Penname: ftmill16 Real name: Tina
Member Since: February 02, 2010

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Things To Say by Pepper Rated: T [Reviews - 11] 2
Summary:

After the events of "Beach Games," Pam and Jim find themselves alone at the lake with plenty to talk about.

Nobody was writing the post-"BG" scenario I wanted to see, so I took matters into my own hands. It's my very first attempt at fanfic. Be kind!

Spoilers through "Beach Games."


Categories: Jim and Pam, Present, Episode Related
Characters: Jim/Pam, Karen
Genres: Fluff, Romance
Warnings: Mild sexual content
Series: None
Chapters: 3 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 2225 Read Count: 9580 ePub Downloads: 0
[Report This] Published: May 14, 2007 Updated: May 14, 2007
Reviewer: ftmill16 Signed 10
Date: November 04, 2010 Title: Chapter 3: Chapter 3

OMG!!! All the fics I have read about Beach Games and finally FINALLY one that i written the way I would have loved for it to have gone! I seriously wondered if my thinking was SO off that not one other person felt like I did so please let me say a great big THANK YOU!!!!

Summary: Past Featured Story

MEMBER'S CHOICE - An alternate universe where Pam and Roy had a wedding, Pam goes to art school in New York, Dwight owns a restaurant and Jim works for a job in advertising that he likes a lot more and gets a lot more money at.
Basically? Dunder Mifflin never exists. And everyone meets under different circumstances.

The characters are pretty much the same -- personality-wise -- they just have different roles and work different jobs.


Categories: Jim and Pam, Alternate Universe
Characters: Angela, Creed, Dwight, Jim, Jim/Pam, Karen, Kelly, Michael, Pam, Roy, Ryan
Genres: Angst, Drunk Pam/Jim, Fluff, Holiday, Romance, Hurt/Comfort, Travel, Weekend
Warnings: Adult language, Moderate sexual content, Violence/Injury
Series: None
Chapters: 28 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 67523 Read Count: 167930 ePub Downloads: 22
[Report This] Published: June 01, 2007 Updated: June 15, 2007
Reviewer: ftmill16 Signed 10
Date: July 24, 2010 Title: Chapter 28: This Is The Life I Want: Leap of Faith

Wow! I have read this story several times since finding these boards and I think I like it more each time I read it! Even in a completely AU you were able to find Jim and Pam's personalities so perfectly! Thanks for a really great story!

Summary: Pure smut for pure smut's sake. :)

Categories: Jim and Pam, Present
Characters: Jim/Pam
Genres: Oneshot, Steamy
Warnings: Explicit sexual content
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 3495 Read Count: 10641 ePub Downloads: 2
[Report This] Published: June 23, 2007 Updated: June 23, 2007
Reviewer: ftmill16 Signed 10
Date: July 24, 2010 Title: Chapter 1: Billiards at the Country Club

wow... SOOOO hot! Need to cool down! You do a GREAT job with this!

Summary:

I decided to write a sequel to Charcoal & Watercolors !!!!

The story picks up right about where Charcoal & Watercolors left off -- Jim and Pam's wedding. Then goes from there into their future. Jim still works at the advertising company and Pam works (exclusively) at a publishing company where she is an illustrator of children's stories.

I added a few more characters ;) and am planning on keeping almost all of the characters from the previous story.

Enjoy!!


Categories: Jim and Pam, Present, Future, Alternate Universe
Characters: Andy, Angela, Dwight, Jim/Pam, Karen, Kelly, Michael, Phyllis, Ryan
Genres: Angst, Fluff, Holiday, Married, Romance, Hurt/Comfort, Travel, Weekend, Workdays
Warnings: Adult language
Series: None
Chapters: 28 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 68589 Read Count: 111987 ePub Downloads: 8
[Report This] Published: June 29, 2007 Updated: September 21, 2007
Reviewer: ftmill16 Signed 10
Date: July 25, 2010 Title: Chapter 28: Starting Over

What an absolutely wonderful story and a thilling follow up to one of my favorites on tis site. I KNOW you have been away from this for a REALLY long timy but if you have it in you at all, PLEASE come back to and finish this. I love how the two storys cover the two distincyly different parts of Jim and Pam's live. C&W covers each back story up to how they fell in love, Jim sweeping her off her feet, her strugling to become an artist as he struggles to get rid of a mistake named Karen. I LOVE how you showed what Jim and Karen had, though it was first, doesn't even compare to Jim and Pam who basically fell in love, hard and immediately. I also loved Karen being the devious, slutty, underhanded person... and the way she talked about her kids..WOW! Anyhow, this second story shows them settling into mariage and domestic bliss yet shows plenty of heartbreak and restlessness. I actually had tears when Jim missed Amelia's birth! Anyhow, just SO wonderful. If there is ANY way at all, PlEASE find it in yourself to continue and finish this! Thanks for not one but two AMAZING stories!

Summary:

What would have happened if Jim had been a little later getting back to the office?


Categories: Episode Related, Alternate Universe
Characters: David Wallace, Dwight, Ensemble, Jim, Jim/Pam, Karen, Pam, Roy
Genres: Angst, Romance, Hurt/Comfort, Steamy, Workdays
Warnings: Adult language, Explicit sexual content, Other Adult Theme, Violence/Injury
Challenges: Injury
Series: None
Chapters: 9 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 15236 Read Count: 48545 ePub Downloads: 12
[Report This] Published: July 10, 2007 Updated: January 29, 2008
Reviewer: ftmill16 Signed 1
Date: October 16, 2017 Title: Chapter 2: Chapter 2

I've read this before... MANY times. Still I sit here sobbing as I read the end of chapter 2 again. I re and reread tons of Jim and Pam fanfic. I absolutely adore it. Some writers bring many emotions out of me. I have to tell you though, I don't often cry at them. Sadness and sorrow? Asolutely. But deep felt tears? I'm sure it's happened but certainly rare. That shows your talent and the depth of your writing. I feel as though I'm watching an episode reading this. Here in chapter 2 it's like I can see and feel Jim's eagerness and anxiety over not hearing from Pam. His willingness to let Karen get things out but then the hot anger when she not only brings in Pam's name, but insults her. His warriness on seeing Dwight, Michael and Toby's mannerisms. Then his anxiety over what the situation could be turning to despair and greif. It pounds at my emotions.

I know it's very likely that you'll never see or read this. However, if you do, though it's been a very long hiatus, PLEASE, with a work like this, that draws emotions from people, it deserves an ending. I'd really really love to see a few more chapters that could wrap this up in such a satisfying way!

Summary: Past Featured Story

Written for both the Pam's Pregnancy and 55 Word challenges. Takes place before The Job.


Categories: Jim and Pam
Characters: Karen, Kelly
Genres: None
Warnings: None
Challenges: 55, Pam's Pregnancy
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 55 Read Count: 5082 ePub Downloads: 0
[Report This] Published: September 02, 2007 Updated: September 02, 2007
Reviewer: ftmill16 Signed 10
Date: April 19, 2011 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

I'm generally not a fan of the 55 word challenges (are they all challenges???) but I really had no choice here. I happened to click on it so I decided to read it and can I just say, this is absolutely BRILLIANT!!! So so glad I didn't miss this!

Summary: Past Featured Story

MEMBER'S CHOICE TOP NOMINEE - Jim and Pam must interact in network sponsored live chats to promote their documentary. Angst (and maybe some smut) ensue.

Story now complete.

 


Categories: Jim and Pam, Episode Related
Characters: Ensemble, Jim/Karen, Jim/Pam, Pam/Other
Genres: Angst
Warnings: Adult language, Moderate sexual content
Series: Reality Reality TV
Chapters: 23 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 51174 Read Count: 147824 ePub Downloads: 48
[Report This] Published: October 11, 2007 Updated: November 16, 2007
Reviewer: ftmill16 Signed 10
Date: October 17, 2010 Title: Chapter 23: Squee!!!!!

This story is amazing. I really love how you experiment with so many realistic situations, Jim writng fan fiction to give his side (SERIOUSLY, how awesome would THAT be?) The actors, primarily Jim and Pam, having to do all sorts of different press spots, and this. There may be more that I have yet to read Anyhow, being honest, with each of them I tend to think, this will be too tedious but I'll read a little, maybe skip to the end, to get a feel for that style of writing and every single time it's like I'm drugged I get SO sucked in. You are a truly amazing writer and this is another example of the truth in that statement. These HAVE TO be tedious to write, thaks for sticking with it and doing it anyhow!

Shift by thirtypercent Rated: MA [Reviews - 140] 93
Summary: Past Featured Story

What if Jim never went to Stamford? What if Pam started making life changes a little sooner?

An AU look at season 3.

 


Categories: Jim and Pam, Alternate Universe
Characters: Ensemble, Jim, Jim/Pam, Kelly, Michael, Pam
Genres: Angst, Romance, Steamy
Warnings: Adult language, Explicit sexual content
Series: None
Chapters: 10 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 23367 Read Count: 98207 ePub Downloads: 57
[Report This] Published: December 14, 2007 Updated: May 15, 2013
Reviewer: ftmill16 Signed
Date: July 15, 2010 Title: Chapter 1: I won't rest while you break my will

WOW! Great story! I've read it twice, don't leave us hanging NOW! I'm so anxious to see how this is going to play out! I beg you, UPDATE SOON!!!

Reviewer: ftmill16 Signed 10
Date: June 30, 2011 Title: Chapter 8: All the night's magic seems to whisper and hush

So I know it's been a REALLY long time since you updated but this story is too fabulous to leave it unfinished. On top of how great it is, you left us at such a HUGE clifhanger I think you really have no choicr except to come back and finish it. If you're out the, I beg you, come back and give us resolution. I want to know why Roy is sitting waiting when Pam gets home from Ny, how Roy will react to Jim not only being there physically with her but I would also think it would be VERY obvious that Jim is with her in EVERY way. How will Jim react to Roy sitting there? Will it bring out his insecuritie and make him wonder if Pam and Roy are in contact even though after the night they spent together, he should feel extremely secure about his place in Psm's life and heart and even in her bed. I also want to see just how Pam will react to this little turn of events. SOOOOO... pkease come back. Fill in all these blanks for us!

Summary: Jim and Pam celebrate Christmas and New Year's together. A holiday fic, mildy belated.
Categories: Jim and Pam, Present
Characters: None
Genres: Fluff, Holiday
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 4915 Read Count: 7015 ePub Downloads: 1
[Report This] Published: January 01, 2008 Updated: January 01, 2008
Reviewer: ftmill16 Signed 10
Date: July 20, 2010 Title: Chapter 1: Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea

What an absolutely awesome story! Their dynamic with each other's familes is EXACTLY as I have always pictured it and I was so happy that though things DID get delayed, you didn't string out the proposal forever having it fail over and over. I thoght this was truly perfect. Oh I adore that you have it that he hadn't brought Karen and no other girl either, home with him. It was just anoyher way he was able to reassure Pam, who isn't loaded with self confidence, how special she truly is to him and shows again that he never really viewed Karen, or ayone else, in a serious light.

On a side note LOVE Juno... not as much as the Office, but truy love it and you did a fantastic job with the lyrics here, I love them and really I think the silly lyrics really fit Jim and Pam and wh they are as a couple! Thanks for such a fantastic story!

Summary: Jim must deal with a family crisis.  Pam helps him to get through it.
Categories: Jim and Pam, Present, Episode Related, Alternate Universe
Characters: Jim/Pam
Genres: Angst, Romance
Warnings: Adult language, Mild sexual content
Series: None
Chapters: 41 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 79354 Read Count: 184377 ePub Downloads: 47
[Report This] Published: January 21, 2008 Updated: February 05, 2011
Reviewer: ftmill16 Signed 10
Date: August 12, 2010 Title: Chapter 38: Famous Pam, Infamous Pam.

okay, have to be honest, even though I knew ther would be no Jim/Pam interaction in this chapter, I was still so disappointe! I feel like I am on pins and needle waiting to find out several things, the results of Karen's phone call, I mean how it's going to be handled, what in the world the inscription is on the inside of Jim's ring and there was something else that I've forgotten. Just generally getting so impatient to see the next move. Thst said (SORRY, just HAD to say it!!) it was a great chapter. I did wonder when Pam called and the phone was in Jim's mom's room, I wondered if the ringtone (which BTW, you could NOT have picked a better one to sum up Jim's feelings for Pam! SO perfect! I also love that hers for him is Lean on me! Out of all the songs in the world you somehow picked like the perfet ones!) anyhow, just wondered if it registered with his mom that he had set that ringtone especially for Pam's calls. Anyhow, I undersand his mom's resentment and generally being I can't think of the word I'm sooking for but her not being happy with Pam but it would be nice if she could understand the position her son put Pam in and then gave her no time to think before leaving and taking her best fried away from her when she needed him most. Also, I assume his mom would hae no idea of just how terrible he had recently been treating her and the fact that while Pam may have been careless with his feelings, he had not long before Casino Day assured her that all he's had was a crush when he firststarted, it was a long time ago and he was totally over it which to me makes it even more believable that she was blindsided on Casino Night. Anyhow, I just wonder if Jim's mom will wonder about Pam's mom's feeligs about Jim after she DOES see how purposefully cruel he was upon returning. WOW, I'm rambling (resuls of no sleep and strong medication!) Anyhow, I think Larissa was able to see both in her interractions with Pam in the room and seeing the stuff she did and realizing ho muchof that was Pam, not Jim, not to mention Pam taking her time of work to be there for Jim. How she's been able to just very quietly let him and his family know just how much she loves him. I really am geatful for the quick update and am SO looking forward to the future chapters! You've done such a wonderful and realistic job wih this story and I admire you for sticking with it wvn after long breaks! You're a wonderful writer!

Author's Response: Thanks so much for sharing your thoughts here! Don't worry, I think you'll be happy with Pam and Larissa's relationship! I hope I'm not going to tick off readers here but I may as well set expectations because I don't want an insurrection or something. I don't see this as a story just about Pam and Jim, so there are these other relationships I want to explore with them. There will be TWO more chapters where Pam and Jim are interacting with the parents before they see each other again. Just hang with me though, because that chapter is already drafted out and I HOPE everyone will think it was worth the wait.

Reviewer: ftmill16 Signed
Date: July 15, 2010 Title: Chapter 36: Love Is an Action

WOW! What a great story! I am waiting on pins and needles to know what is next and I'm NOT above begging so I BEG you, PLEASE udate SOON!!! You really have done such a great job with the dynamic of this story! Can't wait to read more!

Reviewer: ftmill16 Signed 10
Date: February 07, 2011 Title: Chapter 41: You Love Me

SO P E R F E C T!!! Seriously! This chapter made me give a contented sigh because the misunderstandings are done. You again wrote this so perfectly! I love how you make Jim realize not only that he just isn't caable of jus lying there while Pam is crying... over him, bt also tha if he doesn't act then, while she is being brave and honest, well he just may miss the boat. It's great that he knows her so well that he knows that when he startles her she going to go for her necklace so he is able to use that knowledge to grab her arm before she can get anywhere. I love him comforting and reassuring her. I have to imagine that she had a whole lot of emotion built up with them 'pretending' to be in love all day and then at night having to go back to the just friends, if even that, routine. THAT alone coupled with the ehaustion of the hospital and running arouns and trying to meet Jim's eeds and his parent's need in any way she could, I would think when she was able to cry and let it out she probably had a lot to get rid of. So perfect that they are just laying there, tentatively 'getting to know each other.' I love how you described Jim's feelings when their tounges touched, a feeling he had never felt before, a feeling of being connected to Pam. I am curious as to why his mom is calling, I hope nothing bad has happened, I'm wondering if maybe she wants to ell him that if Pam tries to talk to him, he needs to be open to listening. I'm sure that no matter what, Jim's mom wants him to be happy and despite any reservations she may have, I think Pam has shown Larissa that she really does love Jim and I'm certain that Larissa knows that Jim still loves Pam.

This story truly gets better with every single chapter. BTW, just wanted to say about the smut issue... Now I love some smut as much as the next guy, but I think you can also et the point across, make it clear what they are doing, without being descriptive, if that makes sense. I think you can make it clear the actions they have taken without talking about thrusting and contracting and where they licked and such. I have seen beautiful stories with it and I have seen equally beautiful stories without it. Persoally I thik what is most important is that you stay true to yourself as an author because it is YOUR writing, YOUR style that has kept people coming back chapter after chapter, so anxious to read more. If you stray away from what you are comfortable writing I think it could change the tone of the story because you weren't comfortable with it when you wrote it. That said, if you decide to go for it, I'll be happy to read it and I am certain that anything YOU write will come out great!

Can't wait to hear what the phone call is about and what comes next for Jim and Pam. I want to thank you for sticking with this story. Even when you had a tough time with it and it took you a long time to get a new chapter out (and we wee getting desperate!!!) you have still come back. Thank you for that.

Author's Response: ftmill, you leave the most amazingly detailed reviews! And thank you so much for the compliments on my writing style and for the vote of confidence on handling the smut/no-smut issue. I will say, jazzfan and andtheivy are GREAT betas and they will save me from posting anything that reads terribly because I've tried to write something I'm not comfortable with.

Reviewer: ftmill16 Signed 10
Date: February 05, 2011 Title: Chapter 39: Being With Someone

Oh I cannot tell you just how excite I was to see that there were new chapters added to this fic! Such a happy joyous day! Okay, this is a really GREAT chapter! At first I was thinking, geez mama Halpert, you're being pretty harsh with Pam. I mean, she hut Jim, but he hurt her too! Then I thought about my own 20 yr old son and heck, he had a girl hurt him recently, nothing like this, no prolonged period of time and certainly not in front of an audience. Thinking about that I realized that the love of a mother isn't always the most rational thing, especially when it concerns a mom and her 'little boy' when she feels he is sensitive.

That said, you do SUCH a fantastic job with the emotions and the explanations in this chapter. I thought it was so realistic that after Jms mom had seen all that Pam had helped with in the prior chapter, then here she is, sitting with a woman she doesn't know all because she loves her son, without realistically expecting the love to be returned any longer... it would be hard for the irritation NOT to melt away. At the same time, I like how Larissa get's to the point asking why Pam is there and when Pam uses phrasing that of course we all know is BS and is really just using the 'repaying of a debt' as a justification to be there, well, Larissa thinks again about her wounded son and is right back in THAT mindset.

I love the backstory you created (at least I think you did) of Jim and Mark moving from and apartment to a house together and that putting doubt even in Pam's mind as to Jim's sexuality, even if she had long ago concluded that she was wrong. I like that she was able to make Jim's mom really see her side, how se felt, what she thought and explaining about how much was shot for the documentary vs how much is shown was crucial. I think it was also good for his mom to hear that one reason Pam didn't seriously consider it was that she simply felt that the girls Jim dates are far out of Pam's league. I think you showed in there that even his mom didn't really agree with that. I really LOVED his mom giving Pam advice that Pam needs to talk to him and that she would need to be the one to start the discussion. What Pam doesn't know is that his mom I think, along with his dad of course, have known for some time that he isn't happy with Karen and is just going through the motions and trying to protect himself. I think that as a mom, seeing what Larissa had seen both in Pam's actions and her words, she could sense that Pam really and truly does love Jim, his heart would really be safe with her and she knows that Pam is what would really make Jim hapy and complete and that's why she was willing to listen to her and give her advice. I think that Larissa really got the chance to see that Pam really is a good, aring, loving person and that THAT is exactly why Jim fell in love wth her.

This really was an awesome chapter and as eager as I have been for interraction between Jim and Pam, I think that this chapter was absolutey necessary! (Not that it matters what I thnk! :o) )

Author's Response: Of COURSE it matters what you think! I'm writing for the READERS! Glad you liked the back story I made up about Jim & Mark's living arrangements. And I was so glad to read your comment about Larissa's irritation melting away during the day but coming right back when Pam says something that puts her "right back in that mindset." That emotional mental switch is exactly what I was trying to convey. Thanks!

Reviewer: ftmill16 Signed 10
Date: February 05, 2011 Title: Chapter 40: On the Advice of Pablo Picasso…

WHEW! I was so excited at the end of the last chapter to see the nate that said Pam talks to Jim or whatever it said, then I 'turned the page' and it said 'sort of' and I thought NOOOOOOO!!! However, this was the PERFECT way to do this. Pam is getting more courage, but she isn't there yet, so how perfect, practice on Jim when he is sleeping. Of course I would think she would have had to have known, somewhere in her mind, that he very well could wake up at some point and may hear at least some of what she had to say. I mean... I love how she just really went for it, said what she had to say even going as far at the end as to say, I don't want you to love Karen, I want you to love me. Poor Jim HAD to questioning at least in part if maybe he had just dreamed that he had woken up and was hearing this. I mean, as great as a face to face discussion would have been, that has ever worked too well for these two so a talkwhere one is just laying it all out there, you really did pick the perfect way to do this! This story just gets better and better!

Author's Response: Thanks!

Reviewer: ftmill16 Signed 10
Date: August 06, 2010 Title: Chapter 37: Breathe

OMG!!! I cannot tell you just how excited I was when I saw there was an update to this! I will say that it's killing me that it didn't have interaction betwen Jim and Pam showing what's happening after Karen's phone call but I trust that will come along soon and I pray that since you have so much of it already done it won't take too long. (Don't know if MY heart could take anywhere near another 8 months!!!) OK, that said, what an absolutely fantastic chapter! I know nothing about this stuff but WOW it sounded real to me. With your descriptions I felt I could truly picture what was happening! THIS is a truly GREAT story! I absolutely caannot wait for the next chapters! GREAT job!!!

Author's Response: Thanks so much, ftmill16! I am so pleased that you're enjoying the story. About the next chap ... still no Pam and Jim for you, I fear. There WILL be Pam and Larissa, however! I hope that will suffice for now. :-)

Reviewer: ftmill16 Signed
Date: June 02, 2012 Title: Chapter 1: Prologue

Hey there VB! I really REALLY hope you're still out there and planning on finishing this because seriously, you have taken too much time and care, the details and slow buildup you gave us... you have been pure magic all throughout this story and honestly of all the stories on this site, this one is the one that LEAST deserves to be out there unfinished. SO, please, PLEASE... I beg you... I'll bribe you if you want... want me to bring you a pizza, your choice of toppings and a beverage of your choice? Bake some cookies? Pedicure, massage your tired shoulders as you write? Whatever, WHATEVER it takes, I'll be right there because I want to see this one finished in the WORST way! I KNOW you can do it! So please please please come back. I know that there are many MANY readers that are absolutely desperate to read the rest of Jim and Pam's story in the world of Cardiac Care! I hope to find out things like if Jim's dad is glad that Jim and Karen are finally over since he was so disappointed in Jim, knowing why Jim was with her. WIll their relationship REALLY rebound and will his dad take to Pam? Will his mom be able to truly accept Pam? How about the rest of the family? I don't know that these will be answered, just things I would love to see resolved. Also I'd like to know about that phone call and what happens next and where exacctly Jim and Pam go from there. What did Pam have inscribed in Jim's ring? How will things go with Karen back at the office? Please, even if you don't answer all my questions, just PLEASE finish this up. You've worked too hard on it not to and the story is just so beautiful, it DESERVES an ending! I can't wait to read more! THis is truly one of the premiere stories on this site!

Summary: Past Featured StoryTwo days after the Booze Cruise...what might've happened if Jim had confessed sooner.
Categories: Jim and Pam, Past, Episode Related
Characters: Mark
Genres: Angst, Humor, Inner Monologue, Romance, Steamy, Weekend
Warnings: Adult language, Moderate sexual content
Series: None
Chapters: 21 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 88192 Read Count: 291341 ePub Downloads: 96
[Report This] Published: January 29, 2008 Updated: July 11, 2008
Reviewer: ftmill16 Signed 10
Date: July 26, 2010 Title: Chapter 21: Chapter 21

THIS may just be my vey favorite of all the fanfics I have read! I have read many, probably almost all of your stories and I have to say, NO ONE does gut wrenching angst the way you do! I mean, sometimes when I read you works I seriously feel so drained, and certain ones I have to skim A LOT of te chapters when I re read them because my heart just cannot take it again. (Thinking of Only I think that's the name... I ADORE that one... well, especially the latter parts) Please understand, in saying that I'm not criticizing, you just REALLY bring it out SO well! That said, I'm normally able to read this without skimmng, it's just so AMAZING and it truly catches Roy exactly as I picture him to be, so clueless that his relationship is falling apart in front of him and completely ignoring Pam when she clearly states her wants, no, don't have Jim drive me home, and needs, Roy, if you leave I won't be here when you get back. This story is at the top of my favorites mentally because I LOVE how you cut out the parts hat were the biggest problems, Jim's confession came with much more time before the wedding so it wasn't as much of a panic and a much bigger deal was that Jim was still there after his confession, as uncomfortable as it was for them, it allowed Pam time to really begin to see things clearly and bigger yet in my mind he was there when she needed to start picking up the piecex of the life that HE had essentially shattered. Too bad you don't write for the show!! ::::sigh:::: Seriously, I know I will be rereading this plenty more times in the future. You are truly talented and have an amazing way with words! Thanks for writing a great story and the many other great stories you have written as well!

Summary:

A look at the an angsty side of Jim and Pam. Things happen, insecurities come forward, and moments from the past haunt their future. But they will fight through it.


Categories: Jim and Pam, Present, Past
Characters: Ensemble, Jim/Karen, Jim/Other, Jim/Pam, Pam/Other, Pam/Roy
Genres: Angst, Romance, Weekend, Workdays
Warnings: Adult language, Moderate sexual content
Series: None
Chapters: 9 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 19613 Read Count: 31926 ePub Downloads: 8
[Report This] Published: February 03, 2008 Updated: March 31, 2008
Reviewer: ftmill16 Signed 10
Date: June 17, 2011 Title: Chapter 4: Chapter 4 :And if you ever find someone new, I know he'd better be good to you

You know, I really love this story, all of your work really. I've read this one several times and I always have the same reaction to this chapter so this time I pulled up the reviews for this chapter specifically and am honestly surprised to find that I'm apparently the only one that feels this way about this. I understand about Pam being braver and more independent, but it seems to me that here Pam decided that Jim's feelings didn't count. I mean, she couldn't comprimise and at least not be IN the wedding especially KNOWING Roy was going to be in it and she KNOWS how Jim would feel. Pam is the one who made Jim feel threatened by Roy and her actions in this particular chapter, if I were Jim, would have made me feel the same way. I mean, in the end, it really WAS Jim vs. Roy again, right? And Roy won. How is Jim supposed to feel about this? I wonder just how Pam would feel if Jim were going to go spend quality time around Karen and her family for a weekend because he had gotten close to a relative of Karen's during the time they were together. Oh, and I'm betting Jim wasn't invited along, too akward, and that would just add to the problems. Anyhow, I'm betting that Pam wouldn't for one instant put up with Jim being around Karen in that type of situation, no way because she is every bit as insecure about Karen as Jim is about Roy.

Anyhow, I just had to speak up for poor Jim. Course I know it all works out but I really do get this same reaction every time I get to this part, something in me is screaming, Jim, stop beating yourself up! Pam is being selfish and not even considering how this makes you feel! SO finally I at least wrote it down. Maybe I'll be more at peace with it now! :o) I really do adore your writing! Getting ready to reread the Circle of Life next! It's a favorite of mine!

Summary: The whole office works and lives together in Dunder Hall in college.
Categories: Jim and Pam, Alternate Universe
Characters: Ensemble, Jim/Pam
Genres: Angst, Drunk Pam/Jim, Fluff, Romance
Warnings: Moderate sexual content
Series: None
Chapters: 40 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 80607 Read Count: 166418 ePub Downloads: 26
[Report This] Published: February 06, 2008 Updated: April 16, 2008
Reviewer: ftmill16 Signed 10
Date: August 12, 2010 Title: Chapter 40: Chapter 40

Wow! AMAZING! This was your first? More than Amazing! There is something SO special about you writing, I seriously never want the stories to end! I AM excited that this one has a sequel! You truly are gifted!

Summary: Hmmm. What if Pam had made a move on the Booze Cruise?
Categories: Jim and Pam, Episode Related
Characters: Jim, Jim/Pam, Katy, Pam, Pam/Roy, Roy
Genres: Angst, Drunk Pam/Jim, Romance, Steamy
Warnings: Moderate sexual content
Series: None
Chapters: 7 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 10551 Read Count: 64136 ePub Downloads: 18
[Report This] Published: February 27, 2008 Updated: March 02, 2008
Reviewer: ftmill16 Signed 10
Date: November 07, 2011 Title: Chapter 7: Chapter 7

I know that I am WAYYYY after the fact with this review but sometimes when I read an older story that just really hits me, I just have to review on the off change that maybe the author just might one day see it.

This is fabulous and I mean, it is SO spot on with our couple here. You have Jim and Pam so perfectly in character through the entire story, and on the boat and when they got off the boat you had Roy and Katy's voices and personalities perfect.

I honestly feel like this could have truly been filmed as an alternative ending for the Booze Cruise and would have fit and felt perfect with the show. (I mean except for then we wouldn't have gotten the 'treat' of living through angst hell in season 3) I REALLY like that with this one you had Pam as the one that made the move on the Booze Cruise, immediately regretted it and then just seconds later when Roy set the date she reacted just as she had on the episode itself. I just don't think Pam, even fresh off of her bold move of actually kissing Jim and justifying it in her mind in different ways like it being something she just needed to get out of her system, would have been at the point to react in any other way when Roy set the date. She was just so used to going along with what was expected and settling. On the other side, I think it's interesting and absolutely undestandable that Jim, KNOWING that Pam had just been the one to kiss him right before setting the date, and seeing that even as she danced with Roy he knew she was't exactly happy, so he tried to drown himself in whatever it was he had going on with Katy. I'm sure he was glad that Pam was seeing it. I even understand that while it may not be completely in character for the Jim Halpert we know to be well aware of his feelings for Pam and then make a conscious decision to sleep with Katy that night. Thing is, this was a hurt and confused and a kittle angry Jim. It makes sense that he would like the thought of being able to be with a girl that Roy obviously would love to be with, if not for Pam. He just wanted so bad to be able to not hurt and I think we all do things that aren't normal for who we are when we are hurting. You did keep him in character though in that the next morning he sweetly left her sleeping in his bed while he went to work even knowing that it was done with her.

I love how realistically you have the rest of the story play out. Jim confronting Pam, demanding to know why she did it, confessing his love and kissing her the way he wanted to before she shoots him down is heartbreaking but an excellent alternative to Casino Night.

It hurt my heart reading how Pam is trying to just accept what her fate is rather than seeing that she actually had choices, but oh so Pam. An hurting it even more is Jim trying to accept that he tried and failed and just going through the motions of life yet not REALLY living.

When Pam showed up at Jim's door I didn't know what to expect but you played this perfectly. I love that she was honest and he really listened and he was very happy to give her the time she needed. What I like most is Pam is determined not to kiss Jim again while she is still involved with Roy and Jim respects that.

Then comes the awesome ending. Not a whole lot to say except I SO enjoyed it. You have a gift with the sexy stuff. Loved the line where right after Jim told her that when he said she could touch anything she took him literally. Just an amazing story. I think this just be my fovorite of all the booze cruise ones! Thanks for sharing it with us.

Author's Response: I don't know if you'll get an email that I responded ... I'm not getting emails that new reviews are posted so I have no idea. But I just stopped by here to try to get motivated to write by reading a few of my old fics and I saw your review!!! Thank you soooo very much. I can't tell you how much it means to us authors to know that people are still reading and enjoying our work, even years later. I think this was only my second fic and parts of it make me cringe a little, but I'm really glad that you enjoyed it. You really understood what I was trying to do, how I thought that Jim and Pam would feel -- I love it when people "get" me! Anyway, hopefully you'll read some of my other ones! Thanks again, really, for taking the time to review. It is soooo very much appreciated, especially today when I needed a writing boost!!!

Sheet Music by wendolf Rated: MA [Reviews - 120] 64
Summary: Past Featured StoryA look at what might have happened between The Job and 'round about Money. Lots of steam in the beginning, then some angst for good measure.
Categories: Jim and Pam, Present
Characters: Jim, Jim/Pam, Pam
Genres: Angst, Romance, Steamy
Warnings: Moderate sexual content
Series: None
Chapters: 7 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 14947 Read Count: 55067 ePub Downloads: 10
[Report This] Published: March 03, 2008 Updated: March 07, 2008
Reviewer: ftmill16 Signed 10
Date: July 22, 2010 Title: Chapter 7: Epilogue

This is at first achingly sad then so wonderfully beautiful. You did such a fantasticjob of finding, describing and expaning on the flaws of Jim and Pam, finding how the flaws would/could effect their relationship. You showed how neither ar perfect and despite what WE may want to believe, the relationship is not perfect,yet if they work through the things that are imperfect, they can and will have a great shot. That includs as painful as it is, the past was not going away, it dad to be dealt with and you did a perfect job doing that. Absolutely beautiful story.

Summary: Past Featured StoryPam moved to New York instead of starting work at Dunder Mifflin. Years later she returns and she meets Jim, but they're at very different points in their lives.
Categories: Jim and Pam, Alternate Universe
Characters: Ensemble, Jim/Pam
Genres: Angst, Inner Monologue, Married, Romance
Warnings: Moderate sexual content
Series: None
Chapters: 23 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 91635 Read Count: 137250 ePub Downloads: 35
[Report This] Published: March 13, 2008 Updated: July 22, 2008
Reviewer: ftmill16 Signed 10
Date: August 11, 2010 Title: Chapter 23: epilogue: the memories get blurry

WOW! This is an absolutely AMAZING story! I don't think I have ever felt so complrtely invested! I swear I could have read like 200 or more chapters of this! I feel a bit of a loss that I am finished with it. Even putting Jim and Pam in different circumstances you did a great job with how completely they fell for each other, showing that though they had both loved and lost in tragic ways, it's THOSE TWO that wee meant for each other, even more than the ones that came before and just how deep and everlasting their love is. I love that so many years later at Franny's wedding they can't keep their hands off each other. What an absolutely awesome job!

Author's Response: Thank you, ftmill16! I'm glad you liked it, and glad you found it so many years after it was posted. This story kind of wrecked me for a bit, but I think it was worth it.

Summary: AU...Pam is new to Scranton, but she connects with an old friend.

I'm not a writer at all, but I am loving fan fic, and totally obsessed with JAM. I have read so many stories from this site, and the ideas have just been flowing.
Categories: Jim and Pam
Characters: None
Genres: Childhood, Drunk Pam/Jim, Fluff
Warnings: Moderate sexual content
Series: None
Chapters: 19 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 75066 Read Count: 33703 ePub Downloads: 11
[Report This] Published: April 08, 2008 Updated: April 10, 2019
Reviewer: ftmill16 Signed
Date: November 04, 2010 Title: Chapter 17: Chapter 17

Oh WOW!!!! Just read this for the first time and I'm SO disappointed to see it stalled out here! REALLY great story and I REALLY really hope you will come back and finish it!

Reviewer: ftmill16 Signed
Date: April 03, 2019 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

O! M! G! I have yet to read the latest chapter butt I have to say, I squealed so loud when I saw you had updated this. I did go read your author’s notes at the beginning of the chapter, I wanted to make sure it actually was a new chapter not a fluke of some kind that I got all excited about for no reason. I remember way back when the show was still on and you posted some other works, bugging you, maybe even begging you to return to this. It’s such a wonderfully written story. I feel that you’ve done an amazing job of capturing teenaged Jim and Pam. Probably the best high school story I’ve read. You’ve just, IMO, really been able to connect with who they each would have been as high schoolers. As far as the time away from the story, we’ve thankfully had a few writers that had WIPs that have returned after many years to continue and/or complete them. Right off we have noblelandmemaid who returned to continue Anywhere But Here (and ended up a very important person on this site) and Big Tuna came back and completed Sociology 101. I know there are others that I just cannot think of off hand. As a reader that has been around for about a decade, and who read these fics back when the show was still on, I’ve spent years being so sad that many of them, and your is one, were never given an ending. I’m so happy that we’ll hopefully get the rest of the story here. I was always sad that just as things were looking to take a turn for the better, we were left hanging. Allow me to welcome you back with open arms and give a huge thank you for coming back to continue The Treehouse! I cannot wait to see what’s in store. With that, I’m off to read....

Author's Response: I do remember getting some messages a few years back about this story, I guess that was you, if so, thank you. I decided at that time to re-start, I was able to do 3 chapters but some how lost 2 of them and then just got sort of bummed out and didn't finish. I wish I still had the other 2 chapters, but I remember the most important stuff, I can re-write them. I'm glad people remember the story and want to read it. I hope you like it. I remember life as a teenager at that time, it's been a fun bit of nostalgia for me over the years when I have picked up this story and written. I always loved Jim and Pam and thought a story like this would be a lot of fun. I used to read similar stories and felt disappointed when they weren't finished which is why I started writing this to begin with.