Date: March 02, 2007 10:36 am Title: I dream my painting, and then I paint my dream
It's a fine line, isn't it, between "never" and "never have to". Nice.
Pam's finally growing a pair. And it's good that she's slow and taking her time and doing things in her own way. Because trying to please everyone else clearly hasn't been working.
I really like that she knows her art is pedestrian and is just fine with that. Good detail.
Author's Response: It is - isn't it??
You've touched on everything I'm hoping to convey - so thank you for taking the time to let me know.
More to come soon. I know what I want to say - I'm having trouble typing it. LOL!
Date: February 20, 2007 08:21 pm Title: I dream my painting, and then I paint my dream
If she never says anything, she'll never know.
You're killing me, here! I hate that you're right, but love that you're able to express it so beautifully.
Author's Response:
Thanks so much ayla! At least we know (hope) that when Pam comes to her senses she'll have exhausted every other option so there'll be nothing standing in her way!
Well. Except maybe Karen. Grrrrrrrrr.
Thanks so much for the review.
Date: February 20, 2007 06:06 pm Title: I dream my painting, and then I paint my dream
Oh Pam...This is so much worse!!!!
I really am enjoying this fic..Keep it up...!!
Author's Response: It is!! Let's hope she realizes it too. :( Thanks for reading!
Date: February 20, 2007 03:33 pm Title: I dream my painting, and then I paint my dream
Hm. Yes, Pam's been courageous. Unfortunately, the one time she really needs that courage, it's gone. But courage like the one that she needs takes a long time to build up, so hopefully, she just needs some time.
I really do feel for Pam in all of this. I know what it's like to present your artwork, knowing that you're not showing much about yourself because your most personal and moving pieces are tucked away carefully in your mind (because the stuff that's really really personal is terrifying to even put on a canvas) or some dark forgotten corner of your life and still feeling hurt that no one likes it. It's a strange sort of disappointment with yourself that's kinda indescribable and just sad.
Thank you so much for writing this.
cheers.
--Lex
Author's Response:
You are welcome Lex. I just have this need to figure her out and this is my version of what's going on in her mind. I'm pretty confident she'll make the right choices when all is said and done - just not as quickly as I might like.
And that's what pains me. :(
Thanks again for the review!
9 [Report This]Date: February 20, 2007 03:12 pm Title: I dream my painting, and then I paint my dream
Wow, the end of this chapter captures Pam perfectly! I really hope to get to read the rest of this soon!
Author's Response:
I'm so glad you thought so! I'll be writing more as soon as the next episode airs.
Stay tuned! :)
Date: February 20, 2007 01:39 pm Title: I dream my painting, and then I paint my dream
You're killing me a little bit. But you know, go empowered Pam and let's hope she tries to find out!
Author's Response:
I'm counting on it. :)
Thanks Gen!
10 [Report This]Date: February 20, 2007 11:04 am Title: I dream my painting, and then I paint my dream
aiiiii! It really is this frustrating, isn't it?? I want you to know that I have studiously been avoiding angsty fanfic, but for you I made an exception!! Wonderful insight on Pam. Let's hope she makes the right choice, hmm?
Author's Response:
Aww Thanks Mox! I'm studiously trying not to write angsty fic - but I feel this need to explain Pam - to herself even. Hourglass is my own exception.
She will make the right choice. She HAS to,
And if she doesn't I'm going to make her. ;)
Date: February 20, 2007 11:02 am Title: I dream my painting, and then I paint my dream
I love this story. It is just ... painfully good. And I like the quotes. I think the first quote, the one about the hourglass... I just made it my away message because right now its just one thing on top of another for me (and why i am not dealing with that crap, but instead reading fanfic, I dunno). But, I never really thouht of that, she really does have courage. Even if it isn't really obvious in her art, she does. But, its Jim. Oh, so good.
Author's Response:
Thanks Emily! I think alot of Pam's done is incredibly courageous - but it's hidden by the fact that she won't open her mouth about the one thing she really wants.
So. Frustrating.
I'm so glad you are liking the story. Thank you so much for the review.
Date: February 20, 2007 10:54 am Title: I dream my painting, and then I paint my dream
Oh, my achey-breaky heart. I think this is very apt re: Pam's state of mind (though I am becoming cautiously hopeful again. Seriously!) Her thoughts on Roy are perfect and I like the reference to crayons...Pam needs to start coloring outside the lines, doesn't she? She will, I feel it coming.
Author's Response:
I'm in a zen-like state lately. It's weird. Not to say I've given up my rabid spoiler-whore habit. I'd give that up for Lent if I thought I'd stick to it (and if March wasn't going to be wrought with reruns). I just ache for both of them - being so stubborn and hurt and just paralyzed.
It's going to be so good when they finally move - which is why I'm so impatient.
Thanks, as always, for the review. :)