Date: June 18, 2009 04:28 pm Title: Chapter 7: How can I move on when I've been in love with you?
"I'm not mad. I'm just...I need to go check on Amanda, and just...I'm not ready. I might never be. I can't...you don't get it because you've never lost the love of your life. Nancy's upstairs and she's here for you to hold and tell her you love her. I lost everything. I lost my soul mate. And for you guys to think that I could possibly move on from that...I can't."
That? Holy mother of God. I just started SOBBING.
Binx, as much as I hate to read this since I'm such a fluff lover, you are such an amazing writer, you keep bringing me back for more. This is a devastating story, but you've kept it so honest and so real and so believable and it's just... wow. It breaks my heart to read about the struggle, and it warms my heart to read the flashbacks and every single word is so fluid and remarkable. Really. You, my friend, are amazing.
Date: June 06, 2009 02:24 pm Title: Chapter 6: Every now and then, my memories ache with the empty idea of the ones we made
This is killing me. It's wonderfully written, but it's killing me.
Also, really hate Charles. Still.
Date: June 06, 2009 09:59 am Title: Chapter 6: Every now and then, my memories ache with the empty idea of the ones we made
I'm emotionally drained, Binx. Just wanted you to know that I'm still here. This is so f*cking sad, yet I can't stay away, because it's riveting. I don't know how you keep at it.
10 [Report This]Date: June 06, 2009 08:12 am Title: Chapter 6: Every now and then, my memories ache with the empty idea of the ones we made
I can't not cry when I read this story. Such a painful, lovely chapter.
10 [Report This]Date: June 05, 2009 07:52 pm Title: Chapter 6: Every now and then, my memories ache with the empty idea of the ones we made
I hate Charles, what a douche lol.
This was, as always amazing, and I look forward to your new chapters each time. I really hope for Jim that he manages to find someone to love him again like Pam did aw :(
Date: May 27, 2009 07:27 pm Title: Chapter 5: That's when my restlessness begins. Please don't let it win
I'm glad you're still writing on this one. You have to keep going until Jim can dig himself out and into a decent life for himself and Amanda. Again, I like the "flashbacks" because that's what Jim would be thinking about and it makes it all the more poignant. Very well done.
Date: May 27, 2009 04:13 pm Title: Chapter 1: Losing her, the only one who's ever known
This is good. Tough, really tough to read, but good.
10 [Report This]Date: May 27, 2009 02:48 pm Title: Chapter 5: That's when my restlessness begins. Please don't let it win
This is SO good, but the situation is so sad. I loved that in this chapter they had left her desk as it was, that so fitting for the show. Thanks for exercising my tear glands.
Date: May 27, 2009 01:25 pm Title: Chapter 5: That's when my restlessness begins. Please don't let it win
Oh please continue the story. You are doing a wonderful job and I really enjoy reading each new chapter!! Keep up the great work!
Date: May 27, 2009 10:33 am Title: Chapter 5: That's when my restlessness begins. Please don't let it win
I'm so glad you decided to continue with this. Your first chapters are just so raw and heartfelt and wonderfully well-written. I'm really anxious to see where you take Jim and Amanda. I also love how you've written Michael into this. Well done!
Date: May 27, 2009 09:09 am Title: Chapter 5: That's when my restlessness begins. Please don't let it win
Don't give up, Binx! It's hard to read, but it's really good, too. Does that make sense? I think you know what I mean. Bottom line: I hope you'll continue.
10 [Report This]Date: May 27, 2009 08:20 am Title: Chapter 5: That's when my restlessness begins. Please don't let it win
HELL YES I WANT YOU TO CONTINUE. If you stop writing this I will come and find you and smack you in the face, you hear me?
I am so in love with this story. I want to know EVERYTHING about Jim and Amanda aw :)
Date: May 27, 2009 06:36 am Title: Chapter 1: Losing her, the only one who's ever known
I must be a masochist cause you ha me crying, but I want more! It’s so well written and the pictures are so well ‘painted’! Update soon!
Date: May 27, 2009 04:29 am Title: Chapter 5: That's when my restlessness begins. Please don't let it win
Oh please continue! The combination of the flashbacks andcurrent day Jim stuff is heartbreaking and so good. Love it!
Date: May 26, 2009 09:33 pm Title: Chapter 5: That's when my restlessness begins. Please don't let it win
:) I want it to stop! But I can't stop reading it! I know it's going to make me want to cry and I keep clicking on it every time I see a new chapter... obviously I find it too plausible for comfort. I liked Mark being in there, Jim's got to have a few people outside of family who are going to help him move forward. Oh, and the flashbacks are fun.
Date: April 24, 2009 02:57 pm Title: Chapter 4: Would you hold my hand If I saw you in heaven?
His wife was dead for five days now. His daughter was five days old. He's lost so much and yet he was holding his everything right now. This? This made me not OK. Wow.
I know this isn't a positive story, but damn. It breaks my heart and keeps me absolutely coming back for more!
Date: April 24, 2009 09:49 am Title: Chapter 4: Would you hold my hand If I saw you in heaven?
God this is so heartbreaking but so amazingly beautiful. It's really amazing to me that you're able to write like this, because I know that I certainly would not be able to do it. Great job, and I hope things get better for Jim soon!
10 [Report This]Date: April 24, 2009 07:16 am Title: Chapter 4: Would you hold my hand If I saw you in heaven?
You are truly amazing. You reduce me to tears and make me smile all at the same time, the ending was just beautiful. I want to hug Jim so bad, the way he's so empty without pam, but so full of love for amanda, it's just perfect.
Cannot wait to read the next chapter!!!
Date: April 15, 2009 07:57 am Title: Chapter 3: To Where you are....
I just read all of this in one sitting. You've done a wonderful job making me feel Jim's devastation in this unthinkable scenario. I thought the scene with Jim's brothers was especially well done and it felt very real. Mixing in the memories is effective because when something like this happens, well, that's what your mind does. But enough with the rational analysis - truth is, I'm a mess, dammit. My eyes will be red all day.
Date: April 15, 2009 04:12 am Title: Chapter 1: Losing her, the only one who's ever known
Oh man, my throat hurts from crying. Far out.
Date: April 13, 2009 05:51 pm Title: Chapter 3: To Where you are....
I've tried to read this story like ten times, but I can never get past the first chapter. I've never cried at a story before (except for The Outsiders and every Harry Potter novel in which somebody died, but whatever) but I cried at this. Hard. Beautiful, amazing, job. I can't promise that I'll leave more reviews, but know that I'll be reading--even if it takes me years to be able to get through it.
10 [Report This]Date: April 13, 2009 05:25 pm Title: Chapter 3: To Where you are....
I want to stop reading--this is such a painful story to read--but I. Can't. Stop.
It's unbelievable. This is just too amazing....at the end, though, will you make Pam miraculously come to life? Or maybe she could visit Jim in a dream or something? (LOL) I just can't take it!
9 [Report This]Date: April 13, 2009 04:49 pm Title: Chapter 3: To Where you are....
You arekilling me with this story but I can't stay away. The emotion is so rae and deep and compelling. I love how you're adding the beautiful memories to the soften the harsh present.
10 [Report This]Date: April 13, 2009 04:11 pm Title: Chapter 3: To Where you are....
Damn you for making me cry! I love that you keep flashing back to when Pam was alive. Definitely helps even out the sadness. Loved the scene between Michael and Jim. You're doing a great job :)
Date: April 13, 2009 01:44 pm Title: Chapter 3: To Where you are....
WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME!?!!?!
Seriously, I know this is going to be a sad story, but I keep going back to it like a crack addict. I adore the little snippits of happily married JAM, and then it breaks my heart when you delve into the hurt Jim is feeling :( His freak out over the baby when the aunts were talking about how he couldn't properly take care of her broke me. Guh... I want to stop reading but... This is MTT GOLD, I tell ya!