Oh wow... I really really worried after the last chapter. It truly hurt and I just didn't know if I'd really be able to make a comeback and get back into the story or not. I should not have questioned your ability to get me back into things. I LOVE that in an email where Jim's mom writes all about family and shares pictures of the grandkids she inknowingly shares pictures of ALL of her grandchildren. It's interesting how on the day Jim is finally feeling right with the world again, this email arrives, the very thing that has has the ability and in fact will (I think) start Jim on the road to righting his world when he didn't even know just how upside down it was. I'm glad that Jim called his mom who it seems really likes to chatter on rather than calling his dad who I suspecr as Jim thinks this through, which he will have LOTS of time to do while on a plane from Australia, I think he's going to know that his dad HAS to know just who Pam is. I mean, daddy knew all about Pam back in Scranton, I think Jim would know his dad well enough to know first that his dad would have known just what Pam looks like and second that his dad's questions about Pam when Jim was in Stamford and Gerry's actions in dismissing him from Thanksgiving and Christmas with the family, the family Christmas party, giving him tickets to Australia and not only encouraging him to stay away from home in Philly but also encouraging his staying in Australia, going to school for something his dad would generally object to, I have a feeling that on his plane ride home, all of this is going to slide into place for Jim and he's going to realize that while he was feeling proud of himself for getting his dad to back off and finally let Jim be his own person, his dad was sitting smugly by KNOWING that he was denying his son something that would mean absolutely everything to him. I also think that while Jim is probably going to go through some anger at Pam for this, the plane ride is long enough for him to realie that he MADE her run. I have to believe that he will think back and remember saying phrases like 'my family will take care of the baby' and he will realize how scary that would be for Pam. Combine that with the fact that when she told him about the baby he accused her of being a horrible person, he in fact became someone Pam had never seen and didn't know, well, he has to understand her reasons for running. He should also realize that had he thought about things, he maybe should have realized sooner that if Pam were going to run away from her life and everything she knew, she would have needed to have a reason other than just their breakup. I would also think Jim will go through some guilt thinking about how he was out being the Karen's boyfriend, meeting the folks and sharing a holiday and then the world traveler and carefree bachelor/student in Australia and all the time he really had one goal in mind, forget all about Pam. While he was doing this Pam was going through, well, he has no idea what, but he's sure she went through plenty with the pregnancy and being alone, without the father of her baby. (BTW, I LOVE that especially upon hearing the name of the baby he KNEW, without a doubt that this was in fact his daughter. I also love that he printed the picture out to bring with him on his journey back to Pam and to meet his baby. I am sure he is soaking in the picture of his first child but I have to believe that seeing even a picture of Pam after trying in vain to live his life for so many months without her has to be for him like being in the dessert for a long time and finally getting a drink of water. It made me smile. :o) ) Not only would these be things that I believe Jim would be beating himself up for but also, he put Pam in a situation that he has NO idea if she changed her mind and tried to find him. Maybe she wanted him there for part of it, at least the birth but oh yeah, she couldn't have possibly done anything about it because the information she had about him was lies, for goodness sakes, had she at least known his last name she ould have connected it to the fat that these very rich people with the last name of Halpert who are there in Philly, could at very least be related. Could have been a starting point. I just thought of something, I wonder if Pam ever put this together. I'm pretty sure that you said that Jim told her that his Grandma Marie raised them after his parents DIED. Well then the night that everything went to hell he told her that his dad had shown up and told him all this stuff about her. Wonder if she ever conneted that lie and wondered further what other lies he may have told? Anyhow, his whole family background that he told her was lies with the apparent one truth being about his Grandma Marie. Oh and I also have to believe that the fact that he knows that she named the baby after her grandma and his would give him a lot of hope that she is still thinking about him, hopefully still has some kind of feelings for him and that she at very least wanted him to be somewhere in their daughter's life. The other ways that Jim made it impossible for Pam to ome back to or find him was first initially leaving Scranton. I would guess that she could have found out about the transfer pretty easily but then I wonder, I mean, had she called Stamford I'm sure she would have asked for Jim Duncan and been told that there was no one there by that name. (I'm guessing that with his dad being the one to 'send' him to Stamford and Karen who knows him, working there, he would have used his real last name. Maybe I'm wrong, just a guess. Had she pursued it a bit I'm sure she could have found the Jim that transfered from Scranton not long ago but who would have thought of that? Then finally, he got rid of the cell that she knew the number for. At last she had absolutely no way to be able to track him down. I think Jim is going to be swinging back and forth between three emotions on the plane ride home... the love that has surged through him stronger than ever for Pam, and the brand new love that I'm sure he is already feeling at least some for the daughter that he blocked himself from being ablt to know about, guilt about all the things he did and lies he told to Pam and raging Anger at his father, and really anger at himself too but I'm sure that he'll realize that his father started the chain of events that seperated him from Pam and then he made sure that it kept going.

On the other side of the globe I have to say I was startled to learn that Roy is STILL trying to worm his way in and Pam seems to continue to give him openings. I kinda wanted to shake her because NO, having a newborn is NOT easy and it's extremely exhausting but Roy has already voiced that he wants to be more than a 'fun uncle' to the baby, you just can't let someone like that have all these openings because they WILL take them. I was really very happy when Pam came to the decision that she simply is not going to bring Cece into a lie that she created. I can see how having that sweet baby there would bring out the best, the very maternal side of Pam and that she would not want her daughter caught up in something that simply isn't true. I'm also glad that she said to Roy about Cee's dad not being deceased. You know, Roy really, he likes to prade around as the good guy but when Pam isn't giving him what he wants and especially if he even thinks she is thinking about the guy he no doubt knows that she still loves, he doesn't mind playing dirty. Like back a few chapters when he said 'he's never coming back' in spite of the fact that he simply doesn't know the story. He doesn't know Jim. Then this chapter he used her very own fears against her. Fears that she shared only because she was feeling vulnerable and he just had to say 'what do you think he'll do when he finds you've been hiding her away? He'll take her from you.' The thing is, when Pam had fears about the baby being taken from her, I think it wasn't that Jim would take the baby away but that his family would. I think Pam knows and has had time to start to understand even better that Jim loves her and that he wouldn't take the baby away because he would be right there with her raising their daughter. Roy just has no idea the kind of love that he's up against here and he's so much better off that Pam is rebuffing his attempts because otherwise when Jim comes back they love each other so much that Roy would become collateral damage just like Karen. I just read Roy's words again, and they make me really angry. They awe Pam. She would not have went into this scheme except she was told that it would kill Adele to learn that the truth that Adele had made up in her own mind, was not the truth at all. Yes, they took care of her but she also let herself be subjected to things she really didn't want and also, she probably would have actually looked for Jim at some point earlier if not for her involvement with the Anderson family. She has made Adele happy enough that her cancer is now in remission, they owe Pam a debt and not the other way around. For Roy to say, you're going to take Cece from us now just like you took her from him, is OUTRAGEOUS! I mean, how dare he!! To start with, they have no claim on Pam or that baby. Her stay at their house was only ever supposed to be temporary. I just keep thinking, how dare he over and over. Hate to tell you Roy but Jim is on his way and I don't think it will take long AT ALL for him to mend those fences and have Pam and their baby with him. She's not yours Roy. Neither of them are.

Ahhhhhh... I feel like I can breathe again! This chapter makes me so much happier. (Not that making ME happy matters.) Your writing is superb as always and wow what an imagination!

I really am sorry that I had such a hard time with the last chapter but I am being completely honest in saying that I am SO glad that one is done and it looks like we are SOOOO close to some good stuff. It looks like maybe our wonderful duo may see each other again in the next chapter, I'm absolutely praying that it is so! I really feel like Pam NEEDS to get out of the Anderson house and SOON. They have become too wrapped up in and dependant on her and Cece for their happiness and it's ALL based on a lie. Good things never come from basing things on lies, just ask Jim.

Thanks for an awesome chapter. Again, sorry if I let you down on the last one, I just hope you can try to understand. I am REALLY looking forward to the next chapter(s.) Don't take too long with them PLEASE!!! I need the happiness! Hugs T

Author's Response: I think i tackled most of this review on the emails, right? If I didn't, please let me know and I'll be more than happy to tell you more about it.

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Wow, (do I seriously start every review with that word?) You keep leaving me so enthralled by this story. For Jim's part, the way he found out about the baby was totally epic. I'm so happy he's on a plane! I'm so torn about Pam... I'm happy that she's going to finally tell Adele the truth, but I'm sad that it might hurt Adele in some way.

I have to tell you I wish I could write like this. You're putting this story together so wonderfully, and I seriously check here throughout the day for updates. I can't wait to read more!

Author's Response: It is a compliment to me that you start you reviews with "wow." Seroiusly - no need to get too creative, "wow" works just fine! Don't worry about how Adele will take the news once she finds out. You will see that she's more intuitive than you think. I'm completly blown away that you wish you could write like me. Duuudeee your stories are chocolates! I need them in my life in order for me to function properly! Thank you so much for reading and reviewing!