10 [Report This]Date: November 17, 2011 01:26 am Title: Chapter 9
WOW! SO each chapter is getting both a bit more frustrating in some respects and a bit easier to take in others.
Oh Jim, Jim, Jim... when are you EVER going to learn two things? 1) running doesn't solve ANYTHING. You ran from your family. You fell in love but because of the circumstances allowed your dad to poison your mind about the person you loved and you lost her. You ran from Scranton to Stamford from Pam to Karen and what did it solve? Not a thing. Your memories went with you and no matter what you did, you simply couldn't outrun those. Now you've run all the way to Australia and you think you've won. You have a nice change of scenery and while studying you are able to at least live with the memories but really Jim, how long are you going to be able to keep it up? THe only way to get the past to stop haunting you is to stop running and face it. Not to mention, you're missing some pretty huge events in your own life while you are doing all this running. The second thing I wonder when you are going to learn is, if what you are doing is making your dad happy, then HE is controlling your life and you are playing into his hands, not the other way around. I mean really Jim? You really think that you are just THE man now and you have somehow let your dad know loud and clear that this is your life and you're living it your way? You've lived close to thirty years now (I'm assuming you have him the same age he was on the show when Cece was born, sorry if I'm wrong. I'm not even certain of his age on the show right now. Around thirty or just over it I think) you've lived THAT long and you STILL don't know your own dad well enough to know when he's the one in control. How very, very sad. I found it interesting but crazy sad in my mind that 1) his parents, unknowingly to his mom, attended their grandchild's baby shower and 2) Jim heard all about his own baby's shower from his mom. Interesting that Gerry is attending these things. I'm guessing that it's all part of him really keeping tabs on Pam but I have to thinkhope when it all comes out and Pam and Jim realizes the rolr that he played and just how disgustingly manipulative he was that they never let him have anything at all to do with this baby. He is costing his son what we all know would be the very happiest time of Jim's life and he's doing it simply because he doesn't feel that Pam is worthy of the Halperts. I hope that in this case, unlike on the show, that his dad never get the chance to wear a kilt to his wedding because I know if he was MY future FIL and he did these disgusting things there is NO freaking way he would be AT my wedding! UGH! I kept wishing during the phone call that Jim's mom would mention Pam's name and maybe how long ago the accident happened and maybe, just maybe that would at least catch Jim's attention at least a little. If he had just a tiny clue I think he would start unraveling his dad's behavior and he's be able to see that from the time his dad showed up in Scranton he has been playing every move he makes right into his dad's hands and he doesn't want to do that! I can't help but wonder just what the fallout is going to be when Jim finds out that his dad has known from pretty early on just where Pam is and chose to hide it from Jim. I mean, the reason, that he doesn't think Pam is good enough rather thab that he is worried about Pam doing what Katy did is pretty obvious since Pam ran away from all that rather than trying to be any part of it. Oh and BTW, very intereting way of working Katy into the story. I don't know why since we didn't know much about her, but I can see her doing that. I saw where you said on the boards where we will know in the next chapter if Jim makes it for the birth... thinking about it is making me a little ill. I'm wondering if I should skip the next chapter??? It's another of those hitting way too close to home things. It looks lkes some wounds must never heal if reading fan fiction stories can open them back up! ACK!!! Anyhow, I don't know if I have ever despised a character in any of the fan fiction stories I have read, quite as much as I despise Jim's father. Men like this, ruthless businessmen that see people as pawns to be bought and sold, they shouldn't be able to have children! Oh wait! I just thought of something else... so Jim wants nothing to do with his family, wants to be his own man, stand on his own two feet but c'mon Jim. You say all of this and then are obviously allowing your family to support you while you are living in Australia and pay for you to get more schooling for something you KNOW your dad finds to be frivolous. None of this gives you pause Jim? I really REALLY hope you're going to get your brain back before you find Pam again. In the state you are right now you are too stupid for Pam and she would have every right to be extremely EXTREMELY angrt with you and decide to date Roy to spite you because lets face it, while she is deaking with pregnancy without her partner, being unconfortable and sad and lonely, you have been in a months long relationship including spening Thanksgiving with and meeting the new girl's parents. THAT would make me REALLY question if you had ever loved me at all. Then you go and start a new life halfway around the world. All the time Pam is dealing with the new life growing inside her and the fact that she can't REALLY run away from you at all because that part of you that is growing inside of her is always reminding her of you. It's really REALLY time to grow up Jim. Time to actually be your own man, like you were in Scranton. Stand on your own two feet rather than having your family support you. You are going to need to somehow let Pam know when you guys meet again that you are not your dad's pawn or anything like your dad and that you are actually worthy of her on your child. I have faith in you Jim but you have a long way to go!
Soooooo Roy is back. I knew the last few chapters being Roy free were simply too good to be true. I just don't even know WHAT to say about his gift to the baby except ummm, inappropriate! But then, he was trying to get a message across and he did. He didn't get the results he wanted, but the message got across. I couldn't help but get really angry at him when he told Pam, he's never cpming back. I mean, he doesn't have any clue what's going to go on. I just think it's pretty crappy to try to move in on her in such a vulnerable condition. On top of that it's while she is indebted to his family though actually, if the situation with Pam and the baby DID actually put Adele into remission, which, that can't REALLY happen, can it? (Color me stupid!) Then they are WAY FAR indebted to Pam rather than the other way around. The thing is, if Adele is in remission, with no apparent end in sight, isn't it time for them to put an end to this charade? I mean, it was done all for Adele's health because they felt the truth would kill her in her fragile condition. I mean, where is the end to this for Pam??? I can certainly understand Pam's feelings about the baby shower. This is all bringing up again for me, where is Pam's mom? We know that she does some kind of traveling based on Jim's memories when he met her but it seems with her daughter pregnant and having a baby shower and such, it just seems like her mom would do whatever it would take to be around at this time. I mean, her mom could maybe extract her from this situation with the Andersons. Anyhow, I can imagine that Pam, being a small town, sweet girl, would be overwhelmed and not entirely welcoming of this type of a baby shower. I mean, when I had my showers I cannot imagine it being just tons of people that I simply didn't know. I imagine a shower like that would make her crave a Micheal Scott shower. I think she would resent being expected to write thank yous to people she just doesn't know. I bet she always imagined a cozy shower with her friends, family, co workers, people that she cares about and that care about her. This makes me just sad for Pam and for what her first experience of becoming a mom has turned into. I have to imagine about now Pam has to be really beginning to long for something familiar. She's right now just really not in her element at all.
Anyhow, sorry I let the shower thoughts intrude on the Roy thoughts, I'm just REALLY so relieved that Pam, even in a vulnerable state, held her ground with Roy, being adamant that she is glad to have him as a friend and that's all. Then again, maybe with that reminder of Jim ever present, she isn't quite as vulnerable as it seems she would be.
You know, it's nice that Adele is giving Pam permission to move on though she doesn't even know the story, doesn't know what price Pam has Pam mentally on Adele's behalf. Interesting how you were able to work that conversation so it worked PERFECT in both the context of Adele speaking about Kenny and Pam speaking about Jim. Of course, what Adele doesn't understand is that it would I am certain be far easier for Pam to move on if Kenny had been the dad. If Pam knew the father was dead and there was no chance at all of things working out, at some point you have no choice but to move on. With Pam, well, she's the one that walked away ad he's out there. She's never tried to contact him and I can see more and more that she really wants to. I like that Pam is realizing how much she wants Jim and how much she is healing. I know that time does heal wounds but I would bet with Pam it's that timy life growing within her getting closer and closer to being born that is doing more of the healing than time is at this point. Anyhow, I love her thought about if Jim walked through her bedroom door the hurt he caused would not surpass her happiness to have him back. I hope she does have him back and I sncerely hope it happens really soon. They have each suffered too much at his dad's hands and I want to see them come back together, a united front and stand up to the bully!
Another solid chapter. Oh and no matter where you got that line in the last chapter, you put it to BRILLIANT use. It was really awesome and the way you used it was perfect. I'm glad you saved it and used it here. I had a favorite line this time too, not as much as the last one but I really liked it...
Aren’t babies such a nice way to start people?
That was really nice and I liked Pam thinking it while thinking about their baby. I'll be honest, I'm either REALLY looking forward to or REALLY REALLY dreading the next chapter. Do you know how awful it is to just not know which? I admit, I'm looking forward to getting to some fluff here perhaps more than I've ever looked forward to it in a fan fic story. Certainly more than I ever have for a WIP that I've had to wait VERY paitently to get to it. It really is a testament to your skill as a writer that this story honestly has drained me emotionally in many chapters, yet I have continued to come back. You have gotten me so invested in the characters and the outcome that I just have this compulsive need to see it through. Really says a lot for your talent.
Thanks again for sharing!
Author's Response: Our little JIm is never going to learn... But he will soon enough. I promise. Your whole Jim/Pam analysis is very accurate. Jim doens't know that he is only falilng into another trap his dad had set up for him. Gerry is such an evil character, but he will get what he deserves. A little spolier - Jim/ Gerry confrontation chapter is by far my favorite chapter. I can't wait to post it and see ya'll reaction.
Adele is the nicest, right? She's going to play a bigger role and you'll be surprised with how she comes out the other end. When I first began outlining this story, Adele was the one I needed to be there for Pam. Adele was "sane" perso, who pan would ultimately look up too and the reason why she just didn't throw the towel in and left. Their bond is very important to the unvailing of the remainder of the story.
I want to apologize for the next chapter. But I promise the following ones will make up for it. I know this hit too close to home - and I appreciate your sincerity and openess and girl I'm completly devoted to this fic because I know someone out there cares enough about it to really connect to the story and connect with me. everytime there's a review from you I jump on my chair like a kid on xmas eve!
Thanks you bunches, -D
Date: November 16, 2011 11:45 pm Title: Chapter 8
I'm going to see if I can remember at least some of the rest of what I wrote for this chapter, the part that was somehow cut off. I was talking about Karen and how I saw her as maybe a bigger threat to the Halpert family than many other girls. I will say, and I think I pointed this out, I am SO thrilled that Jim made the decision to go to Australia despite what Karen thought or wanted. To me he actually didn't seem to really even want her to go. I mean it seemed a lot like a throwaway invitation, and I have another ticket if you want to come, something like that. I think he may have been stating to see clearly that his reasons for being with Karen in the first place, to purge Pam from his mind, simply weren't working. In adition, if he still felt like he didn't want to follow his dad's script for his life, I'm CERTAIN that he could easily tell that daddy dear was absolutely thrilled with his choice to date Karen and that his dad was in fact doing his best to move that particular relationship along. We of course know that if his dad would have ever had any reservations about Karen, because of the dire situation with Pam, he would have thrown any of those aside because with a boy like Jim who clearly wanted away from anything and anyone his father in particular wanted for him, Karen was as good as it was going to get. She's the daughter of his friend and while they aren't Halpert wealthy, at least she isn't a little mousy receptionist nobody. I think what his dad would have really like to see happen is, let's face it, if Pam is going to continue living in Philly in the situation she is in, with the Andersons, there is a huge chance that at some point Jim is certainly going to come across her or a picture of her, something. Dad's goal I think is to move this relationship with Karen towards marriage as quickly as he can. It would be GREAT I'm sure in Gerry's mind if they could be married with Karen at the very least expecting before Jim were to come across Pam again because in Gerry's mind I think one of two things would prevent Jim from going to Pam at that point. Either he would actually feel as much for Karen at this point that Pam didn't really matter any longer (because I simply think Gerry cannot grasp the concept of clear, pure, true love... of being soul mates and the fact that this is what Jim and Pam represent to each other) or if Jim hadn't actually fallen that far for Karen I think in his dad's mind he knows Jim is really a good guy at heart and he knows it would be a problem for Jim to leave if he either has a family or one on the way. So, I'm really glad to see that this time neither his dad's manipulation with buying Karen tickets to Australia as well, nor Karen's in getting angry and trying to force her will on him to get him to go with her to Scranton, worked. Of course, Karen doesn't know that Jim really can't return to Scanton. There are a mulitude of reasons, the biggest of course being that he just cannot face returning to the memories he left in Scranton. He's been running so fast and so hard away from those memories, trying to erase them if possible and if not lock them far away, he certainly isn't going to return there, not when he has optioms. As a Halpert I imagine there are always options. He also isn't going to retuen there because Pam isn't the only one who doesn't know the truth about him, people in Scranton know him by a different last name and have no idea about his family history. Last, Jim has caredully avoided telling Karen about Pam and how in love with her he was/is. Once they would return to Scranton there is just no doubt that not only would questions about Pam assult Jim, Karen would quickly learn the truth and Jim wouldn't want that. So while I can't help but reserve a little room for doubt about Karen REALLY being gone in the corner of my mind, the rest of my mind is rejoicing that YAY! Jim has broken things off with Karen and headed in a different direction. I seriously doubt that he'll even be in touch with her at all now because I think he knows that any contact is going to bring questions about Pam, even if they are no longer a couple. (Very happy to be waving good bye to Karen out the rear window.)
Now, as happy as I am to see Jim taking the path that ends things with Karen, I can't help but want to smack him upside his head. HELLO JIM????? Are you in there? You realize that if your dad is dismissing you from Thanksgiving, pushing your relationship with Karen, dismissing you from the family Christmas party, the party that you already missed last year because they didn't know where you were so certainly they would expect your attendance this year, yet daddy dear is absolving you of your duty though mom clearly has been expecting your attendance and dad is not just allowing you to also skip Christmas at home, he is really ordering you away. You think he's joking but you grew up with this man. Not only those things, now he's handing you your dream vacation. I mean really Jim??? You think your ruthless businessman father would reward you with a vacation to Australia after all that has happened???? Why are you not questioning your dad's motives. You KNOW your dad and if he seems to be just fine with what you are doing, you of ALL people should be one that is going to question this! UGH!!! Attention Jim, please somehow get knocked hard on the head so you can have some freaking sense knocked into you! I can't help but think that I wonder if at some point Jim is going to see some pictures from the Christmas party, maybe there is a Halpert newsletter that goes out that he would get, and he would see pictures of Pam at the families Christmas party. I think it would be neat if his mom, not knowing the schemes his dad has going, sent some pictures to Jim. Just something that floated through my mind.
Now, on the other side of the coin, about Pam and Adele. I know others seem to really like her but I just find her to be pushy and manipulative when it comes to Pam. She seems to be always right there, pushing her will on Pam. I had problems back chapter or so when they were at the U/S and Pam asked the DR if he/she could tell what the baby was and Adele piped right up with, but don't you want to be surprised? making it clear what Adele's desires are. I wonder about things like this Christmas Party. Pam is very clearly NOT into looking for a dress though Adele again seems to be pushing what she wants and likes on Pam, but the whole idea of this party in the first place, it just seems like about the last thing that Pam would probably want to do. She big pregnant. She's got the miseries, aches and pains that come with that stage of pregnancy. She doesn't have the person she loves with her and other than the Andersons she isn't going to know anyone at the party, I can't see her really wanting to go. I CAN see Adele just sorta telling her they are going to be going to this party and not really asking about if Pam wants to attend. I see Pam right now as kinda Adele's little thing that she wants to show off and I would think the more she wants to and the more she actually does show Pam off and pronounce to the world that Pam is carrying Kenny's child, the more it seems that Pam would become uncomfortable with it all because it's one thing to pretend with a small family, well, actually just the one person since the dad and Roy know the baby isn't Kenny's, so it's one thing for Pam to Pretend just for Adele that she is carrying Kenny's child. When she has to listen to Adele tell person after person about this being Kenny's child as she parades Pam around like she's somehow Adele's own little prize, I have to believe that this would make Pam begin to grow very uncomfortable. I KNOW that she doesn't want all of these people viewing this baby as belonging to anyone but her and Jim, after all, she loves him. He continues to haunt her mind which is so understandable as part of him is growing and growing and now continuously making it's presemce known to her. I imagine her in her room alone talking to the baby and reassuring her that her dad's name isn't Kanny. His name is Jim and going on to tell the baby all about it's dad and about her how very much she loves him. I think is the stillness of these times is probably when Pam tries to decide what she can/should do about things with Jim. I very much believe that Pam would not be able to go forever without letting Jim know that he is a dad. All her fears aside, I just think that's the kind of person she is. I think she probably also hopes that Jim is missing her as much as she is missing him. After all, she does know that he did in fact love her and he didn't want things to end. SO, I think if things continue like this with Adele for much longer, I think Pam is going to become resentful of all the intrusion. (I also hope that like on the show, Pam secretly calls and asks the DR what the baby is. After all, the DR did specifically tell her she could.) The thing is, none of this is what Pam bargained for. She went along with this whole ploy because she was told that Adele was a very sick woman and so fragile that just learning the truth about something that she made up in her own mind, that this is Kenny's baby, is not true, might kill her. So Pam went along thinking that she wouldn't have to do this for very long and in the meantime she could pull her life together and decide what she is going to do. Well, somehow Adele has aparently gotten much healthier as she is able to go to DRs appts with Pam and shopping at the busiest time of the year. Not to mention attending huge Christmas parties so she is doing much better and there appears to be no end in sight for the pretending that Pam is being forced to do. I mean, will these people expect her to go as far as listing Kenny on the birth certificate and giving it the Anderson's last name? ::shudder::: I can see Adele trying to push these issues. The thing is, though I have to believe that this has to all now be weighing Pam down and making her at least a bit resentful of the situation, how does she get out of it? I mean, it's going to become even harder to extract herself from it after the baby is born so I'm hoping she's starting to think about these things. The thing is, she has alowed these people, however nice they are, to take total control of her and her life, the baby's too really. They are feeding her, clothing her, housing her and paying all her bills. That's a pretty steep price to pay for someone like Pam who seems like she's been pretty independent. I just can't help but wonder what Pam is thinking and where she sees this all ending. How long is she going to pretend?
This chapter was certainly a MUCH easier read than the last few but I can't help but hope we are getting closer to some real happiness for our couple. I mean, Pam is okay where she is, but she is sad missing Jim and I think the pretending is probably weighing heavy on her. Jim is learning that he can't just erase Pam from his mind, not even by putting someone else in her place. I think they have suffered and would just like to see them start seeing some glimmers of light.
Another well written chapter, full of suspense. You know, maybe this fic doesn't have the largest of audiences, but I just hope you know that the core of us that are here, that come back and review chapter after chapter, believe in this a whole lot and are so grateful that you are seeing this through. I can't wait to read more!
Author's Response: This is all too accurate and a perfect analysis once again. I have to go and pick up the brain pieces that fell out of my head! Wow! Just.... wow!
Date: November 16, 2011 05:44 pm Title: Chapter 9
YAY for a new chapter of this! Lots of good stuff. It was interesting to learn a little more about Jim's background, and I liked how you had Jim's mom mention that little bit about the baby shower when he was barely listening. I am reeeally looking forward to them meeting up again :) (Oh! And the Roy thing-- nice twist)
Author's Response: I'm so glad you liked this one. The phone converssation was the first thing I wront for this chapter. (I don't usually write in order, I let the scenes that mostly stands out to me come out first). I'm so glad you are still with me even after all this angst.
Date: November 15, 2011 06:15 pm Title: Chapter 9
Yay! Close to fluff! I guess thats why you got roy out of the way now. Funny phone conversation too. So close, so far. Keep going!
Author's Response: Yeah... so close but so far! But we are getting extremely close to Jim realizing his dad is more ruthless than he thought. It's time for out little Jimmy to get some balls, right? Thanks for reading and reviewing!
Date: November 15, 2011 10:33 am Title: Chapter 9
I'm not sure how you've done it (well, you're an awesome writer, so that's how) but you are the first author to ever write a story in which I actually care about an original character. Adele is so sweet and kind. I love how sweet she is with Pam. It's so sad how she thinks Pam is talking about her son, but Pam really means Jim. I also feel really bad for Adele because the baby isn't really her grandchild. But Pam did what she had to do. Gerry and his company sounds ruthless, so she did the right thing by leaving. I'm sad that she misses Jim though, sometimes you never get over your truest love no matter how much they've hurt you. I truly love this because you can very well go in a few different directions with this story and I'm really looking forward to where it goes. I can't believe Jim is living in Australia, and I think it's almost humorous how he thinks he's outsmarted his father, but his father's really brain washed him. I love the phone call with his mom where she's telling him about the baby shower. I don't know why I think like this, but I like that he's getting glimpses of his own child in that way. I'm so looking forward to the next chapter! :)
Author's Response: Adele is one of my favorite characters to write for. I needed her to be very appealing to the audience because she's the reason why Pam just doens't feel compeled to just...leave. I want the readers to go, "Oh, right... I wouldn't do that to Adele either," ya know? Jim will soon figure out he's not in control and hell will break loose! Jim will get some balls in a future chapter, which is by far my favorite yet! Thanks for sticking by and reviewing my fic!
Date: November 15, 2011 10:16 am Title: Chapter 9
I forgot to tell you how honoured I am that you review my fic, your writing i just so amazing. Loved how Pam and Adele (is it wrong that I think of Adele the singer when I read this, like Roy's mom IS Adele LOL) anyway, this is so good, I really can't wait to see what happens next. Jim in Australia is strangely sexy(imagining him surfing mmmm) ;)
Update soon xx
Author's Response: Dude! I love Accidentally in Love! Promise me that if you don't let that one go, I won't let this one go either? Promise? Pink swear?? You are NOT wrong to think of Adele as Adele the singer... I love ADELE - hints the title of this fic "Set fire to the Rain" one of my favorite songs! Haha... Adele is definitely playing in thebackground whenever I'm writing this fic! Jim anywhere is sexy (maybe because I love John and he is my imaginary hubby, as I'm sure he's to many others..lol) Thanks for reading and reviewing!
Date: November 15, 2011 06:34 am Title: Chapter 9
No, Roy! No! Stay away! ;) Well, I'm glad that Pam still loves Jim. Nice touches in this chap--Jim's mom talking about the shower (I was holding my breath there) and Pam being able to express how she feels about not wanting to move on (even though Adele thought she was talking about Kenny). I'm looking forward to learning how the parents-to-be will reunite. I'll be patient ;)
Author's Response: I Think you're the only patient one! lol... I'm so glad you are liking this one! Thanks for reading and reviewing!
Date: November 13, 2011 03:00 pm Title: Chapter 1
I guess I don't read much of the extreme AU stuff. It hurts my head a bit to read. That's not your fault. But reading a Jim with such a different background is challenging. And then the quotes and things from "real" them adds a layer of stress to my brain. Again these are not critiques as I see the artistic craft in what you've done and are doing. I wouldn't have read all eight chapters so far if I didn't see the quality in the work :)
Author's Response: I very much appreciate you taking your time to read this fic, which is a little out of your comfort zone. And don't worry I didn't take this as a critic at all. Your review was a huge compliment to me. Thank you for reading!
Date: November 12, 2011 09:14 am Title: Chapter 1
I just reread my last review... how odd, somehow like half of it was cut off. I fished all my Karen and Jim/Karen thoughts and had talked about Pam and Adele and of course finished with telling you what a great story it is etc. and somehow it simply only posted like half. I knew when I first looked at it that I felt like I had written a lot more than that. Maybe I'll try to finish it later? (or maybe I should stop boring people with all my thoughts and feelings and theories. Hmmm......)
Author's Response: Finish if you want, but no pressure. I would love to hear your input on Adele and Pam.. that's the most complicated relationship for me to write, only because it is so delicate and usually when they are talking about "him" they are talking about different people.
Date: November 12, 2011 05:20 am Title: Chapter 8
How did I miss this update? This line blew my mind...
“Ohh sure one day I’ll love another girl,” he said and smiled. “And she will call you ‘mommy.”
Is it wrong I am happy Karen is now out of the picture?I wanna know what is gonna happen. What will Pam do when they see each other again? OH GOD YOU KILL ME :)
Author's Response: I'll let you in a little secret... I couldn't wait to write Karen off! When I planned this fic I knew I needed Karen, but I also knew that she didn't need to be in the picture for long. Thank you so much for reading and reviewing!
Date: November 10, 2011 05:00 pm Title: Chapter 8
Ahh! Jim's dad is so manipulative! Breaking them up and now keeping them from running into each other at the party... I can't wait to find out what his deal is.
As for Pam... glad to see her enjoying herself at least a little bit with taking the baby's picture to see Santa. I hope Jim's dad isn't a jerk to her.
And this was SO adorable: “Ohh sure one day I’ll love another girl,” he said and smiled. “And she will call you ‘mommy.” ... Eee! Cute.
Nicely done. This is such a unique story.
Author's Response: Gerry's manipulative streak is not over yet... He's got more things up his sleeve. Thank you so much for taking your time to read and review!
Date: November 10, 2011 10:30 am Title: Chapter 8
This one really IS quick! I LOVED this line
“Ohh sure one day I’ll love another girl,” he said and smiled. “And she will call you ‘mommy.”
I think it's my favorite of the entire story so far. Really, it was awesome! LOVE his flashbacks to his memories with Pam!
Author's Response: I wish I could take all the credit for that line... I heard it somewhere and I don't remember where! When I was outlining this chapter that was a line that I wanted to include as a past memory. I've actually been saving that line for to add to one of my stories... I've tried writing in other contexts, but it never worked...till now! Yay!
Date: November 10, 2011 10:27 am Title: Chapter 8
I'm just... I don't know.... tired. I don't even know how to feel about the mess the Jim and his a&&hole of a father created. I understand Jim not USING his last name first to protect him from his father and later to protect Pam as well. But, well, the Jim we know and this Jim as well don't seem to really think things through and understand the consequences of their actions. I'm just thinking, had Jim actually proposed to Pam, I am thinking (hoping) he would have then shared with her that she didn't know his last name, you know since once they were married it's be real nice for her to know her new last name. So, I'm thinking, I'm REALLY in love with this guy. I think I know everything about him. I want to spend the rest of my life being with him. He proposes and I find out that I actually didn't know quite what I thought I did because I didn't even know his last name and I had no idea about his family background. (I'm assuming since family certainly would have come up, that he lied to her about this.) I get engaged and this information starts surfacing and I know for me personally, I would FREAK out! I mean, I would question every single thing the guy had EVER told me down to his favorite color and if he actually brushes his teeth regularly. How Jim ever though he could exist on lies... I mean, I didn't really finish my thought. So he doesn't USE his last name and initially he doesn't tell any of this to Pam to protect both himself and her. Around the time that he's honestly starting to think this is real, maybe around the time he met her mom? He should have started talking and explaining himself to her and letting her know it needed to be kept between them. He knew her and his dad hadn't been around yet to poison his mind so he should have known he could trust her with this. Oh well...
So.. I'm wondering just how long decptive Gerry thinks he can just keep up this ploy of keeping Jim as far away from Philly as he can? I'm also wondering if his mom is aware that he called and basically ordered Jim not to come, going as far as giving Jim a trip to Austalia which I am betting is NOT something he just happened to have but rather something he bought knowing that Jim a) wants to stay away from the family and heck, he maybe would have still been tempted to go home to make his mom happy but now he has a trip on the agenda so he can't and b) has wanted to travel to Australia and wouldn't be able to pass this up and c) he buys TWO tickets thinking, hmmm sending Jim and Karen on a nice trip halfway across the world together. That should help move that relationship along even more.
BTW... I guessing by now that while Gerry deciding to partner with Anderson publishing causes some inconvieniences, like with this party. I bet that seeing Pam and knowing she is with this family right now is the reason why he made the decision to do it. Nice and easy way to keep an eye on her. I am wondering though, wouldn't this party be at the Halpert's home, or I imagine I should say mansion? I'm wondering if Pam is going to stumble across some pictures of Jim while she's there. THAT would be interesting.
It's interesting the position that Jim currently finds himself in. Oh and I just want to explain why I would still see Karen as a threat to the Halpert's as much as any other girlfriend, maybe more. Yes, she grew up wealthy but it's very obvious that she didn't grow up with anything near the wealth that Jim's family has. That much has become even more apparent in this last chapter. See, I cannot imagine that Karen would choose, if she had any real options, to work for Dunder Mifflin as a sales rep. I think it's far less likely that she would move away from the city and the things Karen likes and is familiar with, to move to Scranton, Pa of all places, if she had any real choice. Add to that the fact that Jim was making it clear from the time he heard of the merger that he just wasn't so sure about returning to Scranton and actually sounds like he was making it pretty clear to Karen even before that last part that he was seriously thinking that he was NOT going to take the job. I think if Karen's family had any real pull it just seems that it would be used in this situation to keep them together and away from Scranton. SO, I think girls like Karen (sorry, I NEVER liked Karen. Maybe had she been introduced in a different setting, like, not as a love interest for Jim, maybe I would/could have liked her. Being honest, I disliked her a lot. I felt all she ever wanted was to change Jim. He was never good enough for her the way he was.) Anyhow, I think girls like her want to climb that social ladder and lets face it, Jim helps her skip up several rungs. If she could bag him, then nag him back to the family business the way she nagged him about cocktail parties and promotions, haircuts ans the way he wears his clothing on the show (I'm assuming if not all, some of that was Karen. We KNOW the haircut was.
Author's Response: You know, Jim was going to tell Pam everything the night she told him she was pregnant. He was going to lay it all on the line because deep inside he couldn't keep it from her. In order for them to move one with their relationship, he was going to tell her all about his past. But then, she told him she was pregnant and, well... all that happened. If I had written the scene where Jim actually told her everything, I would have made Pam a little pissed at him, at first. Who wouldn't be angry after going out with a guy for six months and not knowing who he really was? All in all, Jim was stupid for not telling Pam his secret earlier. (Look at the mess he got himself into).
Gerry still has some tricks up his sleeve. His reputation is on the line, and he will do whatever to whomever to keep Jim away from Pam. The trip to Australia was definitely a ploy to get Jim away from Philly. Pam is not the girl Gerry wants for his son, at least not the ideal woman. So, he will try to keep Jim as far away from Pam as possible. The thing about Australia, is that Jim had always wanted to go there and his dad was well aware of it. He couldn't pass up the opportunity, specially since all other options were to return home or go to Scranton. If those were my options... I would definitely go to the land down under too! The two tickets was for him and Karen. Gerry likes Karen - she fits with his son. Gerry thinks that Karen will erase Pam out of Jim's mind in some way.
I imagine (all though as you will see, I don't go into mush detail on the party, other than that Betsy and Adele became really close) is a huge party. Probably held at a hall. a fancy, waiter-having, all liquor inclusive Hall thing. Gerry just wants to let this clients know he's the MAN. So, even though I thought about the whole mansion thing and Pam seeing something there, I just thought Gerry would be pompous enough to throw a bash on the fanciest place ever, ya know?
Karen didn't grow wealthy as Jim, you are right. And seeing the way you see Karen could be a threat to Jim. He's a nice "ladder" to climb (in so many ways - My mind is in the gutter). But I totally see your point. Karen moving to Scranton is just her way to keeping Jim. She likes him... and your train of though works here, going to Scranton means keeping Jim... her security blanket.
Once again, I love your imput! Can't wait to see what you think of the next few chapters!
D
Date: November 10, 2011 09:31 am Title: Chapter 8
This is fantastic! Karen's out of the picture, right? RIGHT? Will he decide to stay with his plan and go to Australia, or will he decide to crash his father's party? So many ways to go. I don't mind the angst, keep it coming, this is great!
A little thing - there are a few "relived" where I think you mean "relieved" and this He’s had enough. Enough of everything.
I think it should be He'd.
Sorry, I know it's a pest to have a review with a correction, but I wanted to mention it because this chapter is great and I don't want anyone to get taken out of the story by that. :)
More of this soon, please!
Author's Response: Karen is out of the picture... Hooray! This is so many ways to go.. ch. 9 will answer that question for you. I think you are the only person who doesn't mind the angst and is asking for more... There will be more! Thanks for the grammar pointers... I always miss the most stupid things, especially after reading the chapter 100x over! You=awesomepie! Thanks for reading!
Date: November 08, 2011 09:36 am Title: Chapter 7
This is an awesome twist! Can't wait to see how it plays out. Also nice touch with referencing moments from the show involving Jim/Pam, Jim/Karen.
Author's Response: I'm so glad you are liking my twists! I'm also glad you mentioned the references. Even though this fic is an AU, I wanted to keep the feel of the office, bringing some familiarly to the story. Thanks for taking you time to review!
Date: November 07, 2011 04:40 pm Title: Chapter 7
Dude, you are seriously causing me heart problems with this fic lol. I was not expecting that. I hate Gerry, he messed everything up for Jim and Pam LOL
Author's Response: I hope your heart can take a few more curve balls! **hides behind her work desk** The story is finally set up and you can kind of see where things will lead. Gerry did mess up everything and I hate to say it, but he is not done yet. Please don't throw trash at me! Thanks for reading!
Date: November 07, 2011 12:27 pm Title: Chapter 7
Okay, I'm not going to lie here. There is a part of me, MUCH more than just a little part, that truly wants to tell Jim to just go F#$% himself and that I hope he dies lonely and alone about right now. I guess I'm going to deal with his side of things first this time. Before that I have to be really honest, first, NO WAY, NO NO NO don't even THINK about giving this up. If I'm going to be a good and faithful reader/reviewer/fan of yours and read even these chapters that are truly upsetting, if I'm not going to give up on you, you CANNOT give up on me until I get my nice happy ending.
Okay, this seriously, I think it was a lot more painful than even the last chapter to read. Maybe I'm making more out of what Jim and Pam had, but I thought they both felt it as that deep down, know it right away, once in a lifetime type of thing. I guess if that were the case, even if Jim feels he has no options but to move on, I don't get him diving all the way in with Karen so soon. I mean, I would just think that with what truly is not that much time that has passed, he would be still hurting for Pam whether he wants to or not. I'm honestly beginning to think that Jim just doesn't deserve to have Pam, or the baby, back. I mean, he was in love with this woman, he was going to marry her, but she didn't even know his 'ral' last name? HUGE violation! If I were Pam, that would be something that, when Jim finds her and it all comes tumbling out, I'd have a real tough time getting past that. What really gets me is again, he accuses Pam of knowing who he is and just wanting his money yet when Karen DOES know who he is, wants to dive right into a relationship fast and heavy, he doesn't suspect HER of using him apparently. Then, I was SO proud. Jim had a conviction. He wasn't ready to do any of the meet the parents stuff. He wasn't there yet, he knew he wasn't there yet and when Karen pouted he seemed to not care. I LOVED the flashback to him meeting Pam's mom. The thing is, that STILL doesn't make him ready to meet Karen's family. IMO when you meet the parents and especially begin spending holidays together you are basically saying that you have bigger intentions and are making moves towards the future. When Jim turned around and called Karen back, giving into her tantrum I was disgusted and thought no wonder your dad can so easily manipulate you, you have no backbone. At this point I'm thinking that Pam is damn lucky she broke free of him because the man (said not knowing that THIS Jim even acts like a man) that he is probably WOULD have allowed his family to manipulate him, Pam and the baby's life until Pam would have had enough of it and left his sorry self. I want OUR Jim back!!!
It made me sad,just like it made Pam sad, to have Adele at her side at the ultrasound and not Jim. They should be sharing this happy time together, picking out names, planning their future etc. It really brings a tear to my eye. I think in part because some of this is hitting so close to home for me. NO, no hidden riches or anything but when I was pregnant with my oldest my husband and I weren't married. It was a rough rough time for us and he didn't participate in the pregnancy at all. I was 19,living in an apartment all alone, having a really rough prenancy and working as many hours behind the counter at a Dairy Queen as I could to save money for when I had to take off. He chose not to be part of it and he chose no to be present for her birth (this is why I SO much want Jim to be able to be there for the baby's birth!) My husband has SO many regrets about especially THAT decision which became even more pronounced when he realized just WHAT he missed after being there for the births of our other children. He used to get very upset when I would tell her the story about her birth or the first month of her life, which was the time before he decided to stop being an idiot and come see his baby. He didn't even tell his mom about her until she was 3 months old. Anyhow, sorry for the detour but I think this is why I am having such a reaction. He was out dating around and having fun while I was going through a rough time having our child. Granted, Pam seems to be having it MUCH easier than I did. She doesn't seem to be aving much difficulty with the pregnancy and she has people taking care of her for free. All this aside I just keep screaming in my heart and honestly, I think it's from my own experience, I feel a physical ache because Jim should be there taking care of her. Supporting her and his child. Going to ultrasounds, rubbing her tummy and feeling his child move. Oh and BTW, he doesn't know his dad well enough to know that his dad's questioning about Pam, coming out of the blue, and him being all interested in Jim's relationship with Karen (BTW, why is it that his dad doesn't think that the apparently PERFECT Karen could be trying to do whatever it was that Katy did???) He doesn't see his dad's dismissal of him coming to Thanksgiving dinner and asking so many questions about Pam as being a bit odd. Doesn't wonder why?
You know, I wonder how a man becomes so heartless and cold like Jim's dad apparently is. Does having a lot of money just make people, even his own flesh and blood, just mere things to him. Things to be bought and sold, dealt with, disposed of or covered up? It's funny, the minute I read that Joe was in a meeting with an investor I IMMEDIATELY thought, OMG, the investor is going to be Jim's dad. I cannot believe I was right. His dad must have really become somewhat familiar with Pam in his looking for Jim and investigating things because how else could it be that 5 months later, her body bloated with pregnancy and he actually recognizes her. To the point where it makes him sweat. He even asks how far along she is, obviously because he KNOWS he was right all along and she is carrying Jim's baby. The really sad thing is, so now he knows where Pam is and he's going to hide that from Jim and give no thought to the fact that he's actually going to be a grandpa. The thing that really gets me about this cold, cruel man is that it should at this point be apparent since Pam left,and now he knows that she wasn't with Jim for the money, they were in love because she didn't even know his last name, but he's going to keep this vital information from his son. It honestly makes me want to cry, seriously. I hope he NEVER gets to have a damn thing to do with the baby n matter what happens. The thing is, one might say that Oh yes, he bought the story and thinks that the baby is actually the Anderson's grandchild BUT, you don't get to be a shrewd apparently heartless man like he seems to be without having very good instincts. I'm sure that because he was so certain Pam WAS pregnant before, he KNOWS it's Jim's and rather than coming to the realization that this IS his flesh and blood, he just wants to make sure the family money is safe from Pam and the baby so he just wants them to never be discovered.
I'm honestly really sad at the end of this one. I just think that forgiveness is going to be so hard with all things in place and really, no matter what the reasons Jim has for not looking for Pam (I would think that even if he wasn't going to hunt her down to try and continue the relationship, he claims he would have married this woman the very day he met her, I'd think he's at least want to find her and make sure she's okay.) I would think it would be hard for Pam to accept that he seemed to care so little after he broke her the way he did, that he didn't even attempt to look for her. It's just all so incredibly sad. Can you give ANY clue as to how many more chapters before maybe some little bits of happiness start happening? Any clue at all?
I'm sorry if this review is a downer. I HONESTLY don't mean it to be. It's funny how a story like this can dig up all these emotions that happened about 25 yrs ago for me. I mean, It's bringing out very raw and real emotion which I think says an awful lot about you as a writer to be able to do that.
You have another wonderfully written chapter with yet another sharp twist. If only one of these twists would twist those two towards each other. I'm starting to wonder if Jim is going to find Pam while Adele is still alive and either Pam will try to convince him that the baby isn't his, which I don't think she would, or if Jim will be forced to go along with pretending that it's Kenny's baby for Adele's sake. It would serve him right. Oh and I just thought, I think what it adding to the grief I am feeling for this situation is in part because Jim just seems to have cavilierely(sp??) pushed Pam from his mind and dove into a new relationship, even going to start meeting parents and spending holidays together. Then there is Pam. Last chapter she was still thinking about contacting Jim. This chapter he's heavy on her mind, her wanting him beside her with the stuff with the baby. I'm just wondering, the way Karen is pushing the relationshp, I wonder if she's going to be trying to force him into an engagement ring for Christmas? It wouldn't surprise ma and the way Jim here has no backbone, I'm afraid he's go along with it. God I hope not. Please know that THAT just might kill me!
Can't wait for the next chapter, at least I think I can't. I need to wash this one away. Gosh there has to be SOMETHING good coming SOON, right?
Great Writing and as always, thanks for the great and friendly responses to my reviews. Makes my day. Take care... T~
Author's Response:
Jim really messed up, didn’t he? Your anger towards him is very, VERY plausible. And I know this was (and has been) very painful to read. But hang in there, the sun will be coming out soon.
Even though Jim and Pam had this wonderful connection and he knew right away that she was the one, they had a really, REALLY bad break up. So bad of a break up that he feels he lost her forever…. So, in Jim’s mind he has no other option, but to move on. You are definitely right about them jumping into a “relationship” so soon after everything that happened. But Jim is just trying to fill the void. In my head I see it like this… You just built a jigsaw puzzle with 1,000 pieces. But there’s one missing. Even though you have 999 pieces together, it is not satisfying as if you had all 1,000. Jim has all the 999 pieces and he doesn’t feel complete. He almost needs to fill that empty space so he can feel whole and fulfilled. Does that make sense? Jim keeping his last name a secret from her, I see it as him trying to protect himself and her. If he used his real last name, don’t you think his dad would be knocking on his door the next day? The irony was that he did trying to protect them, but ended up harming them.
The thing about Karen here and that she knows who he is and Jim is not at all alarmed that might be pulling the same trick on him is because, in this fic, she also comes from a similar background as Jim. Her family is not as well off as the Halperts, but they do okay. Remember their fathers are friends, so Gerry does approve and perhaps, encourages Jim do date Karen (especially now since Pam returned to the picture).
Jim hesitated meeting Karen’s parents. But the reason why I had him agree to spend the Thanksgiving with them was because he refuses to acknowledge that Pam still has a hold on him. Him agreeing was as if saying, “Look, I’ve moved on, see? SEE???” That’s how I see it. And you are right, where’s the backbone in this kid?
Pam’s side of the story is much sadder. And I wanted to convey that longing that she felt. Because if you think about it, she was the one that left and she was the one to break things off (Yes, Jim made her do it because he is….an idiot) But I want her to slowly wish things were different. Every time that baby kicks and nudges her, I want her to remember him. I want her to slowly start to forgive him. I know this story is hitting home for you. And I’m sad to say it (even hesitant) that what will follow (according to what you’ve told me) with hit home… even harder. I apologize for it already! (I hope I’m not giving too much away) And I hope you keep reading this one too!
As usual, you were right about Jims’ dad and the whole investment thing. And Jim’s dad, Gerry, definitely know who Pam is. He knows exactly who she is and possibly whose baby she’s carrying. And of course you are also on point concerning the fact that Gerry will want to keep Jim away from Philly for as long as possible.
Don’t worry your reviews being sad or happy or long. I’ll take them however they are. So, I will not give this one up. I’ll see it to the end. -D
Date: November 07, 2011 09:51 am Title: Chapter 7
Jim! She didn't even know your real last name? How could you do that to Pam? Oh, I'm so mad at him! What did she think his last name was? Or did she really know it and is at the moment fainting as they're giving a toast... And Jim spending Thanksgiving with KAREN?! UGH! So many twists and turns in this story, I'm loving every bit of it. Please don't give up on this story, you have to keep going!
Author's Response: Jim messed up BIG time. But he just wanted to keep a low profile. If he used his real last name, his father would be knocking on his door the next day. I like to think that Jim kept his identity a secret to protect Pam and himself, although in the end it did nothing but harm them. I had written a scene where they had met and Jim introduced himself as, "James Duncan. But you can call me Jim." He was only going with his middle name. But I chose not to have that scene. Jim spending thanksgiving with Karen..um... look at it as if he is trying to move on. Thanks so much for reading and reviewing! It mean a whole lot!
Date: November 07, 2011 08:48 am Title: Chapter 7
Another twist! Jim's father resurfacing surprised me. Looking forward to more.
Author's Response: Twists, twists, and more twists! Jim's father is just getting warmed up! Thanks for reading!
10 [Report This]Date: November 05, 2011 07:21 pm Title: Chapter 1
I have only just read chapter one, and I feel as though I'm going to be refreshing the update page an unhealthy amount waiting for an update.
Author's Response: I'm so glad you are liking this fic! I'm trying to post a new chapter every week or so...
10 [Report This]Date: November 04, 2011 10:57 am Title: Chapter 6
Don't fall for Roy, Pam!!! JIM stay away from Karen!!! AGH!
Now that I got that out of my system ;) Okay, objectively I can't blame either one for trying to move on. I am so looking forward to finding out the full story behind Jim's background and who his family really is. And... okay, call me crazy, but I can't wait to find out what Karen's reaction is when she finds out who Jim is too... cause that's bound to come up. I'm so anxiously awaiting the next update!
Author's Response: I'm glad you can see why they would try to move on. The full story behind Jim will be coming up in one of the later chapters. So, about Karen.... on the chapter in which she is first mentioned I chose to have her know who he was by making Karen's dad friends with Jim's dad (Chapter 5). So, she knows exactly who he is. But there will be other twists and turn ahead. Thanks for reading!
Date: November 03, 2011 07:53 pm Title: Chapter 6
Well that was about what I expected. I can't wait for the next chapter! I have a feeling Jim will end up sleeping with Karen, but obviously that won't happen with Pam and Roy. Actually it can only go so far since Jim and Pam have a Kid together. Though Jim doesn't know... can't wait for more!
Author's Response: The story will follow some expected paths (Jim/Karen Pam/Roy), but not really. As you can see I got tons of twists and turns here. And yes They DO have a kids together that Jim doesn't know about it YET....[insert evil laugh). Thanks for reading and reviewing!
Date: November 03, 2011 01:09 pm Title: Chapter 6
I liked Karen and I liked Roy, I just never thought they were right for Jim and Pam, so I'm reading this and I'm like, nooooo. I really am enjoying this though,and I can't wait to see what you have in store. Very excited :)
Author's Response: You are one of the few that actually likes those character. In all honesty, I like them too. They add tension, a little kick whenever they are added to a story. I LOVE fluff (I live for it), but it's nice to read (and write) them circa season2/3. I'm so glad you are enjoying this one. Thank for reading and reviewing!
10 [Report This]Date: November 03, 2011 12:56 pm Title: Chapter 6
Okay first off, PLEASE don't throw yourself in front of a bus or anything else! You are much to nice and I would sincerely miss your story telling ability, not to mention not getting an ending to this one.
Okay, you say that the next chapter will get our hearts racing, is that in a good way? ::::said while looking at the computer with extremely hopeful eyes:::: I have to be honest, this chapter was another very well written chapter but honestly, it was agonizingly painful to read. I'm serious. Watching Pam get further sucked in with Roy and even having any thoughts that he could even begin to fill Jim's shoes... that WOULD make me want to cry if not for Duo number 2. I am like screaming at the computer, look away Jim, look away! Once again, for him to begin thinking that Karen could in ANY way begin to heal what is broken in him by what HE DID to Pam... it makes me upset and honestly, it makes me angry. So it's been three whole months since he absolutely crushed the woman who he claimed to love and want to marry. He was so down yet he gives himself permission to go ahead and start filling Pam's place I'm sure giving no real regard for what she could be going through. I mean, I'm just wondering, Jim's family has all this money and apparently has the resources to find people and find out about people, Jim's dad found him when he ran and hid and knew all about Pam and her being pregnant etc. Would it EVER occur to Jim that just maybe his family owes him a little something at this point and he could use those same resources to find the love of his life and find out that he's going to be a dad before Roy is firmly in place and playing daddy to his child. UGH!!!! Of course, I guess our Jim IS one that blows a person's world apart and then just covers with another person. At least on the show, I know different people seem to think a little differently about when Jim started seeing Karen etc. The theory that seems to be most widely used in fan fiction and the one I tend to believe is that Jim went out with Karen for the first time either the night he returned to work at the Scranton Branch OR sometime after he knew he was returning which would be very shortly before that. SO, at least there that Jim was decent enough to let his heart heal some and I think would have probably waited even more than the appoximately 6 months that he did had he not needed Karen to sheild him from Pam. It seems like in ThIS situation where he didn't have just one kiss that he's sure she responded to but a whole relationship that he KNOWS he screwed up badly, seems he would need more time. Of course, for the sake of the story Jim has to be like this so things can get all good and tanfled up. I just hope that as Pam takes these tentative steps toward Roy and Jim does toward Karen that as they experiment they each are able to come to the solid conclussion that what they had was that once in a lifetime, sould mate type of love and that they just don't have any real feelings towards these new people in their lives. They can't really because for one, the break up is still far too new. Pam has part of Jim with her that I just know it would be too painful for her to really share with Roy. Jim has the knowledge that he did this. He made her run from him AND, she's still out there somewhere. I mean, does it not occur to him that he's never really tried the one thing he CAN do to hopefully make the pain go away and that is look for her. In looking for her he would also show her just how much he cares. Also, it would become VERY obvious that though yes, she IS pregnant with his child, it very obviously had nothing to do with his family's money since she ran to get away from it rather than trying to get any of it. He could calm her fears about his family and the baby by being with her and them doing the parenting thing together. Oh my, this chapter just has me all messed up and I REALLY hope you are sending relief and sending it SOON because as far as getting the heart pumping, you did THAT in this chapter, just in a painful way!
Reflecting back to early in the chapter, it sounds like if Jim does find Pam some how, she just might be receotive to allowing him to explain about his upbringing and such. Something that will help make sense out of it all for Pam.
I need to make something clear, I am certainly not criticizing the way you are writing the story when I'm expressing outrage over Jim moving on or not looking for Pam. I kinda look at the story as something that is really happening and I am like mad at the people because there are people that would act in those ways. Does that make sense? I still feel like you are telling an absobrillfantasically awesome story that is just packed full of imagination. (BTW in case you can't tell, that word is potions of absolutely, brilliant and of course fantastically and awesome. Couldn't think of one word to sum it up well enough!)
The negative side, you have been pounding relentlessly on my grief bone and this chapter here? This one here threatened to absolutely shatter if once and for all. Can you just imagine me having to live the rest of my life with a shattered grief bone abd you would have no choice but to accept that it's ALL YOUR FAULT! Another chapter like this and I'm pretty certain it WILL shatter and you will have to live the rest of your life with the knowledge that YOU so cruely shattered my grief bone! Okay, this is just getting silly now. It was a seriously hard chapter for me to read BUT I did think your analogy about the torn apart paper was really good. I hope in thinking about that Jim will think that the only thing that would fit in the spot where the torn paper once was, is the part that was torn from it. You can rig something else in there but the paper will always be missing part of itself and the part you rig in there is never going to really even come vlose to fitting the right way. You have to ignore a lot.
Okay, another excellent job. Now PLEASE, I've been patient, haven't I??? I KNOW I have so PLEASE, give me something I can smile about! Throw us a bone here! (or the entire steaK WOULD BE NICE! :o) )
Author's Response: I don't see your reviews as critical in any way. They are actually a compliment to my writing - that someone is taking their time to analyze it and see it beyond the words I've typed up.
You brought up a good point here - Why doesn't Jim use his dad's resources to find Pam. REALLY GOOD POINT. This is how I see it... Jim is trying to not be like his father. He doesn't want any part of his schemes. He didn't like it when it was done to him, so why would he do to someone else? Jim thinks that Pam doesn't want to be with him anymore - that she made her point loud and clear by leaving him. Although this pains him, he know he has to move on. Tracing her and finding her, to him, seems a little low - something his dad would do. So, he chooses not to do that.
Also, I think I see Jim from the show a little differently here. I don't see him as trying to replace Pam or cover her place. I legitimately think that he believed that could move on from Pam. I don't think he saw Karen as a rebound until Pam was there, front and center, being that person he'd fell in love with. It's the same way here. Jim thinks that Karen can be the anti-Pam, if I may say. He want to stop the feelings that emerge every time he thinks of Pam. And, right now, for Jim Karen is that buffer that will keep him, for the time being, sane. And yes, things have to be like this so now just to tangle it all up! lol!
Spoiler alert... Jim will find Pam. And I'm going to stick to the idea that time heals things and yes, Pam might be more open to listen to him and his story... but remember scars are forever!
Thanks you so much for taking your time to review. It means a lot. Your reviews make me think about what I'm writing and how people are perceiving my ideas.
Luvs
Dee
Date: November 03, 2011 12:27 pm Title: Chapter 6
I'm enjoying it, Dedeen, but at the same time I'm SO FRUSTRATED. I'm feeling so Season 3 :D I don't want to like Roy or Karen, yet I do. Dang it! I'll be patient. ::goes off and sulks::
Author's Response: I know you're frustrated. Trust me I know! The season 3 angst is not the best feeling ever. Hang in there, there will be light at the end of this tunnel. Thanks for reading and reviewing!