't mind being evil. Aw, is it mean of me to be excited that I actually got a sniffle out of you? I couldn't imagine how awful it would have been for Jim to hear about the cancelled wedding from everybody but Pam. Thank you so much, Peanut, for reading and reviewing.
10 [Report This]Date: March 09, 2010 02:52 pm Title: Chapter 1 All of Me
This is just outstanding, jazz! It's so in character and painful. The ending is devastating. Makes Jim's prick-y behavior in S3 pretty understandable.
The most killer two paragraphs for me were:
Now you know you were wrong about Pam. She knows you’re a man. She knew all along. You know now, because she kissed you back. Really kissed you. Like a woman kisses a man. You can still feel her hand burning the back of your head where she touched you. Pulled you in. She knows how it feels to kiss you. That you want her. That you’re in love with her. That you need.You laugh, unamused. You realize you’re such a fool, because, she has thought about you like that. You’re like that dress she sees in the store and holds up in the mirror in front of her just to see how it would look if she tried it on. The one she smiles at and puts back on the rack because it’s kind of cute but she has no intention of buying. You’re not the man she wants. You know that now for a fact, and it hurts worse than you could have ever imagined. It hurts someplace deep and ugly and decimating.
The concept of having Pam "try him on and put him back" ... wow.
I think this is one of the best things you've ever written.
Author's Response: Thanks very much VB, I'm sure it would have been better had I waited for you to read it too, but I was getting a bad case of cold feet. It makes me happy that you liked the dress part, because I kind of liked it, too. Even though she didn't admit it to herself, she'd clearly flirted with him, and what other conclusion could he come to, in the end? I always defended Jim's behavior in S3, and this is why. I imagined he'd lost so much to her, that he was acting out of self preservation, and I couldn't blame him for that.
Date: March 09, 2010 02:35 pm Title: Chapter 1 All of Me
Sweet lord. This one kills me. I think I say this to all of the season two angst out there, but goodness, I wish I could've given this boy a hug back then. He needs a hug from his future self.
Describing him as "Pam's Ken doll friend" was brilliant. What an analogy.
"She just needed some time to thinkk, you figure. You can't wait to hear from her." So heartbreaking. It makes you wonder what it was like for Jim in Stamford, when he knew about Pam being single, and probably was waiting for her and just never got that closure. We'll probably never know much about that time.
Author's Response: Yeah, I always wanted to know how this night went down, and we never will. So I made something up. We all know it turns out okay which makes it okay to think about again If only future Jim would send this poor guy a fax from the future announcing the birth of Cecelia Halpert.
Date: March 09, 2010 01:52 pm Title: Chapter 1 All of Me
Guess what? Pretty sure this is my favorite of yours, and not a rainbow or butterfly to be found! Who'da thunk it?!
Author's Response: I'm surprised. I thought you'd pull my fingernails out. *grin*
10 [Report This]Date: March 09, 2010 01:01 pm Title: Chapter 1 All of Me
Hooooly crap. This was gut-wrenchingly, heartbreakingly perfect. Amazing, fantastic job.
Author's Response: Wow, thanks pam-beesly. Much appreciated.