WOW! Yet another amazing chapter. I have to tell you, no story has touched me and ignited quite so many emotions at the same time in me in quite some time. I feel sad, angry, despair, concern, hope, thankful, worry, excited and curious. Not too many of the positive emotions at this point. Thankful comes from the fact that Pam and the baby are fine and also because she has someone, a whole family in fact, that are willing to step in and help her out. In return she doesn't seem to have to give up too much, just as long as no one tries to insist that she give the baby the last name of Anderson. (But here is where some of my emotions of curious, concern and hope come in. I don't know what side the coin landed on when you were flipping the coin trying to decide about if Jim would make it for the birth. I just think that if it landed on the bad side, to me that means him not being there, maybe she should flip the coin again and go for the best 2 ouf 3 or of needed 3 of 5, 5 of 7... you know, until you get to where I WANT you to be! )

The Andersons sound very kind and I hope that this will be what Pam needs right now as her heart heals from the pain and damage Jim caused with his accusations. It was absolutely heartbreaking to hear as she woke up her thinking she was in bed with Jim and he had the bkinds open. It had to send such fresh pain and agony through her as she faced her situation all over again.

I am hoping that, as awful as it sounds, Adele doesn't have long to live and that with her death Roy and Joe will allow Pam to give up the pretense that they have any hold on the baby. I just think that when you are playinh a real live game of make believe, sometimes you can get caught up in it and forget that it's not real and start believing the things you are pretending. (Kinda like what I feel Pam did on the actual show in seasons 1-2. She played a game of make believe that Jim was nothing but her best friend. She played it so well and so convincingly that she sorta believed it herself,she HAD to just like right now the Andersons NEED Adele to believe the baby is Kennys. But on the show, when it came down to it and she was shaken from her make believe world by Jim's confession and kiss, she tried hard to stay in the world she created for herself but in the end sje ust couldn't. Jim shook her out of it with what he did and she wasn't able to play that with Roy any more which is why she couldn't go through with the wedding.) Anyhow, I know that Pam won't truly get caught up in this game they are playing, I just can't believe that with a part of Jim growing and becoming so very real inside of her, it's probably going to become harder for her to continue pretending that the baby belongs to anyone but herself and Jim as it grows in her and becomes a real person. Because their love was so real and deep I think she will cling to it as all she has left of him and have a difficult time sometimes dealing with it when she has to pretend that the baby is someone else's. There is a lot to see as far as how things will play out with the Andersons at this point. I'm thinking that Adele is going to want Pam to move into their house and I'm not sure how I feel about that. Obviously it would be good for her to not need to pay rent and such but ultimately I think it's best for pam herself to know that she can stand on her own and doesn't have to have anyone support her and the baby so that when her and Jim's paths DO inevitably cross again, he will be able to see that she CAN do it alone, has been doing it alone. I don't know why but I just feel that it will be important to their dynamic when it all starts to fall into place. I think it's clear that Roy is going to begin having feelings for Pam and, yuck. I think it's logical for the story but I can't help but think ROY... step away from Pam and the hospital bed. Please put your flowers in the trash, remove your hand from Pam's and never ever forget that now rather than you and Kenny doing Pam a favor, she is doing a HUGE HUGE favor for your family. The thing is, like I said, this is just my general reaction to Roy (and the other person who should never be mentioned) but the fact is, it makes sense for the AU story that you are creating.

Then there is Jim. I can't help but feel for the poor heartbroken guy who made his own bed, not on purpose but he did, and now he had no choice but to lay in it. It sounds to me like no matter what is happening, Oam is going to continue to live in his heart which shows just how true their love is. I'm wondering just how his mom is going to play into this. Clearly it seems that she isn't as controling and manipulative as his dad. He seems to be somewhat open to having some type of a relationship with her. I'm thnking that as I said before, I firmly believe that while Pam believe that she has run away from the Halperts and especially with the help of the Andersons she will be able to easily hide, O just don't believe it's easy to hide from people with that kind of money who are able to follow you. I'm even wondering if there will come a point where Jim's dad, or someone representing him, will approach Pam and offer her money to stay away from him. (I hope you aren't sick and tired of all my thoughts and theories on this story. It's just all SO very unique and intriquing.) So I'm tjinking, Jim keeps a tenuous relationship with his mom, not wanting any part of their world any longer, especially knowing now that his dad, through his manipulations that I'm sure Jim has lived with all his life and was no doubt a large part of what Jim was running from, his dad cost him the only woman he has ever and will ever truly love. The person he was certain was his soul mate. I think Jim's mom is probably controlled by his dad and Jim knows this and it has everything to do with why he feels he has no choice but to keep her at arms length. At the same time, she IS his mom and I've always imagined our Jim to have a special bond with his mom and maybe this Jim has that bond but it's just different than what has been pictured before because I just think money changes everything, even how sons bond with their moms and how much they trust them. So I'm thinking that Jim's mom is going to know about Pam and come to realize just how much Jim loves her and that from what she hears from Jim, Pam loves him as well and it had nothing to do with the money. I think like we know, Jim realized that Pam knew nothing about who he is (whoever that is, still a mystery) and I think his mom will come to see in her heart that Jim is right, Pam didn't know. I think Jim's mom is going to find out that his dad knowa exaxtly where Pam is and she will either go there herself, maybe to wherever it is that Joe Anderson gives her a job, and make it seem like an accidental meeting. I just think that Jim's mom is going to want to se and get a feel for Pam herself. Maybe she won't even know about the baby. Or maybe she'll get the information and just pass it along to Jim. Either way I think his mom will be the instrument that gives Jim the information about Pam. I think she'll do that to show her son just how much she really loves him and prove to him that she is different than his dad. Of course I KNOW the complications that are going to arise when Jim finds Pam again, however that happens. Jim is certainly going to be tangled in Karen's web and probably for some reason have a hard time getting free of her. Maybe it will be that he's tried to convince himself that Pam left him and he owes whatever to Karen. Maybe Karen will have him convinced that she is pregnant and he won't have any idea about Pam's baby or if he does maybe he'll have been told that the father is Kanny Anderson, wondering if he'll think she was cheating on him.

The sad thing is that the core of all the heartache and despair that we are seeing and will continue to see our wonderful duo go through is completely rooted in Jim's life, his upbringing anf the fact that he has just learned, the hard way I'm sure, that you just can't trust anyone, especially a pretty girl. I think it's pretty darn hard to shake your core values whether they are good or bad. I think that when the cross between Jim's life he's made for himself in Stamford and the reality of what he and Pam had back in Scranton before he ruined it, when that comes I think it'll almost come down to a choice for Jim of continuing on with Karen and her representing his life as he grew up which is obviously the easiest thing in that he KNOWS that life. It's what he had all his life and it's not something he'll have to fight for. Ot there will be Pam which represents him running away and being his own man. Living a life that is unfamiliar which makes it scary, but it's a;; completely his own. It's a choice between Karen who wants him for what he can be, what he can represent and what that will give her, and Pam who simply love *though at this point I'm sure he'll have to do uite a lot for there to be trust from her) but she simply loves Jim, period. She needed, and needs, nothing more than him. She sees the core of him, the trappings all fall away. She loves the Jim in rumpled clothing and with bedhead who shares a house to make it financially and works a 9-5 job he soesn't particularly like, to pay the bills and maybe eek out a little extra for some fun but that's it. She doesn't need a lot of money or fancy trappings, I would even venture to say she wouldn't want them. I think when it comes sown to it, both Jim and Pam will want the same things. Each other. A family and to simply stand on their own two feet.

Okay, I'm sorry, I just get so caught up in this that I can't help but come up with all kinds of scenerios on how it's going to play out. I REALLY hope that you don't mind. I really do love your story and the way you are keeping us on the proverbial edge of our seats. I just need it faster. I'd appreciate if you could maybe, ummmm... uit your job, or take a leave and forget about your friends and family and anything other than this story until it's done because the wait between each chapter is KILLING me and you don't want to be responsible for my death, do you? Seriously, I wanted to say, I obviously have no idea where you intend to end this. Most stories tend to get to where Pam and Jim are finally happy and that's the end. That's great but I always hope for more. If there is any way you could find it in your heart to take us a bit beyond the happy ending (I'm assuming a happy ending based on our 'review talk over the past two reviews') I would just love to see a little bit more of where they go with their loves even before an epilogue if you choose to do an epilouge. Just a plea from me and something that you can maybe consider.

Lastly *and I know this one is crazy long, SO sorry to you and everyone that reads the reviews though I suspect most get sick and tired of my long ramblings and simply skip them, I don't blame them. I just hope I don't make people angry.) I want to say how impressed I was by the way tou handled I would say the negative review but it wasn't negative, it was rude, insulting and just plain wrong. Tis is YOUR story to tell. It's one thing for someone to give a negative review based on not thinking you are making sense or things that are constructive and helpful. I feel it's wrong to leave a review in that manner using words that are offensive (to me and I know to you as well) and not really helping you in any way just trying to force you to make the story go the way the reviewer wants. I sincerely hope that my long rambles never come across that way. You are a fantastic writer and an awesome story teller. You obviously have a wonderful imagination and all of us here are tuly blessed that you choose to use your imagination to write the stories that you share with us. I really want to thank you for that. I cannot begin to imagine the time you put into your writing (Okay, I CAN begin to, I have started 3-4 Pam and Jim ficx but I just don't think I have the nerve to put myself out there to be judged. Plus, I probably suck!!!) but to put that time into something just to share with us, I feel honored. To insult you when you are doing this is wrong, not to mention, your story is fantastic and even the elements that we wish weren;t there, work and really it simply wouldn't be a very interesting story without those elements. Thank you and really any writer that reads this, for all the time and effort you put in just to share with and entertain us. It has to be a bit scary to put your personal works out there to be judged.

Back to just you. not all writers, you're so clearly awesome! (That's in the words of Pam Beesly of course. Now you need to apply to Pratt or whatever the writing equivolent of it is!!! I'll be the one to tell you that they'll love those stories!!!

Onto the next chapter. I can't wait to get through this icky stuff and be onto the good stuff!!! Keep up the fantastic work!

Author's Response: DUUUUUUUDEEEEEEE! I don't even know where to begin to respond to this one! YOU ARE SOOOOOO INSIGHTFUL!! I LOVE YOU CRAZY LONG REVIEWS! It's almost like I'm reading an in depth analysis of my work! I ABSO-FREAKING-LUTELY love it! But I will say this.. it was very scary to post this one (As I'm with all my fics... I usually but JIm and Pam through hell). But in most of my fics I keep Jim and Pam mostly in character.. ALWAYS. And this one... They don't seem like the JIm and Pam we know and love. I was scared I was going to be judged and all the point you brought up on your review. But, I'm glad I did it! It's not a "popular" fic, but I like the feed back that I get. It's different? Yes. Is it evoking different emotions from readers? Yes. So, I'm going to stick with it. By far this is the most scared I've been before posting a fic. So lady, don't be scared to put yourself our there. There are many of us in this AMAZING website that would be willing to help you. And once you do it... You'll see that it's not so bad... You might even like it! Thank you for being a wonderful supporter of this fic. You have no idea on the impact you've had on me. -D

Oh man, I was so excited to see an update for this! So many twists and turns. Now I'm wondering what Pam and Roy's relationship is going to be...

Author's Response: I'm happy you're liking my weird-AU-angsty fic! Yay! Pam and Roy's relationship will be.... Pam's and Roy's relationship if you know what I mean... wink, wink! This "friendship" will develop in the next couple of chapters!