So sorry for not staying caught up on reading fic while I was on vacation! Catching up now, and right from the beginning of this chapter I'm nodding. I can absolutely see why Pam felt she had to lie about the baby and leave town. The snippets of things Jim and Pam had done on the show mixed in - love that! I can understand how these tragic things (Jim's downright nasty attitude toward Pam the second he found out about the baby... the car accident and what follows) I can definitely see how all of these situations would lead to irrational spur of the moment actions. On to the next chapter!

Author's Response: Don't you know that fanfic always comes first? Before midterms, tests, homework.... Before boyfriends and girlfriends... vacations?!? Haha! I hope you had a wonderful vacation. I'm glad you can see why Pam acted the way she did. That was my only worry while writing this fic because I would be taking Jim and Pam out of their element. I was scared people would be put off by it, but I'm soo glad you were "nodding" while reading the chapter! whew! Thanks for reading!

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What the fuck?!? She is pregnant! Yes, no, yes, no. Make up your mind already lol. Love it, love every last bit of it. And the angst and tragedy just drags on and on. Kenny dies, and now Roy is in the picture... ah it hurts to read all this heartbreak and downward spiraling plot... MORE PLEASE :) I can't what to see how it all unravels.

Author's Response: I laughed out loud after reading the list line! WTF is the reaction I was going for! I know this angst stuff sucks....but bare with me and you'll see light at the end of this sorrowful tunnel. Thanks for reading and reviewing!

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Oh wow! First, I did really get what was going on with Pam both physically and in her thought process, didn't I? I guess we think alike on stuff like this! :o) I just really hope that maybe Jim, having a bit of distance and time will be able to think back over everything that happened, how she was happy with him, runpled and his hair, well, the way his hair is on the show I am sure (which I am betting is a far cry from the way his hair and clothes looked when he was living with or around his parents and their money.) How Pam was so happy to have as a first date him making her grilled cheese and dancing with him with his IPod playing, one earbud in each of their ears. I hope he'll be able to reflect on the fact that if she KNEW, if she really knew who he was (whover that even is) or about his money, and she was after that aspect of him, wouldn't she have pushed for a 'real' date? A nice restaurant? Dancing somewhere nice? Them dressed up, hair done nicely? She sounds like she accepted him and wanted him for HIM and I really REALLY hope that he will be able to think about this and think about if she is the person he thought she was, which we of course know that she in fact is, that the talk of her tricking him, his accusations and far more than that, the heavy handed talk about his family taking care of the baby, for a sweet and simple girl like Pam, that would be too much. Hopefully he'll be able to think about what it did to him growing up. I mean, there's enough damage that he bolted in the middle of the night just to get away and was happy to live the life he had found. Maybe he'll think about the fact that Pam IS like him and after seeing what he appeared to turn into because of the money, he should understand that she wouldn't want that for their baby any more than HE himself would want it for his flesh and blood.

Unfortunately, I have a feeling that you are going to have some fun pounding on my griefbone before we get anywhere with those two. I had a feeling before I posted my last review that the evil names (evil to me anyhow) of Roy and Karen were just bound to come up and really make this a complicated mess. It was interesting that if all had gone as planned, Pam would have simply stayed for a time, I have a feeling not even a long time, with Roy's brother Kenny and then I think she would have wanted very much to get farther away. (Interesting twist here. I kept wondering why it was that the dad could be SO sure that Kenny couldn't be the father. Totally didn't see the thing of Kenny being gay coming! I always think of him being basically a useless drunk or almost drunk and womanizer who treats people poorly just like Roy!) So, I have a feeling when Pam wakes up, Roy will talk to her and thus will begin her introduction into the Anderson family under completely false pretenses all for the mom's sake. In the process I have a feeling though I dread that Roy is going to develop feelings for Pam and Pam, who knows there is no one for her but Jim but feels that ship has sailed and sunk. She just doesn't know that HER Jim really IS the real Jim. He was panicked because his dad hit things dead on. He was wrong and he should have never treated her like that, but heck, if she could maybe try to learn a bit about him, what his life has been like until the point where he met her. I mean, exactly why he would run away and have no contact with his family.... anyhow, so I think Pam will feel friendly towards Roy, he helped her when she needed it. He just lost his brother and it sounds like the loss of his mom is imminent, I think she may work on talking herself into this is enough. The baby can have two parents and maybe, just maybe someday she can teach the baby about her or his real father and real love, the soul mates type it sounds like. As I said in the last review, as a bonus, she gets to always have a part of Jim with her even if it isn't Jim himself.

THEN, OTOH I think we are about to have the second dirty word in Office vocabulary (IMO of course) introduced to us. Over at Stamford I have a feeling that Jim is meeting Karen and trying hard to get over Pam will be sucked into her web. The thing is, here I go guessing again... Karen is more worldly and devious and cunning than Pam. I think pretty early on Karen is going to know EXACTLY who Jim is and what he's worth and I think she's going to work hard to make that hers. SHE may even be one to try to get pregnant to snare him but I would think that after what Jim just went through with Pam, hopefully he's going to be especially careful. I also have a feeling that daddy dearest is going to be keeping tabs on Jim and where he didn't approve of Pam, she probably wasn't up to the family standards. Not flashy enough and for goodness sakes, a receptionist?! Karen OTOH is sleek and she's ambitious. I could see daddy appreaching her and working with her to see if he can help things along before Pam somehow surfaces and Jim learns about the baby. Heck, the dad may even tell Karen about the baby as incentive. Can you just imagine Jim finding out Karen knew something like that.

Okay, I'm assuming an awful lot, I'm sorry! I will say, I hope they find each other and sort things out before the baby is born. I HATE HATE HATE a father missing the birth of his baby especially because of stupid stuff between the father and the mother. I hate it even more if it's because the mom didn't give him that oportunity because she has taken an experience and memories from him that he can never ever, no matter how good of a dad he is from that point on, he can never get the birth back.

With all of this said, can I just say that your comments to me in response to my last review absolutely made my day! That is saying something because I didn't expect there to be a response and I was having just a really awful day and I read what you wrote and WOW! Really made me feel good! I do feel that you are incredibly gifted and I love the different styles you choose to try out and they are ALWAYS successful IMO! One of the very first stories I read and bookmarked was on another site, I had just found fan fiction and I fell head over heals in love with it, even reading it out loud to my daughter who I think was probably 9 at the time. It was Learning to Live (or Love??? I get those two titles mixed up all the time) Again. My daughter would ask me every month or so to read it to her again. We BOTH fell in love with the names you gave the kids and were hoping so much for one of them when Pam had Cece. You NEVER disappoint me with your writing. Just, like I said, try not to pound me too heavily in the griefbone here. That bone is pretty fragile right now! Maybe throw us a bone here and there along the journey.

I was thrilled that you agreed that you do always do happy endings for our couple because at lease knowing that I think I can hopefully make it through! Thank you so much for sharing your talent with us. You really are gifted and I look forward to the coming chapters! :o)

Author's Response: You definitely got what was going on with Pam! 1,000,000 Schrute bucks to you! To say we think alike is an understatement. The points which you bring up about Jim having time to think are right on, but when Pam told him she wasn't pregnant he realized that his dad had "set him up." He knows that she wasn't after his money. He got that now. He wishes that he could tell her about his past and all, but she left. Pam definitely accepted him the way he was, that is a reason he fell in love with her. She didn't need anything, just him - that's for certain.

I'm sad to admit that those that we don't speak of will appear and will engage with our beloved characters. I know, I know... But they come to remind them what they really had in those few months they spent together. They are going to try to move on (as it happened on the show) but only yo realize that... they can't. I threw in Kenny being gay, just to tie the story together as to where I want to take it. Your description of him is actually how I see him right now... But I just needed his dad to know that Kenny wasn't into girls.

About Jim missing the birth...umm...Me and my beta had many, many emails back and forth discussing this topic. There were pros and cos on both sides... I couldn't decided which way I wanted to go... It came down to a coin toss! I kid you not... The decision whether Jim would find Pam (Or Pam finding Jim) before or after she was pregnant was decided on a coin toss. I guess you'll just have to see the results as the story progresses! wink, wink!

I'm glad you are still enjoying this fic, even though is poking your grief-bone a little bit. Thanks so much for your review (Once again my mouth was wide open after reading). I enjoy talking about my fic and my intentions in a deeper level. Everything I right has a reason and I feel I found someone who I can discuss it with. Thank you! D